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Penelope
YES because he never did a thing like that before as
ask to get his breakfast in bed with a couple of eggs since the City arms
hotel when he used to be pretending to be laid up with a sick voice doing
his highness to make himself interesting to that old faggot Mrs Riordan
that he thought he had a great leg of and she never left us a farthing
all for masses for herself and her soul greatest miser ever was actually
afraid to lay out 4d for her methylated spirit telling me all her ailments
she had too much old chat in her about politics and earthquakes and the
end of the world let us have a bit of fun first God help the world if
all the women were her sort down on bathing-suits and lownecks of course
nobody wanted her to wear I suppose she was pious because no man would
look at her twice I hope I’ll never be like her a wonder she didnt want
us to cover our faces but she was a welleducated woman certainly and her
gabby talk [871] about Mr Riordan here and Mr Riordan there I suppose
he was glad to get shut of her and her dog smelling my fur and always
edging to get up under my petticoats especially then still I like that
in him polite to old women like that and waiters and beggars too hes not
proud out of nothing but not always if ever he got anything really serious
the matter with him its much better for them go into a hospital where
everything is clean but I suppose Id have to dring it into him for a month
yes and then wed have a hospital nurse next thing on the carpet have him
staying there till they throw him out or a nun maybe like the smutty photo
he has shes as much a nun as Im not yes because theyre so weak and puling
when theyre sick they want a woman to get well if his nose bleeds youd
think it was O tragic and that dyinglooking one off the south circular
when he sprained his foot at the choir party at the sugarloaf Mountain
the day I wore that dress Miss Stack bringing him flowers the worst old
ones she could find at the bottom of the basket anything at all to get
into a mans bedroom with her old maids voice trying to imagine he was
dying on account of her to never see thy face again though he looked more
like a man with his beard a bit grown in the bed father was the same besides
I hate bandaging and dosing when he cut his toe with the razor paring
his corns afraid hed get blood poisoning but if it was a thing I was sick
then wed see what attention only of course the woman hides it not to give
all the trouble they do yes he came somewhere Im sure by his appetite
anyway love its not or hed be off his feed thinking of her so either it
was one of those night women if it was down there he was really and the
hotel story he made up a pack of lies to hide it
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x yes I think he made them a bit firmer sucking
them like that so long be made me thirsty titties he calls them I had
to laugh yes this one anyhow stiff the nipple gets for the least thing
Ill get him to keep that up and Ill take those eggs beaten up with marsala
fatten them out for him what are all those veins and things curious the
way its made 2 the same in case of twins theyre supposed to represent
beauty placed up there like those statues in the museum one of them pretending
to hide it with her hand are they so beautiful of course compared with
what a man looks like with his two bags full and his other thing hanging
down out of him or sticking up at you like a hatrack no wonder they hide
it with a cabbageleaf the woman is beauty of course thats admitted when
he said I could pose for a picture naked to some rich fellow in Holles
street when he lost the job in Helys and I was selling the clothes and
strumming in the coffee palace would I be like that bath of the nymph
with my hair down yes only shes younger or Im a little like that dirty
bitch in that Spanish photo he has the nymphs used they go about like
that I asked him that disgusting Cameron highlander behind the meat market
or that other wretch with the red head behind the tree where the statue
of the fish used to be when I was passing pretending he was pissing standing
out for me to see it with his babyclothes up to one side the Queens own
they were a nice lot its well the Surreys relieved them theyre always
trying to show it to you every time nearly I passed outside the mens greenhouse
near the Harcourt street station just to try some fellow or other trying
to catch my eye or if it was 1 of the 7 wonders of the world O and the
stink of those rotten places the night coming home with Poldy after the
Comerfords party oranges and lemonade to make you feel nice and watery
I went into 1 of them it was so biting cold I couldnt keep [892] it when
was that 93 the canal was frozen yes it was a few months after a pity
a couple of the Camerons werent there to see me squatting in the mens
place meadero I tried to draw a picture of it before I tore it up like
a sausage or something I wonder theyre not afraid going about of getting
a kick or a bang or something there and that word met something with hoses
in it and he came out with some jawbreakers about the incarnation he never
can explain a thing simply the way a body can understand then he goes
and burns the bottom out of the pan all for his Kidney this one not so
much theres the mark of his teeth still where he tried to bite the nipple
I had to scream out arent they fearful trying to hurt you I had a great
breast of milk with Milly enough for two what was the reason of that he
said I could have got a pound a week as a wet nurse all swelled out the
morning that delicate looking student that stopped in No 28 with the Citrons
Penrose nearly caught me washing through the window only for I snapped
up the towel to my face that was his studenting hurt me they used to weaning
her till he got doctor Brady to give me the Belladonna prescription I
had to get him to suck them they were so hard he said it was sweeter and
thicker than cows then he wanted to milk me into the tea well hes beyond
everything I declare somebody ought to put him in the budget if I only
could remember the one half of the things and write a book out of it the
works of Master Poldy yes and its so much smoother the skin much an hour
he was at them Im sure by the clock like some kind of a big infant I had
at me they want everything in their mouth all the pleasure those men get
out of a woman I can feel his mouth O Lord I must stretch myself I wished
he was here or somebody to let myself go with and come again like that
I feel all fire inside me or if I could dream it when he made me spend
the 2nd time tickling me behind with his finger I was coming for about
5 minutes with my legs round him I had to hug him after O Lord I wanted
to shout out all sorts of things fuck or shit or anything at all only
not to look ugly or those lines from the strain who knows the way hed
take it you want to feel your way with a man theyre not all like him thank
God some of them want you to be so nice about it I noticed the contrast
he does it and doesnt talk I gave my eyes that look with my hair a bit
loose from the tumbling and my tongue between my lips up to him the savage
brute Thursday Friday one Saturday two Sunday three O Lord I cant wait
till Monday
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the sun shines for you he said the day we were lying among the rhododendrons
on Howth head in the grey tweed suit and his straw hat the day I got him
to propose to me yes first I gave him the bit of seedcake out of my mouth
and it was leapyear like now yes 16 years ago my God after that long kiss
I near lost my breath yes he said I was a flower of the mountain [931]
yes so we are flowers all a womans body yes that was one true thing he
said in his life and the sun shines for you today yes that was why I liked
him because I saw he understood or felt what a woman is and I knew I could
always get round him and I gave him all the pleasure I could leading him
on till he asked me to say yes and I wouldnt answer first only looked
out over the sea and the sky I was thinking of so many things he didnt
know of Mulvey and Mr Stanhope and Hester and father and old captain Groves
and the sailors playing all birds fly and I say stoop and washing up dishes
they called it on the pier and the sentry in front of the governors house
with the thing round his white helmet poor devil half roasted and the
Spanish girls laughing in their shawls and their tall combs and the auctions
in the morning the Greeks and the jews and the Arabs and the devil knows
who else from all the ends of Europe and Duke street and the fowl market
all clucking outside Larby Sharans and the poor donkeys slipping half
asleep and the vague fellows in the cloaks asleep in the shade on the
steps and the big wheels of the carts of the bulls and the old castle
thousands of years old yes and those handsome Moors all in white and turbans
like kings asking you to sit down in their little bit of a shop and Ronda
with the old windows of the posadas glancing eyes a lattice hid for her
lover to kiss the iron and the wineshops half open at night and the castanets
and the night we missed the boat at Algeciras the watchman going about
serene with his lamp and O that awful deepdown torrent O and the sea the
sea crimson sometimes like fire and the glorious sunsets and the figtrees
in the Alameda gardens yes and all the queer little streets and pink and
blue and yellow houses and the rosegardens and the jessamine and geraniums
and cactuses and Gibraltar as a girl where I was a Flower of the mountain
[932] yes when I put the rose in my hair like the Andalusian girls used
or shall I wear a red yes and how he kissed me under the Moorish wall
and I thought well as well him as another and then I asked him with my
eyes to ask again yes and then he asked me would I yes to say yes my mountain
flower and first I put my arms around him yes and drew him down to me
so he could feel my breasts all perfume yes and his heart was going like
mad and yes I said yes I will Yes.
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