J. S. Le Fanu, Uncle Silas (1864) - Chaps. XLVI-L

Chapter XLVI: The Rivals
All the time that Dudley chose to persecute me with his odious society, I continued to walk at a brisk pace toward home, so that I had nearly reached the house when Milly met me, with a note which had arrived for me by the post, in her hand.
 ‘Here, Milly, are more verses. He is a very persevering poet, whoever he is.’ So I broke the seal; but this time it was prose. And the first words were ‘Captain Oakley!’
 I confess to an odd sensation as these remarkable words met my eye. It might possibly be a proposal. I did not wait to speculate, however, but read these sentences traced in the identical handwriting which had copied the lines with which I had been twice favoured.
 ‘Captain Oakley presents his compliments to Miss Ruthyn, and trusts she will excuse his venturing to ask whether, during his short stay in Feltram, he might be permitted to pay his respects at Bartram-Haugh. He has been making a short visit to his aunt, and could not find himself so near without at least attempting to renew an acquaintance which he has never ceased to cherish in memory. If Miss Ruthyn would be so very good as to favour him with ever so short a reply to the question he ventures most respectfully to ask, her decision would reach him at the Hall Hotel, Feltram.’
 ‘Well, he’s a roundabout fellah, anyhow. Couldn’t he come up and see you if he wanted to? They poeters, they do love writing long yarns - don’t they?’ And with this reflection, Milly took the note and read it through again.
 ‘It’s jolly polite anyhow, isn’t it Maud?’ said Milly, who had conned it over, and accepted it as a model composition.
 I must have been, I think, naturally a rather shrewd girl; and considering how very little I had seen of the world - nothing in fact - I often wonder now at the sage conclusions at which I arrived.
 Were I to answer this handsome and cunning fool according to his folly, in what position should I find myself? No doubt my reply would induce a rejoinder, and that compel another note from me, and that invite yet another from him; and however his might improve in warmth, they were sure not to abate. Was it his impertinent plan, with this show of respect and ceremony, to drag me into a clandestine correspondence? Inexperienced girl as I was, I fired at the idea of becoming his dupe, and fancying, perhaps, that there was more in merely answering his note than it would have amounted to, I said -
 ‘That kind of thing may answer very well with button-makers, but ladies don’t like it. What would your papa think of it if he found that I had been writing to him, and seeing him without his permission? If he wanted to see me he could have’ - (I really did not know exactly what he could have done) - ‘he could have timed his visit to Lady Knollys differently; at all events, he has no right to place me in an embarrassing situation, and I am certain Cousin Knollys would say so; and I think his note both shabby and impertinent.’
 Decision was not with me an intellectual process. When quite cool I was the most undecided of mortals, but once my feelings were excited I was prompt and bold.
 ‘I’ll give the note to Uncle Silas,’ I said, quickening my pace toward home; ‘he’ll know what to do.’
 But Milly, who, I fancy, had no objection to the little romance which the young officer proposed, told me that she could not see her father, that he was ill, and not speaking to anyone.
 ‘And arn’t ye making a plaguy row about nothin’? I lay a guinea if ye had never set eyes on Lord Ilbury you’d a told him to come, and see ye, an’ welcome.’
 ‘Don’t talk like a fool, Milly. You never knew me do anything deceitful. Lord Ilbury has no more to do with it, you know very well, than the man in the moon.’
 I was altogether very indignant. I did not speak another word to Milly. The proportions of the house are so great, that it is a much longer walk than you would suppose from the hall-door to Uncle Silas’s room. But I did not cool all that way; and it was not till I had just reached the lobby, and saw the sour, jealous face, and high caul of old Wyat, and felt the influence of that neighbourhood, that I paused to reconsider. I fancied there was a cool consciousness of success behind all the deferential phraseology of Captain Oakley, which nettled me extremely. No; there could be no doubt. I tapped softly at the door.
 ‘What is it now, Miss?’ snarled the querulous old woman, with her shrivelled fingers on the door-handle.
 ‘Can I see my uncle for a moment?’
 ‘He’s tired, and not a word from him all day long.’
 ‘Not ill, though?’
 ‘Awful bad in the night,’ said the old crone, with a sudden savage glare in my face, as if I had brought it about.
 ‘Oh! I’m very sorry. I had not heard a word of it.’
 ‘No one does but old Wyat. There’s Milly there never asks neither - his own child!’
 ‘Weakness, or what?’
 ‘One o’ them fits. He’ll slide awa’ in one o’ them some day, and no one but old Wyat to know nor ask word about it; that’s how ‘Twill be.’
 ‘Will you please hand him this note, if he is well enough to look at it, and say I am at the door?’
 She took it with a peevish nod and a grunt, closing the door in my face, and in a few minutes returned -
 ‘Come in wi’ ye,’ said Dame Wyat, and I appeared.
 Uncle Silas, who, after his nightly horror or vision, lay extended on a sofa, with his faded yellow silk dressing-gown about him, his long white hair hanging toward the ground, and that wild and feeble smile lighting his face - a glimmer I feared to look upon - his long thin arms lay by his sides, with hands and fingers that stirred not, except when now and then, with a feeble motion, he wet his temples and forehead with eau de Cologne from a glass saucer placed beside him.
 ‘Excellent girl! dutiful ward and niece!’ murmured the oracle; ‘heaven reward you - your frank dealing is your own safety and my peace. Sit you down, and say who is this Captain Oakley, when you made his acquaintance, what his age, fortune, and expectations, and who the aunt he mentions.’
 Upon all these points I satisfied him as fully as I was able.
 ‘Wyat - the white drops,’ he called, in a thin, stern tone. ‘I’ll write a line presently. I can’t see visitors, and, of course, you can’t receive young captains before you’ve come out. Farewell! God bless you, dear.’
 Wyat was dropping the ‘white’ restorative into a wine-glass and the room was redolent of ether. I was glad to escape. The figures and whole mise en scène were unearthly.
 ‘Well, Milly,’ I said, as I met her in the hall, ‘your papa is going to write to him.’
 I sometimes wonder whether Milly was right, and how I should have acted a few months earlier.
 Next day whom should we meet in the Windmill Wood but Captain Oakley. The spot where this interesting rencontre occurred was near that ruinous bridge on my sketch of which I had received so many compliments. It was so great a surprise that I had not time to recollect my indignation, and, having received him very affably, I found it impossible, during our brief interview, to recover my lost altitude.
 After our greetings were over, and some compliments neatly made, he said -
 ‘I had such a curious note from Mr. Silas Ruthyn. I am sure he thinks me a very impertinent fellow, for it was really anything but inviting - extremely rude, in fact. But I could not quite see that because he does not want me to invade his bed-room - an incursion I never dreamed of - I was not to present myself to you, who had already honoured me with your acquaintance, with the sanction of those who were most interested in your welfare, and who were just as well qualified as he, I fancy, to say who were qualified for such an honour.’
 ‘My uncle, Mr. Silas Ruthyn, you are aware, is my guardian; and this is my cousin, his daughter.’
 This was an opportunity of becoming a little lofty, and I improved it. He raised his hat and bowed to Milly.
 ‘I’m afraid I’ve been very rude and stupid. Mr. Ruthyn, of course, has a perfect right to - to - in fact, I was not the least aware that I had the honour of so near a relation’s - a - a - and what exquisite scenery you have! I think this country round Feltram particularly fine; and this Bartram-Haugh is, I venture to say, about the very most beautiful spot in this beautiful region. I do assure you I am tempted beyond measure to make Feltram and the Hall Hotel my head-quarters for at least a week. I only regret the foliage; but your trees show wonderfully, even in winter, so many of them have got that ivy about them. They say it spoils trees, but it certainly beautifies them. I have just ten days’ leave unexpired; I wish I could induce you to advise me how to apply them. What shall I do, Miss Ruthyn?’
 ‘I am the worst person in the world to make plans, even for myself, I find it so troublesome. What do you say? Suppose you try Wales or Scotland, and climb up some of those fine mountains that look so well in winter?’
 ‘I should much prefer Feltram. I so wish you would recommend it. What is this pretty plant?’
 ‘We call that Maud’s myrtle. She planted it, and it’s very pretty when it’s full in blow,’ said Milly.
 Our visit to Elverston had been of immense use to us both.
 ‘Oh! planted by you?’ he said, very softly, with a momentary corresponding glance. ‘May I - ever so little - just a leaf?’
 And without waiting for permission, he held a sprig of it next his waistcoat.
 ‘Yes, it goes very prettily with those buttons. They are very pretty buttons; are not they, Milly? A present, a souvenir, I dare say?’
 This was a terrible hit at the button-maker, and I thought he looked a little oddly at me, but my countenance was so ‘bewitchingly simple’ that I suppose his suspicions were allayed.
 Now, it was very odd of me, I must confess, to talk in this way, and to receive all those tender allusions from a gentleman about whom I had spoken and felt so sharply only the evening before. But Bartram was abominably lonely. A civilised person was a valuable waif or stray in that region of the picturesque and the brutal; and to my lady reader especially, because she will probably be hardest upon me, I put it - can you not recollect any such folly in your own past life? Can you not in as many minutes call to mind at least six similar inconsistencies of your own practising? For my part, I really can’t see the advantage of being the weaker sex if we are always to be as strong as our masculine neighbours.
 There was, indeed, no revival of the little sentiment which I had once experienced. When these things once expire, I do believe they are as hard to revive as our dead lap-dogs, guinea-pigs, and parrots. It was my perfect coolness which enabled me to chat, I flatter myself, so agreeably with the refined Captain, who plainly thought me his captive, and was probably now and then thinking what was to be done to utilise that little bit of Bartram, or to beautify some other, when he should see fit to become its master, as we rambled over these wild but beautiful grounds.
 It was just about then that Milly nudged me rather vehemently, and whispered ‘Look there!’
 I followed with mine the direction of her eyes, and saw my odious cousin, Dudley, in a flagrant pair of cross-barred peg-tops, and what Milly before her reformation used to call other ‘slops’ of corresponding atrocity, approaching our refined little party with great strides. I really think that Milly was very nearly ashamed of him. I certainly was. I had no apprehension, however, of the scene which was imminent.
 The charming Captain mistook him probably for some rustic servant of the place, for he continued his agreeable remarks up to the very moment when Dudley, whose face was pale with anger, and whose rapid advance had not served to cool him, without recollecting to salute either Milly or me, accosted our elegant companion as follows: -
 ‘By your leave, master, baint you summat in the wrong box here, don’t you think?’
 He had planted himself directly in his front, and looked unmistakably menacing.
 ‘May I speak to him? Will you excuse me?’ said the Captain blandly.
 ‘Ow - ay, they’ll excuse ye ready enough, I dessay; you’re to deal wi’ me though. Baint ye in the wrong box now?’
 ‘I’m not conscious, sir, of being in a box at all,’ replied the Captain, with severe disdain. ‘It strikes me you are disposed to get up a row. Let us, if you please, get a little apart from the ladies if that is your purpose.’
 ‘I mean to turn you out o’ this the way ye came. If you make a row, so much the wuss for you, for I’ll lick ye to fits.’
 ‘Tell him not to fight,’ whispered Milly; ‘he’ll a no chance wi’ Dudley.’
 I saw Dickon Hawkes grinning over the paling on which he leaned.
 ‘Mr. Hawkes,’ I said, drawing Milly with me toward that unpromising mediator, ‘pray prevent unpleasantness and go between them.’
 ‘An’ git licked o’ both sides? Rather not, Miss, thank ye,’ grinned Dickon, tranquilly.
 ‘Who are you, sir?’ demanded our romantic acquaintance, with military sternness.
 ‘I’ll tell you who you are - you’re Oakley, as stops at the Hall, that Governor wrote, over-night, not to dare show your nose inside the grounds. You’re a half-starved cappen, come down here to look for a wife, and - - ‘
 Before Dudley could finish his sentence, Captain Oakley, than whose face no regimentals could possibly have been more scarlet, at that moment, struck with his switch at Dudley’s handsome features.
 I don’t know how it was done - by some ‘devilish cantrip slight.’ A smack was heard, and the Captain lay on his back on the ground, with his mouth full of blood.
 ‘How do ye like the taste o’ that?’ roared Dickon, from his post of observation.
 In an instant Captain Oakley was on his feet again, hatless, looking quite frantic, and striking out at Dudley, who was ducking and dipping quite coolly, and again the same horrid sound, only this time it was double, like a quick postman’s knock, and Captain Oakley was on the grass again.
 ‘Tapped his smeller, by - !’ thundered Dickon, with a roar of laughter.
 ‘Come away, Milly - I’m growing ill,’ said I.
 ‘Drop it, Dudley, I tell ye; you’ll kill him,’ screamed Milly.
 But the devoted Captain, whose nose, and mouth, and shirt-front formed now but one great patch of blood, and who was bleeding beside over one eye, dashed at him again.
 I turned away. I felt quite faint, and on the point of crying, with mere horror.
 ‘Hammer away at his knocker,’ bellowed Dickon, in a frenzy of delight.
 ‘He’ll break it now, if it ain’t already,’ cried Milly, alluding, as I afterwards understood, to the Captain’s Grecian nose.
 ‘Brayvo, little un!’ The Captain was considerably the taller.
 Another smack, and, I suppose, Captain Oakley fell once more.
 ‘Hooray! the dinner-service again, by - - ,’ roared Dickon. ‘Stick to that. Over the same ground - subsoil, I say. He han’t enough yet.’
 In a perfect tremor of disgust, I was making as quick a retreat as I could, and as I did, I heard Captain Oakley shriek hoarsely -
 ‘You’re a d - - prizefighter; I can’t box you.’
 ‘I told ye I’d lick ye to fits,’ hooted Dudley.
 ‘But you’re the son of a gentleman, and by - - you shall fight me as a gentleman.’
 A yell of hooting laughter from Dudley and Dickon followed this sally.
 ‘Gi’e my love to the Colonel, and think o’ me when ye look in the glass - won’t ye? An’ so you’re goin’ arter all; well, follow what’s left o’ yer nose. Ye forgot some o’ yer ivories, didn’t ye, on th’ grass?’
 These and many similar jibes followed the mangled Captain in his retreat.

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Chapter XLVII: Doctor Bryerly Reappears
 No one who has not experienced it can imagine the nervous disgust and horror which such a spectacle as we had been forced in part to witness leaves upon the mind of a young person of my peculiar temperament.
 It affected ever after my involuntary estimate of the principal actors in it. An exhibition of such thorough inferiority, accompanied by such a shock to the feminine sense of elegance, is not forgotten by any woman. Captain Oakley had been severely beaten by a smaller man. It was pitiable, but also undignified; and Milly’s anxieties about his teeth and nose, though in a certain sense horrible, had also a painful suspicion of the absurd.
 People say, on the other hand, that superior prowess, even in such barbarous contests, inspires in our sex an interest akin to admiration. I can positively say in my case it was quite the reverse. Dudley Ruthyn stood lower than ever in my estimation; for though I feared him more, it was by reason of these brutal and cold-blooded associations.
 After this I lived in constant apprehension of being summoned to my uncle’s room, and being called on for an explanation of my meeting with Captain Oakley, which, notwithstanding my perfect innocence, looked suspicious, but no such inquisition resulted. Perhaps he did not suspect me; or, perhaps, he thought, not in his haste, all women are liars, and did not care to hear what I might say. I rather lean to the latter interpretation.
 The exchequer just now, I suppose, by some means, was replenished, for next morning Dudley set off upon one of his fashionable excursions, as poor Milly thought them, to Wolverhampton. And the same day Dr. Bryerly arrived.
 Milly and I, from my room window, saw him step from his vehicle to the court-yard.
 A lean man, with sandy hair and whiskers, was in the chaise with him. Dr. Bryerly descended in the unchangeable black suit that always looked new and never fitted him.
 The Doctor looked careworn, and older, I thought, by several years, than when I last saw him. He was not shown up to my uncle’s room; on the contrary, Milly, who was more actively curious than I, ascertained that our tremulous butler informed him that my uncle was not sufficiently well for an interview. Whereupon Dr. Bryerly had pencilled a note, the reply to which was a message from Uncle Silas, saying that he would be happy to see him in five minutes.
 As Milly and I were conjecturing what it might mean, and before the five minutes had expired, Mary Quince entered.
 ‘Wyat bid me tell you, Miss, your uncle wants you this minute.’
 When I entered his room, Uncle Silas was seated at the table, with his desk before him. He looked up. Could anything be more dignified, suffering, and venerable?
 ‘I sent for you, dear,’ he said very gently, extending his thin, white hand, and taking mine, which he held affectionately while he spoke, ‘because I desire to have no secrets, and wish you thoroughly to know all that concerns your own interests while subject to my guardianship; and I am happy to think, my beloved niece, that you requite my candour. Oh, here is the gentleman. Sit down, dear.’
 Doctor Bryerly was advancing, as it seemed, to shake hands with Uncle Silas, who, however, rose with a severe and haughty air, not the least over-acted, and made him a slow, ceremonious bow. I wondered how the homely Doctor could confront so tranquilly that astounding statue of hauteur.
 A faint and weary smile, rather sad than comtemptuous, was the only sign he showed of feeling his repulse.
 ‘How do you do, Miss?’ he said, extending his hand, and greeting me after his ungallant fashion, as if it were an afterthought.
 ‘I think I may as well take a chair, sir,’ said Doctor Bryerly, sitting down serenely, near the table, and crossing his ungainly legs.
 My uncle bowed.
 ‘You understand the nature of the business, sir. Do you wish Miss Ruthyn to remain?’ asked Doctor Bryerly.
 ‘I sent for her, sir,’ replied my uncle, in a very gentle and sarcastic tone, a smile on his thin lips, and his strangely-contorted eyebrows raised for a moment contemptuously. ‘This gentleman, my dear Maud, thinks proper to insinuate that I am robbing you. It surprises me a little, and, no doubt, you - I’ve nothing to conceal, and wished you to be present while he favours me more particularly with his views. I’m right, I think, in describing it as robbery, sir?’
 ‘Why,’ said Doctor Bryerly thoughtfully, for he was treating the matter as one of right, and not of feeling, ‘it would be, certainly, taking that which does not belong to you, and converting it to your own use; but, at the worst, it would more resemble thieving, I think, than robbery.’
 I saw Uncle Silas’s lip, eyelid, and thin cheek quiver and shrink, as if with a thrill of tic-douloureux, as Doctor Bryerly spoke this unconsciously insulting answer. My uncle had, however, the self-command which is learned at the gaming-table. He shrugged, with a chilly, sarcastic, little laugh, and a glance at me.
 ‘Your note says waste, I think, sir?’
 ‘Yes, waste - the felling and sale of timber in the Windmill Wood, the selling of oak bark and burning of charcoal, as I’m informed,’ said Bryerly, as sadly and quietly as a man might relate a piece of intelligence from the newspaper.
 ‘Detectives? or private spies of your own - or, perhaps, my servants, bribed with my poor brother’s money? A very high-minded procedure.’
 ‘Nothing of the kind, sir.’
 My uncle sneered.
 ‘I mean, sir, there has been no undue canvass for evidence, and the question is simply one of right; and it is our duty to see that this inexperienced young lady is not defrauded.’
 ‘By her own uncle?’
 ‘By anyone,’ said Doctor Bryerly, with a natural impenetrability that excited my admiration.
 ‘Of course you come armed with an opinion?’ said my smiling uncle, insinuatingly.
 ‘The case is before Mr. Serjeant Grinders. These bigwigs don’t return their cases sometimes so quickly as we could wish.’
 ‘Then you have no opinion?’ smiled my uncle.
 ‘My solicitor is quite clear upon it; and it seems to me there can be no question raised, but for form’s sake.’
 ‘Yes, for form’s sake you take one, and in the meantime, upon a nice question of law, the surmises of a thick-headed attorney and of an ingenious apoth - I beg pardon, physician - are sufficient warrant for telling my niece and ward, in my presence, that I am defrauding her!’
 My uncle leaned back in his chair, and smiled with a contemptuous patience over Doctor Bryerly’s head, as he spoke.
 ‘I don’t know whether I used that expression, sir, but I am speaking merely in a technical sense. I mean to say, that, whether by mistake or otherwise, you are exercising a power which you don’t lawfully possess, and that the effect of that is to impoverish the estate, and, by so much as it benefits you, to wrong this young lady.’
 ‘I’m a technical defrauder, I see, and your manner conveys the rest. I thank my God, sir, I am a very different man from what I once was.’ Uncle Silas was speaking in a low tone, and with extraordinary deliberation. ‘I remember when I should have certainly knocked you down, sir, or tried it, at least, for a great deal less.’
 ‘But seriously, sir, what do you propose?’ asked Doctor Bryerly, sternly and a little flushed, for I think the old man was stirred within him; and though he did not raise his voice, his manner was excited.
 ‘I propose to defend my rights, sir,’ murmured Uncle Silas, very grim. ‘I’m not without an opinion, though you are.’
 You seem to think, sir, that I have a pleasure in annoying you; you are quite wrong. I hate annoying anyone - constitutionally - I hate it; but don’t you see, sir, the position I’m placed in? I wish I could please everyone, and do my duty.’
 Uncle Silas bowed and smiled.
 ‘I’ve brought with me the Scotch steward from Tolkingden, your estate, Miss, and if you let us we will visit the spot and make a note of what we observe, that is, assuming that you admit waste, and merely question our law.’
 ‘If you please, sir, you and your Scotchman shall do no such thing; and, bearing in mind that I neither deny nor admit anything, you will please further never more to present yourself, under any pretext whatsoever, either in this house or on the grounds of Bartram-Haugh, during my lifetime.’
 Uncle Silas rose up with the same glassy smile and scowl, in token that the interview was ended.
 ‘Good-bye, sir,’ said Doctor Bryerly, with a sad and thoughtful air, and hesitating for a moment, he said to me, ‘Do you think, Miss, you could afford me a word in the hall?’
 ‘Not a word, sir,’ snarled Uncle Silas, with a white flash from his eyes.
 There was a pause.
 ‘Sit where you are, Maud.’
 Another pause.
 ‘If you have anything to say to my ward, sir, you will please to say it here.’
 Doctor Bryerly’s dark and homely face was turned on me with an expression of unspeakable compassion.
 ‘I was going to say, that if you think of any way in which I can be of the least service, Miss, I’m ready to act, that’s all; mind, any way.’
 He hesitated, looking at me with the same expression as if he had something more to say; but he only repeated -
 ‘That’s all, Miss.’
 ‘Won’t you shake hands, Doctor Bryerly, before you go?’ I said, eagerly approaching him.
 Without a smile, with the same sad anxiety in his face, with his mind, as it seemed to me, on something else, and irresolute whether to speak it or be silent, he took my fingers in a very cold hand, and holding it so, and slowly shaking it, his grave and troubled glance unconsciously rested on Uncle Silas’s face, while in a sad tone and absent way he said -
 ‘Good-bye, Miss.’
 From before that sad gaze my uncle averted his strange eyes quickly, and looked, oddly, to the window.
 In a moment more Doctor Bryerly let my hand go with a sigh, and with an abrupt little nod to me, he left the room; and I heard that dismallest of sounds, the retreating footsteps of a true friend, lost.
 ‘Lead us not into temptation; if we pray so, we must not mock the eternal Majesty of Heaven by walking into temptation of our own accord.’
 This oracular sentence was not uttered by my uncle until Doctor Bryerly had been gone at least five minutes.
 ‘I’ve forbid him my house, Maud - first, because his perfectly unconscious insolence tries my patience nearly beyond endurance; and again, because I have heard unfavourable reports of him. On the question of right which he disputes, I am perfectly informed. I am your tenant, my dear niece; when I am gone you will learn how scrupulous I have been; you will see how, under the pressure of the most agonising pecuniary difficulties, the terrific penalty of a misspent youth, I have been careful never by a hair’s breadth to transgress the strict line of my legal privileges; alike, as your tenant, Maud, and as your guardian; how, amid frightful agitations, I have kept myself, by the miraculous strength and grace vouchsafed me - pure.
 ‘The world,’ he resumed after a short pause, ‘has no faith in any man’s conversion; it never forgets what he was, it never believes him anything better, it is an inexorable and stupid judge. What I was I will describe in blacker terms, and with more heartfelt detestation, than my traducers - a reckless prodigal, a godless profligate. Such I was; what I am, I am. If I had no hope beyond this world, of all men most miserable; but with that hope, a sinner saved.’
 Then he waxed eloquent and mystical. I think his Swedenborgian studies had crossed his notions of religion with strange lights. I never could follow him quite in these excursions into the region of symbolism. I only recollect that he talked of the deluge and the waters of Mara, and said, ‘I am washed - I am sprinkled,’ and then, pausing, bathed his thin temples and forehead with eau de Cologne; a process which was, perhaps, suggested by his imagery of sprinkling and so forth.
 Thus refreshed, he sighed and smiled, and passed to the subject of Doctor Bryerly.
 ‘Of Doctor Bryerly, I know that he is sly, that he loves money, was born poor, and makes nothing by his profession. But he possesses many thousand pounds, under my poor brother’s will, of your money; and he has glided with, of course a modest nolo episcopari, into the acting trusteeship, with all its multitudinous opportunities, of your immense property. That is not doing so badly for a visionary Swedenborgian. Such a man must prosper. But if he expected to make money of me, he is disappointed. Money, however, he will make of his trusteeship, as you will see. It is a dangerous resolution. But if he will seek the life of Dives, the worst I wish him is to find the death of Lazarus. But whether, like Lazarus, he be borne of angels into Abraham’s bosom, or, like the rich man, only dies and is buried, and the rest, neither living nor dying do I desire his company.’
 Uncle Silas here seemed suddenly overtaken by exhaustion. He leaned back with a ghastly look, and his lean features glistened with the dew of faintness. I screamed for Wyat. But he soon recovered sufficiently to smile his odd smile, and with it and his frown, nodded and waved me away.

Chapter XLVIII: Question and Answer
 My uncle, after all, was not ill that day, after the strange fashion of his malady, be it what it might. Old Wyat repeated in her sour laconic way that there was ‘nothing to speak of amiss with him.’ But there remained with me a sense of pain and fear. Doctor Bryerly, notwithstanding my uncle’s sarcastic reflections, remained, in my estimation, a true and wise friend. I had all my life been accustomed to rely upon others, and here, haunted by many unavowed and ill-defined alarms and doubts, the disappearance of an active and able friend caused my heart to sink.
 Still there remained my dear Cousin Monica, and my pleasant and trusted friend, Lord Ilbury; and in less than a week arrived an invitation from Lady Mary to the Grange, for me and Milly, to meet Lady Knollys. It was accompanied, she told me, by a note from Lord Ilbury to my uncle, supporting her request; and in the afternoon I received a message to attend my uncle in his room.
 ‘An invitation from Lady Mary Carysbroke for you and Milly to meet Monica Knollys; have you received it?’ asked my uncle, so soon as I was seated. Answered in the affirmative, he continued -
 ‘Now, Maud Ruthyn, I expect the truth from you; I have been frank, so shall you. Have you ever heard me spoken ill of by Lady Knollys?’
 I was quite taken aback.
 I felt my cheeks flushing. I was returning his fierce cold gaze with a stupid stare, and remained dumb.
 ‘Yes, Maud, you have.’
 I looked down in silence.
 ‘I know it; but it is right you should answer; have you or have you not?’
 I had to clear my voice twice or thrice. There was a kind of spasm in my throat.
 ‘I am trying to recollect,’ I said at last.
 ‘Do recollect,’ he replied imperiously.
 There was a little interval of silence. I would have given the world to be, on any conditions, anywhere else in the world.
 ‘Surely, Maud, you don’t wish to deceive your guardian? Come, the question is a plain one, and I know the truth already. I ask you again - have you ever heard me spoken ill of by Lady Knollys?’
 ‘Lady Knollys,’ I said, half articulately,’ speaks very freely, and often half in jest; but,’ I continued, observing something menacing in his face, ‘I have heard her express disapprobation of some things you have done.’
 ‘Come, Maud,’ he continued, in a stern, though still a low key, ‘did she not insinuate that charge - then, I suppose, in a state of incubation, the other day presented here full-fledged, with beak and claws, by that scheming apothecary - the statement that I was defrauding you by cutting down timber upon the grounds?’
 ‘She certainly did mention the circumstance; but she also argued that it might have been through ignorance of the extent of your rights.’
 ‘Come, come, Maud, you must not prevaricate, girl. I will have it. Does she not habitually speak disparagingly of me, in your presence, and to you? Answer.’
 I hung my head.
 ‘Yes or no?’
 ‘Well, perhaps so - yes,’ I faltered, and burst into tears.
 ‘There, don’t cry; it may well shock you. Did she not, to your knowledge, say the same things in presence of my child Millicent? I know it, I repeat - there is no use in hesitating; and I command you to answer.’
 Sobbing, I told the truth.
 ‘Now sit still, while I write my reply.’
 He wrote, with the scowl and smile so painful to witness, as he looked down upon the paper, and then he placed the note before me -
 ‘Read that, my dear.’
 It began -

 ‘MY DEAR LADY KNOLLYS. - You have favoured me with a note, adding your request to that of Lord Ilbury, that I should permit my ward and my daughter to avail themselves of Lady Mary’s invitation. Being perfectly cognisant of the ill-feeling you have always and unaccountably cherished toward me, and also of the terms in which you have had the delicacy and the conscience to speak of me before and to my child and my ward, I can only express my amazement at the modesty of your request, while peremptorily refusing it. And I shall conscientiously adopt effectual measures to prevent your ever again having an opportunity of endeavouring to destroy my influence and authority over my ward and my child, by direct or insinuated slander.
                                                         ‘Your defamed and injured kinsman,
                                                                                                  SILAS RUTHYN.’

 I was stunned; yet what could I plead against the blow that was to isolate me? I wept aloud, with my hands clasped, looking on the marble face of the old man.
 Without seeming to hear, he folded and sealed his note, and then proceeded to answer Lord Ilbury.
 When that note was written, he placed it likewise before me, and I read it also through. It simply referred him to Lady Knollys ‘for an explanation of the unhappy circumstances which compelled him to decline an invitation which it would have made his niece and his daughter so happy to accept.’
 ‘You see, my dear Maud, how frank I am with you,’ he said, waving the open note, which I had just read, slightly before he folded it. ‘I think I may ask you to reciprocate my candour.’
 Dismissed from this interview, I ran to Milly, who burst into tears from sheer disappointment, so we wept and wailed together. But in my grief I think there was more reason.
 I sat down to the dismal task of writing to my dear Lady Knollys. I implored her to make her peace with my uncle. I told her how frank he had been with me, and how he had shown me his sad reply to her letter. I told her of the interview to which he had himself invited me with Dr. Bryerly; how little disturbed he was by the accusation - no sign of guilt; quite the contrary, perfect confidence. I implored of her to think the best, and remembering my isolation, to accomplish a reconciliation with Uncle Silas. ‘Only think,’ I wrote, ‘I only nineteen, and two years of solitude before me. What a separation!’ No broken merchant ever signed the schedule of his bankruptcy with a heavier heart than did I this letter.
 The griefs of youth are like the wounds of the gods - there is an ichor which heals the scars from which it flows: and thus Milly and I consoled ourselves, and next day enjoyed our ramble, our talk and readings, with a wonderful resignation to the inevitable.
 Milly and I stood in the relation of Lord Duberly to Doctor Pangloss. I was to mend her ‘cackleology,’ and the occupation amused us both. I think at the bottom of our submission to destiny lurked a hope that Uncle Silas, the inexorable, would relent, or that Cousin Monica, that siren, would win and melt him to her purpose.
 Whatever comfort, however, I derived from the absence of Dudley was not to be of very long duration; for one morning, as I was amusing myself alone, with a piece of worsted work, thinking, and just at that moment not unpleasantly, of many things, my cousin Dudley entered the room.
 ‘Back again, like a bad halfpenny, ye see. And how a’ ye bin ever since, lass? Purely, I warrant, be your looks. I’m jolly glad to see ye, I am; no cattle going like ye, Maud.’
 ‘I think I must ask you to let go my hand, as I can’t continue my work,’ I said, very stiffly, hoping to chill his enthusiasm a little.
 ‘Anything to pleasure ye, Maud, ‘tain’t in my heart to refuse ye nout. I a’bin to Wolverhampton, lass - jolly row there - and run over to Leamington; a’most broke my neck, faith, wi’ a borrowed horse arter the dogs; ye would na care, Maud, if I broke my neck, would ye? Well, ‘appen, jest a little,’ he good-naturedly supplied, as I was silent.
 ‘Little over a week since I left here, by George; and to me it’s half the almanac like; can ye guess the reason, Maud?’
 ‘Have you seen your sister, Milly, or your father, since your return?’ I asked coldly.
 ‘They’ll keep, Maud, never mind ‘em; it be you I want to see - it be you I wor thinkin’ on a’ the time. I tell ye, lass, I’m all’ays a thinkin’ on ye.’
 ‘I think you ought to go and see your father; you have been away, you say, some time. I don’t think it is respectful,’ I said, a little sharply.
 ‘If ye bid me go I’d a’most go, but I could na quite; there’s nout on earth I would na do for you, Maud, excep’ leaving you.’
 ‘And that,’ I said, with a petulant flush, ‘is the only thing on earth I would ask you to do.’
 ‘Blessed if you baint a blushin’, Maud,’ he drawled, with an odious grin.
 His stupidity was proof against everything.
 ‘It is too bad!’ I muttered, with an indignant little pat of my foot and mimic stamp.
 ‘Well, you lasses be queer cattle; ye’re angry wi’ me now, cos ye think I got into mischief - ye do, Maud; ye know’t, ye buxsom little fool, down there at Wolverhampton; and jest for that ye’re ready to turn me off again the minute I come back; ’tisn’t fair.’
 ‘I don’t understand you, sir; and I beg that you’ll leave me.’
 ‘Now, didn’t I tell ye about leavin’ ye, Maud? ’tis the only thing I can’t compass for yer sake. I’m jest a child in yere hands, I am, ye know. I can lick a big fellah to pot as limp as a rag, by George!’ - (his oaths were not really so mild) - ‘ye see summat o’ that t’other day. Well, don’t be vexed, Maud; ’Twas all along o’ you; ye know, I wor a bit jealous, ‘appen; but anyhow I can do it; and look at me here, jest a child, I say, in yer hands.’
 ‘I wish you’d go away. Have you nothing to do, and no one to see? Why can’t you leave me alone, sir?’
 ‘’Cos I can’t, Maud, that’s jest why; and I wonder, Maud, how can you be so ill-natured, when you see me like this; how can ye?’
 ‘I wish Milly would come,’ said I peevishly, looking toward the door.
 ‘Well, I’ll tell you how it is, Maud. I may as well have it out. I like you better than any lass that ever I saw, a deal; you’re nicer by chalks; there’s none like ye - there isn’t; and I wish you’d have me. I ha’n’t much tin - father’s run through a deal, he’s pretty well up a tree, ye know; but though I baint so rich as some folk, I’m a better man, ‘appen; and if ye’d take a tidy lad, that likes ye awful, and ‘id die for your sake, why here he is.’
 ‘What can you mean, sir?’ I exclaimed, rising in indignant bewilderment.
 ‘I mean, Maud, if ye’ll marry me, you’ll never ha’ cause to complain; I’ll never let ye want for nout, nor gi’e ye a wry word.’
 ‘Actually a proposal!’ I ejaculated, like a person speaking in a dream.
 I stood with my hand on the back of a chair, staring at Dudley; and looking, I dare say, as stupefied as I felt.
 ‘There’s a good lass, ye would na deny me,’ said the odious creature, with one knee on the seat of the chair behind which I was standing, and attempting to place his arm lovingly round my neck.
 This effectually roused me, and starting back, I stamped upon the ground with actual fury.
 ‘What has there ever been, sir, in my conduct, words, or looks, to warrant this unparalleled audacity? But that you are as stupid as you are impertinent, brutal, and ugly, you must, long ago, sir, have seen how I dislike you. How dare you, sir? Don’t presume to obstruct me; I’m going to my uncle.’
 I had never spoken so violently to mortal before.
 He in turn looked a little confounded; and I passed his extended but motionless arm with a quick and angry step.
 He followed me a pace or two, however, before I reached the door, looking horridly angry, but stopped, and only swore after me some of those ‘wry words’ which I was never to have heard. I was myself, however, too much incensed, and moving at too rapid a pace, to catch their import; and I had knocked at my uncle’s door before I began to collect my thoughts.
 ‘Come in,’ replied my uncle’s voice, clear, thin, and peevish.
 I entered and confronted him.
 ‘Your son, sir, has insulted me.’
 He looked at me with a cold curiosity steadly for a few seconds, as I stood panting before him with flaming cheeks.
 ‘Insulted you?’ repeated he. ‘Egad, you surprise me!’
 The ejaculation savoured of ‘the old man,’ to borrow his scriptural phrase, more than anything I had heard from him before.
 ‘How?’ he continued; ‘how has Dudley insulted you, my dear child? Come, you’re excited; sit down; take time, and tell me all about it. I did not know that Dudley was here.’
 ‘I - he - it is an insult. He knew very well - he must know I dislike him; and he presumed to make a proposal of marriage to me.’
 ‘O - o - oh!’ exclaimed my uncle, with a prolonged intonation which plainly said, Is that the mighty matter?
 He looked at me as he leaned back with the same steady curiosity, this time smiling, which somehow frightened me, and his countenance looked to me wicked, like the face of a witch, with a guilt I could not understand.
 ‘And that is the amount of your complaint. He made you a formal proposal of marriage!’
 ‘Yes; he proposed for me.’
 As I cooled, I began to feel just a very little disconcerted, and a suspicion was troubling me that possibly an indifferent person might think that, having no more to complain of, my language was perhaps a little exaggerated, and my demeanour a little too tempestuous.
 My uncle, I dare say, saw some symptoms of this misgiving, for, smiling still, he said -
 ‘My dear Maud, however just, you appear to me a little cruel; you don’t seem to remember how much you are yourself to blame; you have one faithful friend at least, whom I advise your consulting - I mean your looking-glass. The foolish fellow is young, quite ignorant in the world’s ways. He is in love - desperately enamoured.

Aimer c’est craindre, et craindre c’est souffrir.

And suffering prompts to desperate remedies. We must not be too hard on a rough but romantic young fool, who talks according to his folly and his pain.’

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Chapter XLIX: An Apparition
 ‘But, after all,’ he suddenly resumed, as if a new thought had struck him, ‘is it quite such folly, after all? It really strikes me, dear Maud, that the subject may be worth a second thought. No, no, you won’t refuse to hear me,’ he said, observing me on the point of protesting. ‘I am, of course, assuming that you are fancy free. I am assuming, too, that you don’t care twopence about Dudley, and even that you fancy you dislike him. You know in that pleasant play, poor Sheridan - delightful fellow! - all our fine spirits are dead - he makes Mrs. Malaprop say there is nothing like beginning with a little aversion. Now, though in matrimony, of course, that is only a joke, yet in love, believe me, it is no such thing. His own marriage with Miss Ogle, I know, was a case in point. She expressed a positive horror of him at their first acquaintance; and yet, I believe, she would, a few months later, have died rather than not have married him.’
 I was again about to speak, but with a smile he beckoned me into silence.
 ‘There are two or three points you must bear in mind. One of the happiest privileges of your fortune is that you may, without imprudence, marry simply for love. There are few men in England who could offer you an estate comparable with that you already possess; or, in fact, appreciably increase the splendour of your fortune. If, therefore, he were in all other respects eligible, I can’t see that his poverty would be an objection to weigh for one moment. He is quite a rough diamond. He has been, like many young men of the highest rank, too much given up to athletic sports - to that society which constitutes the aristocracy of the ring and the turf, and all that kind of thing. You see, I am putting all the worst points first. But I have known so many young men in my day, after a madcap career of a few years among prizefighters, wrestlers, and jockeys - learning their slang and affecting their manners - take up and cultivate the graces and the decencies. There was poor dear Newgate, many degrees lower in that kind of frolic, who, when he grew tired of it, became one of the most elegant and accomplished men in the House of Peers. Poor Newgate, he’s gone, too! I could reckon up fifty of my early friends who all began like Dudley, and all turned out, more or less, like Newgate.’
 At this moment came a knock at the door, and Dudley put in his head most inopportunely for the vision of his future graces and accomplishments.
 ‘My good fellow,’ said his father, with a sharp sort of playfulness, ‘I happen to be talking about my son, and should rather not be overheard; you will, therefore, choose another time for your visit.’
 Dudley hesitated gruffly at the door, but another look from his father dismissed him.
 ‘And now, my dear, you are to remember that Dudley has fine qualities - the most affectionate son in his rough way that ever father was blessed with; most admirable qualities - indomitable courage, and a high sense of honour; and lastly, that he has the Ruthyn blood - the purest blood, I maintain it, in England.’
 My uncle, as he said this, drew himself up a little, unconsciously, his thin hand laid lightly over his heart with a little patting motion, and his countenance looked so strangely dignified and melancholy, that in admiring contemplation of it I lost some sentences which followed next.
 ‘Therefore, dear, naturally anxious that my boy should not be dismissed from home - as he must be, should you persevere in rejecting his suit - I beg that you will reserve your decision to this day fortnight, when I will with much pleasure hear what you may have to say on the subject. But till then, observe me, not a word.’
 That evening he and Dudley were closeted for a long time. I suspect that he lectured him on the psychology of ladies; for a bouquet was laid beside my plate every morning at breakfast, which it must have been troublesome to get, for the conservatory at Bartram was a desert. In a few days more an anonymous green parrot arrived, in a gilt cage, with a little note in a clerk’s hand, addressed to ‘Miss Ruthyn (of Knowl), Bartram-Haugh,’ &c. It contained only ‘Directions for caring green parrot,’ at the close of which, underlined, the words appeared - ‘The bird’s name is Maud.’
 The bouquets I invariably left on the table-cloth, where I found them - the bird I insisted on Milly’s keeping as her property. During the intervening fortnight Dudley never appeared, as he used sometimes to do before, at luncheon, nor looked in at the window as we were at breakfast. He contented himself with one day placing himself in my way in the hall in his shooting accoutrements, and, with a clumsy, shuffling kind of respect, and hat in hand, he said -
 ‘I think, Miss, I must a spoke uncivil t’other day. I was so awful put about, and didn’t know no more nor a child what I was saying; and I wanted to tell ye I’m sorry for it, and I beg your pardon - very humble, I do.’
 I did not know what to say. I therefore said nothing, but made a grave inclination, and passed on.
 Two or three times Milly and I saw him at a little distance in our walks. He never attempted to join us. Once only he passed so near that some recognition was inevitable, and he stopped and in silence lifted his hat with an awkward respect. But although he did not approach us, he was ostentatious with a kind of telegraphic civility in the distance. He opened gates, he whistled his dogs to ‘heel,’ he drove away cattle, and then himself withdrew. I really think he watched us occasionally to render these services, for in this distant way we encountered him decidedly oftener than we used to do before his flattering proposal of marriage.
 You may be sure that we discussed, Milly and I, that occurrence pretty constantly in all sorts of moods. Limited as had been her experience of human society, she very clearly saw now how far below its presentable level was her hopeful brother.
 The fortnight sped swiftly, as time always does when something we dislike and shrink from awaits us at its close. I never saw Uncle Silas during that period. It may seem odd to those who merely read the report of our last interview, in which his manner had been more playful and his talk more trifling than in any other, that from it I had carried away a profounder sense of fear and insecurity than from any other. It was with a foreboding of evil and an awful dejection that on a very dark day, in Milly’s room, I awaited the summons which I was sure would reach me from my punctual guardian.
 As I looked from the window upon the slanting rain and leaden sky, and thought of the hated interview that awaited me, I pressed my hand to my troubled heart, and murmured, ‘O that I had wings like a dove! then would I flee away, and be at rest.’
 Just then the prattle of the parrot struck my ear. I looked round on the wire cage, and remembered the words, ‘The bird’s name is Maud.’
 ‘Poor bird!’ I said. ‘I dare say, Milly, it longs to get out. If it were a native of this country, would not you like to open the window, and then the door of that cruel cage, and let the poor thing fly away?’
 ‘Master wants Miss Maud,’ said Wyat’s disagreeable tones, at the half-open door.
 I followed in silence, with the pressure of a near alarm at my heart, like a person going to an operation.
 When I entered the room, my heart beat so fast that I could hardly speak. The tall form of Uncle Silas rose before me, and I made him a faltering reverence.
 He darted from under his brows a wild, fierce glance at old Wyat, and pointed to the door imperiously with his skeleton finger. The door shut, and we were alone.
 ‘A chair?’ he said, pointing to a seat.
 ‘Thank you, uncle, I prefer standing,’ I faltered.
 He also stood - his white head bowed forward, the phosphoric glare of his strange eyes shone upon me from under his brows - his finger-nails just rested on the table.
 ‘You saw the luggage corded and addressed, as it stands ready for removal in the hall?’ he asked.
 I had. Milly and I had read the cards which dangled from the trunk-handles and gun-case. The address was - ‘Mr. Dudley R. Ruthyn, Paris, viâ Dover.’
 ‘I am old - agitated - on the eve of a decision on which much depends. Pray relieve my suspense. Is my son to leave Bartram to-day in sorrow, or to remain in joy? Pray answer quickly.’
 I stammered I know not what. I was incoherent - wild, perhaps; but somehow I expressed my meaning - my unalterable decision. I thought his lips grew whiter and his eyes shone brighter as I spoke.
 When I had quite made an end, he heaved a great sigh, and turning his eyes slowly to the right and the left, like a man in a helpless distraction, he whispered -
 ‘God’s will be done.’
 I thought he was upon the point of fainting - a clay tint darkened the white of his face; and, seeming to forget my presence, he sat down, looking with a despairing scowl on his ashy old hand, as it lay upon the table.
 I stood gazing at him, feeling almost as if I had murdered the old man - he still gazing askance, with an imbecile scowl, upon his hand.
 ‘Shall I go, sir?’ I at length found courage to whisper.
 ‘Go?’ he said, looking up suddenly; and it seemed to me as if a stream of cold sheet-lightning had crossed and enveloped me for a moment.
 ‘Go? - oh! - a - yes - yes, Maud - go. I must see poor Dudley before his departure,’ he added, as it were, in soliloquy.
 Trembling lest he should revoke his permission to depart, I glided quickly and noiselessly from the room.
 Old Wyat was prowling outside, with a cloth in her hand, pretending to dust the carved door-case. She frowned a stare of enquiry over her shrunken arm on me, as I passed. Milly, who had been on the watch, ran and met me. We heard my uncle’s voice, as I shut the door, calling Dudley. He had been waiting, probably, in the adjoining room. I hurried into my chamber, with Milly at my side, and there my agitation found relief in tears, as that of girlhood naturally does.
 A little while after we saw from the window Dudley, looking, I thought, very pale, get into a vehicle, on the top of which his luggage lay, and drive away from Bartram.
 I began to take comfort. His departure was an inexpressible relief. His final departure! a distant journey!
 We had tea in Milly’s room that night. Firelight and candles are inspiring. In that red glow I always felt and feel more safe, as well as more comfortable, than in the daylight - quite irrationally, for we know the night is the appointed day of such as love the darkness better than light, and evil walks thereby. But so it is. Perhaps the very consciousness of external danger enhances the enjoyment of the well-lighted interior, just as the storm does that roars and hurtles over the roof.
 While Milly and I were talking, very cosily, a knock came to the room-door, and, without waiting for an invitation to enter, old Wyat came in, and glowering at us, with her brown claw upon the door-handle, she said to Milly -
 ‘Ye must leave your funnin’, Miss Milly, and take your turn in your father’s room.’
 ‘Is he ill?’ I asked.
 She answered, addressing not me, but Milly -
 ‘A wrought two hours in a fit arter Master Dudley went. ’Twill be the death o’ him, I’m thinkin’, poor old fellah. I wor sorry myself when I saw Master Dudley a going off in the moist to-day, poor fellah. There’s trouble enough in the family without a’ that; but ’twon’t be a family long, I’m thinkin’. Nout but trouble, nout but trouble, since late changes came.’
 Judging by the sour glance she threw on me as she said this, I concluded that I represented those ‘late changes’ to which all the sorrows of the house were referred.
 I felt unhappy under the ill-will even of this odious old woman, being one of those unhappily constructed mortals who cannot be indifferent when they reasonably ought, and always yearn after kindness, even that of the worthless.
 ‘I must go. I wish you’d come wi’ me, Maud, I’m so afraid all alone,’ said Milly, imploringly.
 ‘Certainly, Milly,’ I answered, not liking it, you may be sure; ‘you shan’t sit there alone.’
 So together we went, old Wyat cautioning us for our lives to make no noise.
 We passed through the old man’s sitting-room, where that day had occurred his brief but momentous interview with me, and his parting with his only son, and entered the bed-room at the farther end.
 A low fire burned in the grate. The room was in a sort of twilight. A dim lamp near the foot of the bed at the farther side was the only light burning there. Old Wyat whispered an injunction not to speak above our breaths, nor to leave the fireside unless the sick man called or showed signs of weariness. These were the directions of the doctor, who had been there.
 So Milly and I sat ourselves down near the hearth, and old Wyat left us to our resources. We could hear the patient breathe; but he was quite still. In whispers we talked; but our conversation flagged. I was, after my wont, upbraiding myself for the suffering I had inflicted. After about half an hour’s desultory whispering, and intervals, growing longer and longer, of silence, it was plain that Milly was falling asleep.
 She strove against it, and I tried hard to keep her talking; but it would not do - sleep overcame her; and I was the only person in that ghastly room in a state of perfect consciousness.
 There were associations connected with my last vigil there to make my situation very nervous and disagreeable. Had I not had so much to occupy my mind of a distinctly practical kind - Dudley’s audacious suit, my uncle’s questionable toleration of it, and my own conduct throughout that most disagreeable period of my existence, - I should have felt my present situation a great deal more.
 As it was, I thought of my real troubles, and something of Cousin Knollys, and, I confess, a good deal of Lord Ilbury. When looking towards the door, I thought I saw a human face, about the most terrible my fancy could have called up, looking fixedly into the room. It was only a ‘three-quarter,’ and not the whole figure - the door hid that in a great measure, and I fancied I saw, too, a portion of the fingers. The face gazed toward the bed, and in the imperfect light looked like a livid mask, with chalky eyes.
 I had so often been startled by similar apparitions formed by accidental lights and shadows disguising homely objects, that I stooped forward, expecting, though tremulously, to see this tremendous one in like manner dissolve itself into its harmless elements; and now, to my unspeakable terror, I became perfectly certain that I saw the countenance of Madame de la Rougierre.
 With a cry, I started back, and shook Milly furiously from her trance.
 ‘Look! look!’ I cried. But the apparition or illusion was gone.
 I clung so fast to Milly’s arm, cowering behind her, that she could not rise.
 ‘Milly! Milly! Milly! Milly!’ I went on crying, like one struck with idiotcy, and unable to say anything else.
 In a panic, Milly, who had seen nothing, and could conjecture nothing of the cause of my terror, jumped up, and clinging to one another, we huddled together into the corner of the room, I still crying wildly, ‘Milly! Milly! Milly!’ and nothing else.
 ‘What is it - where is it - what do you see?’ cried Milly, clinging to me as I did to her.
 ‘It will come again; it will come; oh, heaven!’
 ‘What - what is it, Maud?’
 ‘The face! the face!’ I cried. ‘Oh, Milly! Milly! Milly!’
 We heard a step softly approaching the open door, and, in a horrible sauve qui peut, we rushed and stumbled together toward the light by Uncle Silas’s bed. But old Wyat’s voice and figure reassured us.
 ‘Milly,’ I said, so soon as, pale and very faint, I reached my apartment, ‘no power on earth shall ever tempt me to enter that room again after dark.’
 ‘Why, Maud dear, what, in Heaven’s name, did you see?’ said Milly, scarcely less terrified.
 ‘Oh, I can’t; I can’t; I can’t, Milly. Never ask me. It is haunted. The room is haunted horribly.’
 ‘Was it Charke?’ whispered Milly, looking over her shoulder, all aghast.
 ‘No, no - don’t ask me; a fiend in a worse shape.’ I was relieved at last by a long fit of weeping; and all night good Mary Quince sat by me, and Milly slept by my side. Starting and screaming, and drugged with sal-volatile, I got through that night of supernatural terror, and saw the blessed light of heaven again.
 Doctor Jolks, when he came to see my uncle in the morning, visited me also. He pronounced me very hysterical, made minute enquiries respecting my hours and diet, asked what I had had for dinner yesterday. There was something a little comforting in his cool and confident pooh-poohing of the ghost theory. The result was, a regimen which excluded tea, and imposed chocolate and porter, earlier hours, and I forget all beside; and he undertook to promise that, if I would but observe his directions, I should never see a ghost again.

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Chapter L: Milly’s Farewell
 A few days’ time saw me much better. Doctor Jolks was so contemptuously sturdy and positive on the point, that I began to have comfortable doubts about the reality of my ghost; and having still a horror indescribable of the illusion, if such it were, the room in which it appeared, and everything concerning it, I would neither speak, nor, so far as I could, think of it.
 So, though Bartram-Haugh was gloomy as well as beautiful, and some of its associations awful, and the solitude that reigned there sometimes almost terrible, yet early hours, bracing exercise, and the fine air that predominates that region, soon restored my nerves to a healthier tone.
 But it seemed to me that Bartram-Haugh was to be to me a vale of tears; or rather, in my sad pilgrimage, that valley of the shadow of death through which poor Christian fared alone and in the dark.
 One day Milly ran into the parlour, pale, with wet cheeks, and, without saying a word, threw her arms about my neck, and burst into a paroxysm of weeping.
 ‘What is it, Milly - what’s the matter, dear - what is it?’ I cried aghast, but returning her close embrace heartily.
 ‘Oh! Maud - Maud darling, he’s going to send me away.’
 ‘Away, dear! where away? And leave me alone in this dreadful solitude, where he knows I shall die of fear and grief without you? Oh! no - no, it must be a mistake.’
 ‘I’m going to France, Maud - I’m going away. Mrs. Jolks is going to London, day ar’ter to-morrow, and I’m to go wi’ her; and an old French lady, he says, from the school will meet me there, and bring me the rest o’ the way.’
 ‘Oh - ho - ho - ho - ho - o - o - o!’ cried poor Milly, hugging me closer still, with her head buried in my shoulder, and swaying me about like a wrestler, in her agony.
 ‘I never wor away from home afore, except that little bit wi’ you over there at Elverston; and you wor wi’ me then, Maud; an’ I love ye - better than Bartram - better than a’; an’ I think I’ll die, Maud, if they take me away.’
 I was just as wild in my woe as poor Milly; and it was not until we had wept together for a full hour - sometimes standing - sometimes walking up and down the room - sometimes sitting and getting up in turns to fall on one another’s necks, - that Milly, plucking her handkerchief from her pocket, drew a note from it at the same time, which, as it fell upon the floor, she at once recollected to be one from Uncle Silas to me.
 It was to this effect: -
 ‘I wish to apprise my dear niece and ward of my plans. Milly proceeds to an admirable French school, as a pensionnaire, and leaves this on Thursday next. If after three months’ trial she finds it in any way objectionable, she returns to us. If, on the contrary, she finds it in all respects the charming residence it has been presented to me, you, on the expiration of that period, join her there, until the temporary complication of my affairs shall have been so far adjusted as to enable me to receive you once more at Bartram. Hoping for happier days, and wishing to assure you that three months is the extreme limit of your separation from my poor Milly, I have written this, feeling alas! unequal to seeing you at present. ‘Bartram, Tuesday.
 ‘P.S. - I can have no objection to your apprising Monica Knollys of these arrangements. You will understand, of course, not a copy of this letter, but its substance.’
 Over this document, scanning it as lawyers do a new Act of Parliament, we took comfort. After all, it was limited; a separation not to exceed three months, possibly much shorter. On the whole, too, I pleased myself with thinking Uncle Silas’s note, though peremptory, was kind.
 Our paroxysms subsided into sadness; a close correspondence was arranged. Something of the bustle and excitement of change supervened. If it turned out to be, in truth, a ‘charming residence,’ how very delightful our meeting in France, with the interest of foreign scenery, ways, and faces, would be!
 So Thursday arrived - a new gush of sorrow - a new brightening up - and, amid regrets and anticipations, we parted at the gate at the farther end of the Windmill Wood. Then, of course, were more good-byes, more embraces, and tearful smiles. Good Mrs. Jolks, who met us there, was in a huge fuss; I believe it was her first visit to the metropolis, and she was in proportion heated and important, and terrified about the train, so we had not many last words.
 I watched poor Milly, whose head was stretched from the window, her hand waving many adieux, until the curve of the road, and the clump of old ash-trees, thick with ivy, hid Milly, carriage and all, from view. My eyes filled again with tears. I turned towards Bartram. At my side stood honest Mary Quince.
 ‘Don’t take on so, Miss; ’twon’t be no time passing; three months is nothing at all,’ she said, smiling kindly.
 I smiled through my tears and kissed the good creature, and so side by side we re-entered the gate.
 The lithe young man in fustian, whom I had seen talking with Beauty on the morning of our first encounter with that youthful Amazon, was awaiting our re-entrance with the key in his hand. He stood half behind the open wicket. One lean brown cheek, one shy eye, and his sharp up-turned nose, I saw as we passed. He was treating me to a stealthy scrutiny, and seemed to shun my glance, for he shut the door quickly, and busied himself locking it, and then began stubbing up some thistles which grew close by, with the toe of his thick shoe, his back to us all the time.
 It struck me that I recognised his features, and I asked Mary Quince.
 ‘Have you seen that young man before, Quince?’
 ‘He brings up game for your uncle, sometimes, Miss, and lends a hand in the garden, I believe.’
 ‘Do you know his name, Mary?’
 ‘They call him Tom, I don’t know what more, Miss.’
 ‘Tom,’ I called; ‘please, Tom, come here for a moment.’
 Tom turned about, and approached slowly. He was more civil than the Bartram people usually were, for he plucked off his shapeless cap of rabbit-skin with a clownish respect.
 ‘Tom, what is your other name, - Tom what, my good man?’ I asked.
 ‘Tom Brice, ma’am.’
 ‘Haven’t I seen you before, Tom Brice?’ I pursued, for my curiosity was excited, and with it much graver feelings; for there certainly was a resemblance in Tom’s features to those of the postilion who had looked so hard at me as I passed the carriage in the warren at Knowl, on the evening of the outrage which had scared that quiet place.
 ‘’appen you may have, ma’am,’ he answered, quite coolly, looking down the buttons of his gaiters.
 ‘Are you a good whip - do you drive well?’
 ‘I’ll drive a plough wi’ most lads hereabout,’ answered Tom.
 ‘Have you ever been to Knowl, Tom?’
 Tom gaped very innocently.
 ‘Anan,’ he said.
 ‘Here, Tom, is half-a-crown.’
 He took it readily enough.
 ‘That be very good,’ said Tom, with a nod, having glanced sharply at the coin.
 I can’t say whether he applied that term to the coin, or to his luck, or to my generous self.
 ‘Now, Tom, you’ll tell me, have you ever been to Knowl?’
 ‘Maught a’ bin, ma’am, but I don’t mind no sich place - no.’
 As Tom spoke this with great deliberation, like a man who loves truth, putting a strain upon his memory for its sake, he spun the silver coin two or three times into the air and caught it, staring at it the while, with all his might.
 ‘Now, Tom, recollect yourself, and tell me the truth, and I’ll be a friend to you. Did you ride postilion to a carriage having a lady in it, and, I think, several gentlemen, which came to the grounds of Knowl, when the party had their luncheon on the grass, and there was a - a quarrel with the gamekeepers? Try, Tom, to recollect; you shall, upon my honour, have no trouble about it, and I’ll try to serve you.’
 Tom was silent, while with a vacant gape he watched the spin of his half-crown twice, and then catching it with a smack in his hand, which he thrust into his pocket, he said, still looking in the same direction -
 ‘I never rid postilion in my days, ma’am. I know nout o’ sich a place, though ‘appen I maught a’ bin there; Knowl, ye ca’t. I was ne’er out o’ Derbyshire but thrice to Warwick fair wi’ horses be rail, an’ twice to York.’
 ‘You’re certain, Tom?’
 ‘Sartin sure, ma’am.’
 And Tom made another loutish salute, and cut the conference short by turning off the path and beginning to hollo after some trespassing cattle.
 I had not felt anything like so nearly sure in this essay at identification as I had in that of Dudley. Even of Dudley’s identity with the Church Scarsdale man, I had daily grown less confident; and, indeed, had it been proposed to bring it to the test of a wager, I do not think I should, in the language of sporting gentlemen, have cared to ‘back’ my original opinion. There was, however, a sufficient uncertainty to make me uncomfortable; and there was another uncertainty to enhance the unpleasant sense of ambiguity.
 On our way back we passed the bleaching trunks and limbs of several ranks of barkless oaks lying side by side, some squared by the hatchet, perhaps sold, for there were large letters and Roman numerals traced upon them in red chalk. I sighed as I passed them by, not because it was wrongfully done, for I really rather leaned to the belief that Uncle Silas was well advised in point of law. But, alas! here lay low the grand old family decorations of Bartram-Haugh, not to be replaced for centuries to come, under whose spreading boughs the Ruthyns of three hundred years ago had hawked and hunted!
 On the trunk of one of these I sat down to rest, Mary Quince meanwhile pattering about in unmeaning explorations. While thus listlessly seated, the girl Meg Hawkes, walked by, carrying a basket.
 ‘Hish!’ she said quickly, as she passed, without altering a pace or raising her eyes; ‘don’t ye speak nor look - fayther spies us; I’ll tell ye next turn.’
 ‘Next turn’ - when was that? Well, she might be returning; and as she could not then say more than she had said, in merely passing without a pause, I concluded to wait for a short time and see what would come of it.
 After a short time I looked about me a little, and I saw Dickon Hawkes - Pegtop, as poor Milly used to call him - with an axe in his hand, prowling luridly among the timber.
 Observing that I saw him, he touched his hat sulkily, and by-and-by passed me, muttering to himself. He plainly could not understand what business I could have in that particular part of the Windmill Wood, and let me see it in his countenance.
 His daughter did pass me again; but this time he was near, and she was silent. Her next transit occurred as he was questioning Mary Quince at some little distance; and as she passed precisely in the same way, she said -
 ‘Don’t you be alone wi’ Master Dudley nowhere for the world’s worth.’
 The injunction was so startling that I was on the point of questioning the girl. But I recollected myself, and waited in the hope that in her future transits she might be more explicit. But one word more she did not utter, and the jealous eye of old Pegtop was so constantly upon us that I refrained.
 There was vagueness and suggestion enough in the oracle to supply work for many an hour of anxious conjecture, and many a horrible vigil by night. Was I never to know peace at Bartram-Haugh?
 Ten days of poor Milly’s absence, and of my solitude, had already passed, when my uncle sent for me to his room.
 When old Wyat stood at the door, mumbling and snarling her message, my heart died within me.
 It was late - just that hour when dejected people feel their anxieties most - when the cold grey of twilight has deepened to its darkest shade, and before the cheerful candles are lighted, and the safe quiet of the night sets in.
 When I entered my uncle’s sitting-room - though his window-shutters were open and the wan streaks of sunset visible through them, like narrow lakes in the chasms of the dark western clouds - a pair of candles were burning; one stood upon the table by his desk, the other on the chimneypiece, before which his tall, thin figure stooped. His hand leaned on the mantelpiece, and the light from the candle just above his bowed head touched his silvery hair. He was looking, as it seemed, into the subsiding embers of the fire, and was a very statue of forsaken dejection and decay.
 ‘Uncle!’ I ventured to say, having stood for some time unperceived near his table.
 ‘Ah, yes, Maud, my dear child - my dear child.’
 He turned, and with the candle in his hand, smiling his silvery smile of suffering on me. He walked more feebly and stiffly, I thought, than I had ever seen him move before.
 ‘Sit down, Maud - pray sit there.’
 I took the chair he indicated.
 ‘In my misery and my solitude, Maud, I have invoked you like a spirit, and you appear.’
 With his two hands leaning on the table, he looked across at me, in a stooping attitude; he had not seated himself. I continued silent until it should be his pleasure to question or address me.
 At last he said, raising himself and looking upward, with a wild adoration - his finger-tips elevated and glimmering in the faint mixed light -
 ‘No, I thank my Creator, I am not quite forsaken.’
 Another silence, during which he looked steadfastly at me, and muttered, as if thinking aloud -
 ‘My guardian angel! - my guardian angel! Maud, you have a heart.’ He addressed me suddenly - ‘Listen, for a few moments, to the appeal of an old and broken-hearted man - your guardian - your uncle - your suppliant. I had resolved never to speak to you more on this subject. But I was wrong. It was pride that inspired me - mere pride.’
 I felt myself growing pale and flushed by turns during the pause that followed.
 ‘I’m very miserable - very nearly desperate. What remains for me - what remains? Fortune has done her worst - thrown in the dust, her wheels rolled over me; and the servile world, who follow her chariot like a mob, stamp upon the mangled wretch. All this had passed over me, and left me scarred and bloodless in this solitude. It was not my fault, Maud - I say it was no fault of mine; I have no remorse, though more regrets than I can count, and all scored with fire. As people passed by Bartram, and looked upon its neglected grounds and smokeless chimneys, they thought my plight, I dare say, about the worst a proud man could be reduced to. They could not imagine one half its misery. But this old hectic - this old epileptic - this old spectre of wrongs, calamities, and follies, had still one hope - my manly though untutored son - the last male scion of the Ruthyns. Maud, have I lost him? His fate - my fate - I may say Milly’s fate; - we all await your sentence. He loves you, as none but the very young can love, and that once only in a life. He loves you desperately - a most affectionate nature - a Ruthyn, the best blood in England - the last man of the race; and I - if I lose him I lose all; and you will see me in my coffin, Maud, before many months. I stand before you in the attitude of a suppliant - shall I kneel?’
 His eyes were fixed on me with the light of despair, his knotted hands clasped, his whole figure bowed toward me. I was inexpressibly shocked and pained.
 ‘Oh, uncle! uncle!’ I cried, and from very excitement I burst into tears.
 I saw that his eyes were fixed on me with a dismal scrutiny. I think he divined the nature of my agitation; but he determined, notwithstanding, to press me while my helpless agitation continued.
 ‘You see my suspense - you see my miserable and frightful suspense. You are kind, Maud; you love your father’s memory; your pity your father’s brother; you would not say no, and place a pistol at his head?’
 ‘Oh! I must - I must - I must say no. Oh! spare me, uncle, for Heaven’s sake. Don’t question me - don’t press me. I could not - I could not do what you ask.’
 ‘I yield, Maud - I yield, my dear. I will not press you; you shall have time, your own time, to think. I will accept no answer now - no, none, Maud.’
 He said this, raising his thin hand to silence me.
 ‘There, Maud, enough. I have spoken, as I always do to you, frankly, perhaps too frankly; but agony and despair will speak out, and plead, even with the most obdurate and cruel.’
 With these words Uncle Silas entered his bed-chamber, and shut the door, not violently, but with a resolute hand, and I thought I heard a cry.
 I hastened to my own room. I threw myself on my knees, and thanked Heaven for the firmness vouchsafed me; I could not believe it to have been my own.
 I was more miserable in consequence of this renewed suit on behalf of my odious cousin than I can describe. My uncle had taken such a line of importunity that it became a sort of agony to resist. I thought of the possibility of my hearing of his having made away with himself, and was every morning relieved when I heard that he was still as usual. I have often wondered since at my own firmness. In that dreadful interview with my uncle I had felt, in the whirl and horror of my mind, on the very point of submitting, just as nervous people are said to throw themselves over precipices through sheer dread of falling.