I went down to the river it was bulging nearly ready to burst its banks you could be eyeball to eyeball with the fish. I was shivering with the cold and the wet. I pulled at the grass along the edge of the bank and counted all the people that were gone on me now.
1. Da
2. Ma
3. Alo
4. Joe. |
When I said Joes name all of a sudden I burst out laughing. For fucks sake! I said, Joe gone! How the fuck would Joe be gone! / That was the best yet. (p.163.)
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Nugent it was you caused all the trouble if you hadnt poked your nose in everything would have been alright. (p.2.) Further: You did two bad things Mrs Nugent. You made me turn my back on my ma and you took Joe away from me. Why did you do that Mrs Nugent? She didnt answer I didnt want to hear any answer I smacked her against the wall a few times there was a smear of blood at the corner of her mouth and her hand was reaching out trying to touch me when I cocked the captive bolt. I lifted her off the floor with one hand and shot the bolt right into her head thlok was the sound it made, like a goldfish dropping in a bowl. It you ask anyone how you kill a pig they will tell you cut its throat across but you dont you do it longways. Then she just lay there with her chin sticking up and I opened her up then I stuck my hand in her stomach and wrote PIGS all over the walls of the upstairs room. (p.195.)
That was all a long time ago. Twenty or thirty or forty years ago. I dont know. I was on my own for a long time I did nothing only read the Beano and look out at the grass. Then they said to me[:] Theres no sense in you being stuck up in that wing all on your own. I dont think youre going to take the humane killer to any of our patients are you?
Humane killer! I dont think Mrs Nugent would be too pleased to hear you call it that, doc, I said. Oh now now he says thats all over you must forget all about that next week your solitary finishes how about that hmm? I felt like laughing in his face: How can your solitary finish? Thats the best laugh yet. (p.214; [...] End.)