SHE STOOD on the platform watching the receding train. A few bushes hid the curve of the line; the white vapour rose above them, evaporating in the pale evening. A moment more and the last carriage would pass out of sight. The white gates swung forward slowly and closed over the line.
An oblong box painted reddish brown and tied with a rough rope lay on the seat beside her. The movement of her back and shoulders showed that the bundle she carried was a heavy one, the sharp bulging of the grey linen cloth that the weight was dead. She wore a faded yellow dress and a black jacket too warm for the day. A girl of twenty, short, strongly built, with short, strong arms. Her neck was plump, and her hair of so ordinary a brown that it passed unnoticed. The nose was too thick, but the nostrils were well formed. The eyes were grey, luminous, and veiled with dark lashes. But it was only when she laughed that her face lost its habitual expression, which was somewhat sullen; then it flowed with bright humour. She laughed now, showing a white line of almond-shaped teeth. The porter had asked her if she were afraid to leave her bundle with her box. Both, he said, would go up together in the donkey-cart. The donkey-cart came down every evening to fetch parcels .... That was the way to Woodview, right up the lane. She could not miss it. She would find the lodge gate in that clump of trees. The man lingered, for she was an attractive girl, but the station-master called him away to remove some luggage.
It was a barren country. Once the sea had crawled at high tide half-way up the sloping sides of those downs. It would do so now were it not for the shingle bank which its surging had thrown up along the coast. Between the shingle bank and the shore a weedy river flowed and the little town stood clamped together, its feet in the waters edge. There were decaying shipyards about the harbour, and wooden breakwaters stretched long, thin arms seawards for ships that did not come. On the other side of the railway apple blossoms showed above a white-washed wall; some market gardening was done in the low-lying fields, whence the downs rose in gradual ascents. On the first slope there was a fringe of trees. That was Woodview.
The girl gazed on this bleak country like one who saw it for the first time. She saw without perceiving, for her mind was occupied with personal consideration. She found it difficult to decide whether she should leave her bundle with her box. It hung heavy in her hand, and she did not know how far Woodview was from the station. At the end of the platform the station-master took her ticket, and she passed over the level-crossing still undecided. The lane began with iron railings, laurels, and French windows. She had been in service in such houses, and knew if she were engaged in any of them what her duties would be. But the life in Woodview was a great dream, and she could not imagine herself accomplishing all that would be required of her. There would be a butler, a footman, and a page; she would not mind the page — but the butler and footman, what would they think? There would be an upper-housemaid and an under-housemaid, and perhaps a ladys-maid, and maybe that these ladies had been abroad with the family. She had heard of France and Germany. Their conversation would, no doubt, turn on such subjects. Her silence would betray her. They would ask her what situations she had been in, and when they learned the truth she would have to leave disgraced. She had not sufficient money to pay for a ticket to London. But what excuse could she give to Lady Elwin, who had rescued her from Mrs. Dunbar and got her the place of kitchen-maid at Woodview? She must not go back. Her father would curse her, and perhaps beat her mother and her too. Ah! he would not dare to strike her again, and the girls face flushed with shameful remembrance. And her little brothers and sisters would cry if she came back. They had little enough to eat as it was. Of course she must not go back. How silly of her to think of such a thing!
She smiled, and her face became as bright as the month: it was the first day of June. Still she would be glad when the first week was over. If she had only a dress to wear in the afternoons! The old yellow thing on her back would never do. But one of her cotton prints was pretty fresh; she must get a bit of red ribbon — that would make a difference. She had heard that the housemaids in places like Woodview always changed their dresses twice a day, and on Sundays went out in silk mantles and hats in the newest fashion. As for the ladys-maid, she of course had all her mistresss clothes, and walked with the butler. What would such people think of a little girl like her! Her heart sank at the thought, and she sighed, anticipating much bitterness and disappointment. Even when her first quarters wages came due she would hardly be able to buy herself a dress: they would want the money at home. Her quarters wages! A months wages most like, for shed never be able to keep the place. No doubt all those fields belonged to the Squire, and those great trees too; they must be fine folk, quite as fine as Lady Elwin — finer, for she lived in a house like those near the station.
On both sides of the straight road there were tall hedges, and the nursemaids lay in the wide shadows on the rich summer grass, their perambulators at a little distance. The hum of the town died out of the ear, and the girl continued to imagine the future she was about to enter on with increasing distinctness. Looking across the fields she could see two houses, one in grey stone, the other in red brick with a gable covered with ivy; and between them, lost in the north, the spire of a church. On questioning a passer-by she learnt that the first house was the Rectory, the second was Woodview Lodge. If that was the lodge, what must the house be?
Two hundred yards further on the road branched, passing on either side of a triangular clump of trees, entering the sea road; and under the leaves the air was green and pleasant, and the lungs of the jaded town girl drew in a deep breath of health. Behind the plantation she found a large white-painted wooden gate. It opened into a handsome avenue, and the gatekeeper told her to keep straight on, and to turn to the left when she got to the top. She had never seen anything like it before, and stopped to admire the uncouth arms of elms, like rafters above the roadway; pink clouds showed through, and the monotonous dove seemed the very heart of the silence.
Her doubts returned; she never would be able to keep the place. The avenue turned a little, and she came suddenly upon a young man leaning over the paling, smoking his pipe.
Please sir, is this the way to Woodview?
Yes, right up through the stables, round to the left. Then, noticing the sturdily-built figure, yet graceful in its sturdiness, and the bright cheeks, he said, You look pretty well done; that bundle is a heavy one, let me hold it for you.
I am a bit tired, she said, leaning the bundle on the paling. They told me at the station that the donkey-cart would bring up my box later on.
Ah, then you are the new kitchen-maid? Whats your name?
My mothers the cook here; youll have to mind your ps and qs or else youll be dropped on. The devil of a temper while it lasts, but not a bad sort if you dont put her out.
Are you in service here?
No, but I hope to be afore long. I could have been two years ago, but mother did not like me to put on livery, and I dont know how Ill face her when I come running down to go out with the carriage.
Is the place vacant? Esther asked, raising her eyes timidly, looking at him sideways.
Yes, Jim Story got the sack about a week ago. When he had taken a drop hed tell every blessed thing that was done in the stables. Theyd get him down to the Red Lion for the purpose; of course the squire couldnt stand that.
And shall you take the place?
Yes. Im not going to spend my life carrying parcels up and down the Kings Road, Brighton, if I can squeeze in here. It isnt so much the berth that I care about, but the advantages, information fresh from the fountain-head. You wont catch me chattering over the bar at the Red Lion and having every blessed word I say wired up to London and printed next morning in all the papers.
Esther wondered what he was talking about, and, looking at him, she saw a low, narrow forehead, a small, round head, a long nose, a pointed chin, and rather hollow, bloodless cheeks. Notwithstanding the shallow chest, he was powerfully built, the long arms could deal a swinging blow. The low forehead and the lustreless eyes told of a slight, unimaginative brain, but regular features and a look of natural honesty made William Latch a man that ten men and eighteen women out of twenty would like.
I see you have got books in that bundle, he said at the end of a long silence. Fond of readin?
They are mothers books, she replied, hastily. I was afraid to leave them at the station, for it would be easy for anyone to take one out, and I should not miss it until I undid the bundle.
Sarah Tucker — thats the upper-housemaid — will be after you to lend them to her. She is a wonderful reader. She has read every story that has come out in Bow Bells for the last three years, and you cant puzzle her, try as you will. She knows all the names, can tell you which lord it was that saved the girl from the carriage when the osses were tearing like mad towards a precipice a undred feet deep, and all about the baronet for whose sake the girl went out to drown herself in the moonlight, I avent read the books mesel, but Sarah and me are great pals,
Esther trembled lest he might ask her again if she were fond of reading; she could not read. Noticing a change in the expression of her face, he concluded that she was disappointed to hear that he liked Sarah and regretted his indiscretion.
Good friends, you know — no more. Sarah and me never hit it off; she will worry me with the stories she reads. I dont know what is your taste, but I likes something more practical; the little oss in there, he is more to my taste. Fearing he might speak again of her books, she mustered up courage and said —
They told me at the station that the donkey-cart would bring up my box.
The donkey-cart isnt going to the station to-night — youll want your things, to be sure. Ill see the coachman; perhaps he is going down with the trap. But, golly! it has gone the half-hour. I shall catch it for keeping you talking, and my mother has been expecting you for the last hour. She hasnt a soul to help her, and six people coming to dinner. You must say the train was late.
Let us go, then, cried Esther. Will you show me the way?
Over the iron gate which opened into the pleasure-ground, thick branches of evergreen oaks made an arch of foliage, and between the trees a glimpse was caught of the angles and urns of an Italian house — distant about a hundred yards. A high brick wall separated the pleasure-ground from the stables, and as William and Esther turned to the left and walked up the roadway he explained that the numerous buildings were stables. They passed by many doors, hearing the trampling of horses and the rattling of chains. Then the roadway opened into a handsome yard overlooked by the house, the back premises of which had been lately rebuilt in red brick. There were gables and ornamental porches, and through the large kitchen windows the servants were seen passing to and fro. At the top of this yard was a gate. It led into the park, and, like the other gate, was overhung by bunched evergreens. A string of horses came towards this gate, and William ran to open it. The horses were clothed in grey cloth. They wore hoods, and Esther noticed the black round eyes looking through the eyelet holes. They were ridden by small, ugly boys, who swung their little legs, and struck them with ash plants when they reached their heads forward chawing at the bits. When William returned he said, Look there, the third one; thats he — thats Silver Braid.
An impatient knocking at the kitchen window interrupted his admiration, and William, turning quickly, said, Mind you say the train was late; dont say I kept you, or youll get me into the devil of a pickle. This way. The door let into a wide passage covered with coconut matting. They walked a few yards; the kitchen was the first door, and the handsome room she found herself in did not conform to anything that Esther had seen or heard of kitchens. The range almost filled one end of the room, and on it a dozen saucepans were simmering; the dresser reached to the ceiling, and was covered with a multitude of plates and dishes. Esther thought how she must strive to keep it in its present beautiful condition, and the elegant white-capped servants passing round the white table made her feel her own insignificance.
This is the new kitchen-maid, mother.
Ah, is it indeed? said Mrs. Latch looking up from the tray of tartlets which she had taken from the oven and was filling with jam. Esther noticed the likeness that Mrs. Latch bore to her son. The hair was iron grey, and, as in Williams face, the nose was the most prominent feature.
I suppose youll tell me the train was late?
Yes, mother, the train was a quarter of an hour late, William chimed in.
I didnt ask you, you idle, lazy, good-for-nothing vagabond. I suppose it was you who kept the girl all this time. Six people coming to dinner, and Ive been the whole day without a kitchen-maid. If Margaret Gale hadnt come down to help me, I dont know where we should be; as it is, the dinner will be late.
The two housemaids, both in print dresses, stood listening. Esthers face clouded, and when Mrs. Latch told her to take her things off and set to and prepare the vegetables, so that she might see what she was made of, Esther did not answer at once. She turned away, saying under her breath, I must change my dress, and my box has not come up from the station yet.
You can tuck your dress up, and Margaret Gale will lend you her apron.
What youve got on dont look as if it could come to much damage. Come, now, set to.
The housemaids burst into loud laughter, and then a sullen look of dogged obstinacy passed over and settled on Esthers face, even to the point of visibly darkening the white and rose complexion.
A SLOPING roof formed one end of the room, and through a broad, single pane the early sunlight fell across a wall papered with blue and white flowers. Print dresses hung over the door. On the wall were two pictures — a girl with a basket of flowers, the coloured supplement of an illustrated newspaper, and an old and dilapidated last century print. On the chimney-piece there were photographs of the Gale family in Sunday clothes, and the green vases that Sarah had given Margaret on her birthday.
And in a low, narrow iron bed, pushed close against the wall in the full glare of the sunlight, Esther lay staring half-awake, her eyes open but still dim with dreams. She looked at the clock. It was not yet time to get up, and she raised her arms as if to cross them behind her head, but a sudden remembrance of yesterday arrested her movement, and a sudden shadow settled on her face. She had refused to prepare the vegetables. She hadnt answered, and the cook had turned her out of the kitchen. She had rushed from the house under the momentary sway of hope that she might succeed in walking back to London; but William had overtaken her in the avenue, he had expostulated with her, he had refused to allow her to pass. She had striven to tear herself from him, and, failing, had burst into tears. However, he had been kind, and at last she had allowed him to lead her back, and all the time he had filled her ears with assurances that he would make it all right with his mother. But Mrs. Latch had closed her kitchen against her, and she had had to go to her room. Even if they paid her fare back to London, how was she to face her mother? What would father say? He would drive her from the house. But she had done nothing wrong. Why did cook insult her?
As she pulled on her stockings she stopped and wondered if she should awake Margaret Gale. Margarets bed stood in the shadow of the obliquely falling wall; and she lay heavily, one arm thrown forward, her short, square face raised to the light. She slept so deeply that for a moment Esther felt afraid. Suddenly the eyes opened, and Margaret looked at her vaguely, as if out of eternity. Raising her hands to her eyes she said —
What time is it?
It has just gone six.
Then theres plenty of time; we neednt be down before seven. You get on with your dressing; theres no use in my getting up till you are done — wed be tumbling over each other. This is no room to put two girls to sleep in — one glass not much bigger than your hand. Youll have to get your box under your bed .... In my last place I had a beautiful room with a Brussels carpet, and a marble washstand. I wouldnt stay here three days if it werent — The girl laughed and turned lazily over.
Esther did not answer.
Now, isnt it a grubby little room to put two girls to sleep in? What was your last place like?
Esther answered that she had hardly been in service before. Margaret was too much engrossed in her own thoughts to notice the curtness of the answer.
Theres only one thing to be said for Woodview, and that is the eating; we have anything we want, and wed have more than we want if it werent for the old cook: she must have her little bit out of everything and she cuts us short in our bacon in the morning. But that reminds me! You have set the cook against you; youll have to bring her over to your side if you want to remain here.
Why should I be asked to wash up the moment I came in the house, before even I had time to change my dress.
It was hard on you. She always gets as much as she can out of her kitchen-maid. But last night she was pressed, there was company to dinner. Id have lent you an apron, and the dress you had on wasnt of much account.
It isnt because a girl is poor —
Oh, I didnt mean that; I know well enough what it is to be hard up. Margaret clasped her stays across her plump figure and walked to the door for her dress. She was a pretty girl, with a snub nose and large, clear eyes. Her hair was lighter in tone than Esthers, and she had brushed it from her forehead so as to obviate the defect of her face, which was too short.
Esther was on her knees saying her prayers when Margaret turned to the light to button her boots.
Well, I never! she exclaimed. Do you think prayers any good?
Esther looked up angrily.
I dont want to say anything against saying prayers, but I wouldnt before the others if I was you — theyll chaff dreadful, and call you Creeping Jesus.
Oh, Margaret, I hope they wont do anything so wicked. But I am afraid I shant be long here, so it doesnt matter what they think of me.
When they got downstairs they opened the windows and doors, and Margaret took Esther round, showing her where the things were kept, and telling her for how many she must lay the table. At that moment a number of boys and men came clattering up the passage. They cried to Esther to hurry up, declaring that they were late. Esther did not know who they were, but she served them as best she might. They breakfasted hastily and rushed away to the stables; and they had not been long gone when the squire and his son Arthur appeared in the yard. The Gaffer, as he was called, was a man of about medium height. He wore breeches and gaiters, and in them his legs seemed grotesquely thick. His son was a narrow-chested, undersized young man, absurdly thin and hatchet-faced. He was also in breeches and gaiters, and to his boots were attached long-necked spurs. His pale yellow hair gave him a somewhat ludicrous appearance, as he stood talking to his father, but the moment he prepared to get into the saddle he seemed quite different. He rode a beautiful chestnut horse, a little too thin, Esther thought, and the ugly little boys were mounted on horses equally thin. The squire rode a stout grey cob, and he watched the chestnut, and was also interested in the brown horse that walked with its head in the air, pulling at the smallest of all the boys, a little freckled, red-headed fellow.
Thats Silver Braid, the brown horse, the one that the Demon is riding; the chestnut is Bayleaf, Ginger is riding him: he won the City and Suburban. Oh, we did have a fine time then, for we all had a bit on. The betting was twenty to one, and I won twelve and six pence. Grover won thirty shillings. They say that John — thats the butler — won a little fortune; but he is so close no one knows what he has on. Cook wouldnt have anything on; she says that betting is the curse of servants — you know what is said, that it was through betting that Mrs. Latchs husband got into trouble. He was steward here, you know, in the late squires time.
Then Margaret told all she had heard on the subject. The late Mr. Latch had been a confidential steward, and large sums of money were constantly passing through his hands for which he was never asked for any exact account. Contrary to all expectation, Marksman was beaten for the Chester Cup, and the squires property was placed under the charge of a receiver. Under the new management things were gone into more closely, and it was then discovered that Mr. Latchs accounts were incapable of satisfactory explanation. The defeat of Marksman had hit Mr. Latch as hard as it had hit the squire, and to pay his debts of honour he had to take from the money placed in his charge, confidently hoping to return it in a few months. The squires misfortunes anticipated the realization of his intentions; proceedings were threatened, but were withdrawn when Mrs. Latch came forward with all her savings and volunteered to forego her wages for a term of years. Old Latch died soon after, some lucky bets set the squire on his legs again, the matter was half forgotten, and in the next generation it became the legend of the Latch family. But to Mrs. Latch it was an incurable grief, and to remove her son from influences which, in her opinion, had caused his fathers death, Mrs. Latch had always refused Mr. Barfields offers to do something for William. It was against her will that he had been taught to ride; but to her great joy he soon grew out of all possibility of becoming a jockey. She had then placed him in an office in Brighton; but the young mans height and shape marked him out for livery, and Mrs. Latch was pained when Mr. Barfield proposed it. Why cannot they leave me my son? she cried; for it seemed to her that in that hateful cloth, buttons and cockade, he would be no more her son, and she could not forget what the Latches had been long ago.
I believe theres going to be a trial this morning, said Margaret; Silver Braid was stripped — you noticed that — and Ginger always rides in the trials.
I dont know what a trial is, said Esther. They are not carriage-horses, are they? They look too slight.
Carriage-horses, you ninny! Where have you been to all this while — cant you see that they are race-horses?
Esther hung down her head and murmured something which Margaret didnt catch.
To tell the truth, I didnt know much about them when I came, but then one never hears anything else here. And that reminds me — it is as much as your place is worth to breathe one syllable about them horses; you must know nothing when you are asked. Thats what Jim Story got sacked for — saying in the Red Lion that Valentine pulled up lame. We dont know how it came to the Gaffers ears. I believe that it was Mr. Leopold that told; he finds out everything. But I was telling you how I learnt about the race-horses. It was from Jim Story — Jim was my pal — Sarah is after William, you know, the fellow who brought you into the kitchen last night. Jim could never talk about anything but the osses. Wed go every night and sit in the wood-shed, thats to say if it was wet; if it was fine wed walk in the drove-way. Id have married Jim, I know I should, if he hadnt been sent away. Thats the worst of being a servant. They sent Jim away just as if he was a dog. It was wrong of him to say the horse pulled up lame; I admit that, but they neednt have sent him away as they did.
Esther was absorbed in the consideration of her own perilous position. Would they send her away at the end of the week, or that very afternoon? Would they give her a weeks wages, or would they turn her out destitute to find her way back to London as best she might? What should she do if they turned her out-of-doors that very afternoon? Walk back to London? She did not know if that was possible. She did not know how far she had come — a long distance, no doubt. She had seen woods, hills, rivers, and towns flying past. Never would she be able to find her way back through that endless country; besides, she could not carry her box on her back .... What was she to do? Not a friend, not a penny in the world. Oh, why did such misfortune fall on a poor little girl who had never harmed anyone in the world! And if they did give her her fare back — what then? ... Should she go home? ... To her mother — to her poor mother, who would burst into tears, who would say, Oh, my poor darling, I dont know what we shall do; your father will never let you stay here.
For Mrs. Latch had not spoken to her since she had come into the kitchen, and it seemed to Esther that she had looked round with the air of one anxious to discover something that might serve as a pretext for blame. She had told Esther to make haste and lay the table afresh. Those who had gone were the stable folk, and breakfast had now to be prepared for the other servants. The person in the dark green dress who spoke with her chin in the air, whose nose had been pinched to purple just above the nostrils, was Miss Grover, the ladys-maid. Grover addressed an occasional remark to Sarah Tucker, a tall girl with a thin freckled face and dark-red hair. The butler, who was not feeling well, did not appear at breakfast, and Esther was sent to him with a cup of tea.
There were the plates to wash and the knives to clean, and when they were done there were potatoes, cabbage, onions to prepare, saucepans to fill with water, coal to fetch for the fire. She worked steadily without flagging, fearful of Mrs. Barfield, who would come down, no doubt, about ten oclock to order dinner. The race-horses were coming through the paddock-gate; Margaret called to Mr. Randal, a little man, wizen, with a face sallow with frequent indigestions.
Well, do you think the Gaffers satisfied? said Margaret. John made no articulate reply, but he muttered something, and his manner showed that he strongly deprecated all female interest in racing; and when Sarah and Grover came running down the passage and overwhelmed him with questions, crowding around him, asking both together if Silver Braid had won his trial, he testily pushed them aside, declaring that if he had a race-horse he would not have a woman-servant in the place .... A positive curse, this chatter, chatter. Won his trial, indeed! What business had a lot of female folk — The rest of Johns sarcasm was lost in his shirt collar as he hurried away to his pantry, closing the door after him.
What a testy little man he is! said Sarah; he might have told us which won. He has known the Gaffer so long that he knows the moment he looks at him whether the gees are all right.
One cant speak to a chap in the lane that he doesnt know all about it next day, said Margaret. Peggy hates him; you know the way she skulks about the back garden and up the ill so that she may meet young Johnson as he is ridin home.
Ill have none of this scandal-mongering going on in my kitchen, said Mrs. Latch. Do you see that girl there? She cant get past to her scullery.
Esther would have managed pretty well if it had not been for the dining-room lunch. Miss Mary was expecting some friends to play tennis with her, and, besides the roast chicken, there were the côtelettes à la Soubise and a curry. There was for dessert a jelly and a blancmange, and Esther did not know where any of the things were, and a great deal of time was wasted. Dont you move, I might as well get it myself, said the old woman. Mr. Randal, too, lost his temper, for she had no hot plates ready, nor could she distinguish between those that were to go to the dining-room and those that were to go to the servants hall. She understood, however, that it would not be wise to give way to her feeling, and that the only way she could hope to retain her situation was by doing nothing to attract attention. She must learn to control that temper of hers — she must and would. And it was in this frame of mind and with this determination that she entered the servants hall.
There were not more than ten or eleven at dinner, but sitting close together they seemed more numerous, and quite half the number of faces that looked up as she took her place next to Margaret Gale, were unknown to her. There were the four ugly little boys whom she had seen on the race horses, but she did not recognize them at first, and nearly opposite, sitting next to the ladys-maid, was a small, sandy-haired man about forty: he was beginning to show signs of stoutness, and two little round whiskers grew out of his pallid cheeks. Mr. Randal sat at the end of the table helping the pudding. He addressed the sandy-haired man as Mr. Swindles; but Esther learnt afterwards his real name was Ward, and that he was Mr. Barfields head groom. She learnt, too, that the Demon was not the real name of the little carroty-haired boy, and she looked at him in amazement when he whispered in her ear that he would dearly love a real go-in at that pudding, but that it was so fattening that he didnt ever dare to venture on more than a couple of sniffs. Seeing that the girl did not understand, he added, by way of explanation, You know that I must keep under the six stone, and at times it becomes awful ard.
Esther thought him a nice little fellow, and tried to persuade him to forego his resolution not to touch pudding, until Mr. Swindles told her to desist. The attention of the whole table being thus drawn towards the boy, Esther was still further surprised at the admiration he seemed so easily to command and the important position he seemed to occupy, notwithstanding his diminutive stature, whereas the bigger boys were treated with very little consideration. The long-nosed lad, with weak eyes and sloping shoulders, who sat on the other side of the table on Mr. Swindles left, was everybodys laughing-stock, especially Mr. Swindles, who did not cease to poke fun at him. Mr. Swindles was now telling poor Jims misadventures with the Gaffer.
But why do you call him Mr. Leopold when his name is Mr. Randal? Esther ventured to inquire of the Demon.
On account of Leopold Rothschild, said the Demon; hes pretty near as rich, if the truth was known — won a pile over the City and Sub. Pity you werent there; might have had a bit on.
I have never seen the City, Esther replied innocently.
Never seen the City and Sub! ... I was up, had a lot in hand, so I came away from my orses the moment I got into the dip. The Tinman nearly caught me on the post — came with a terrific rush; he is just hawful, that Tinman is. I did catch it from the Gaffer — he did give it me.
The plates of all the boys except the Demons were now filled with beefsteak pudding, potatoes, and greens, likewise Esthers. Mr. Leopold, Mr. Swindles, the housemaid, and the cook dined off the leg of mutton, a small slice of which was sent to the Demon. That for a dinner! and as he took up his knife and fork and cut a small piece of his one slice, he said, I suppose you never had to reduce yourself three pounds; girls never have. I do run to flesh so, you wouldnt believe it. If I dont walk to Portslade and back every second day, I go up three or four pounds. Then theres nothing for it but the physic, and thats what settles me. Can you take physic?
I took three Beechams pills once.
Oh, thats nothing. Can you take castor-oil?
Esther looked in amazement at the little boy at her side. Swindles had overheard the question and burst into a roar of laughter. Everyone wanted to know what the joke was, and, feeling they were poking fun at her, Esther refused to answer.
The first helpings of pudding or mutton had taken the edge off their appetites, and before sending their plates for more they leaned over the table listening and laughing open-mouthed. It was a bare room, lit with one window, against which Mrs. Latchs austere figure appeared in dark-grey silhouette. The window looked on one of the little back courts and tiled ways which had been built at the back of the house; and the shadowed northern light softened the listening faces with grey tints.
You know, said Mr. Swindles, glancing at Jim as if to assure himself that the boy was there and unable to escape from the hooks of his sarcasm, how fast the Gaffer talks, and how he hates to be asked to repeat his words. Knowing this, Jim always says, Yes, sir; yes, sir. Now do you quite understand? says the Gaffer. Yes, sir; yes, sir, replies Jim, not having understood one word of what was said; but relying on us to put him right. Now what did he say I was to do? says Jim, the moment the Gaffer is out of hearing. But this morning we were on ahead, and the Gaffer had Jim all to himself. As usual he says, Now do you quite understand? and as usual Jim says, Yes, sir; yes, sir. Suspecting that Jim had not understood, I said when he joined us, Now if you are not sure what he said you had better go back and ask him, but Jim declared that he had perfectly understood. and what did he tell you to do? said I. He told me, says Jim, to bring the colt along and finish up close by where he would be standing at the end of the track. I thought it rather odd to send Firefly such a stiff gallop as all that, but Jim was certain that he had heard right. And off they went, beginning the other side of Southwick Hill. I saw the Gaffer with his arms in the air, and dont know now what he said. Jim will tell you. He did give it you, didnt he, you old Woolgatherer? said Mr. Swindles, slapping the boy on the shoulder.
You may laugh as much as you please, but Im sure he did tell me to come along three-quarter speed after passing the barn, replied Jim, and to change the conversation he asked Mr. Leopold for some more pudding, and the Demons hungry eyes watched the last portion being placed on the Woolgatherers plate. Noticing that Esther drank no beer, he exclaimed —
Well, I never; to see yer eat and drink one would think that it was you who was a-wasting to ride the crack at Goodwood.
The remark was received with laughter, and, excited by his success, the Demon threw his arms round Esther, and seizing her hands, said, Now yer a jest beginning to get through yer osses, and when you get on a level — But the Demon, in his hungry merriment, had bestowed no thought of finding a temper in such a staid little girl, and a sound box on the ear threw him backwards into his seat surprised and howling. Yer nasty thing! he blubbered out. Couldnt you see it was only a joke? But passion was hot in Esther. She had understood no word that had been said since she had sat down to dinner, and, conscious of her poverty and her ignorance, she imagined that a great deal of the Demons conversation had been directed against her; and, choking with indignation, she only heard indistinctly the reproaches with which the other little boys covered her — nasty, dirty, ill-tempered thing, scullery-maid, etc.; nor did she understand their whispered plans to duck her when she passed the stables. All looked a little askance, especially Grover and Mr. Leopold. Margaret said —
That will teach these impertinent little jockey-boys that the servants hall is not the harness-room; they oughtnt to be admitted here at all.
Mr. Leopold nodded, and told the Demon to leave off blubbering. You cant be so much hurt as all that. Come, wipe your eyes and have a piece of currant tart, or leave the room. I want to hear from Mr. Swindles an account of the trial. We know that Silver Braid won, but we havent heard how he won nor yet what the weights were.
Well, said Mr. Swindles, what I makes out is this. I was riding within a pound or two of nine stone, and The Rake is, as you know, seven pounds, no more, worse than Bayleaf. Ginger rides usually as near as possible my weight — well say he was riding nine two — I think he could manage that — and the Demon, we know, he is now riding over the six stone; in his ordinary clothes he rides six seven.
Yes, yes, but how do we know that there was any lead to speak of in the Demons saddle-cloth?
The Demon says there wasnt above a stone. Dont you, Demon?
I dont know nothing! Im not going to stand being clouted by the kitchen-maid.
Oh, shut up, or leave the room, said Mr. Leopold; we dont want to hear any more about that.
I started making the running according to orders. Ginger was within three-quarters of a length of me, being pulled out of the saddle. The Gaffer was standing at the three-quarters of the mile, and there Ginger won fairly easily, but they went on to the mile — them were the orders — and there the Demon won by half a length, that is to say if Ginger wasnt a-kidding of him.
A-kidding of me! said the Demon. When we was a hundred yards from ome I steadied without his noticing me, and then I landed in the last fifty yards by half a length. Ginger cant ride much better than any other gentleman.
Yer see, said Mr. Swindles, hed sooner have a box on the ear from the kitchen-maid than be told a gentleman could kid him at a finish. He wouldnt mind if it was the Tinman, eh, Demon?
We know, said Mr. Leopold, that Bayleaf can get the mile; there must have been a lot of weight between them. Besides, I should think that the trial was at the three-quarters of the mile. The mile was so much kid.
I should say, replied Mr. Swindles, that the orses were tried at twenty-one pounds, and if Silver Braid can beat Bayleaf at that weight, hell take a deal of beating at Goodwood.
And leaning forward, their arms on the table, with large pieces of cheese at the end of their knives, the maid-servants and the jockey listened while Mr. Leopold and Mr. Swindles discussed the chances the stable had of pulling off the Stewards Cup with Silver Braid.
But he will always keep on trying them, said Mr. Swindles, and whats the use, says I, of trying orses that are no more than alf fit? And them downs is just rotten with orse watchers; it has just come to this, that you cant comb out an orses mane without seeing it in the papers the day after. If I had my way with them gentry — Mr. Swindles finished his beer at a gulp, and he put down his glass as firmly as he desired to put down the horse watchers. At the end of a long silence Mr. Leopold said —
Come into my pantry and smoke a pipe. Mr. Arthur will be down presently. Perhaps hell tell us what weight he was riding this morning.
Cunning old bird, said Mr. Swindles, as he rose from the table and wiped his shaven lips with the back of his hand; and youd have us believe that you didnt know, would you? Youd have us believe, would you, that the Gaffer dont tell you everything when you bring up his hot water in the morning, would you?
Mr. Leopold laughed under his breath, and looking mysterious and very rat-like he led the way to his pantry. Esther watched them in strange trouble of soul. She had heard of racecourses as shameful places where men were led to their ruin, and betting she had always understood to be sinful, but in this house no one seemed to think of anything else. It was no place for a Christian girl.
Lets have some more of the story, Margaret said. Youve got the new number. The last piece was where he is going to ask the opera-singer to run away with him.
Sarah took an illustrated journal out of her pocket and began to read aloud.
ESTHER was one of the Plymouth Brethren. In their chapel, if the house in which they met could be called a chapel, there were neither pictured stories of saints, nor vestments, nor music, nor even imaginative stimulant in the shape of written prayers. Her knowledge of life was strictly limited to her experience of life; she knew no drama of passion except that which the Gospels relate: this story in the Family Reader was the first representation of life she had met with, and its humanity thrilled her like the first idol set up for worship. The actress told Norris that she loved him. They were on a balcony, the sky was blue, the moon was shining, the warm scent of the mignonette came up from the garden below, the man was in evening dress with diamond shirt studs, the actresss arm was large and white. They had loved each other for years. The strangest events had happened for the purpose of bringing them together, and, fascinated against her will, Esther could not but listen. But at the end of the chapter the racial instinct forced reproval from her.
I am sure it is wicked to read such tales.
Sarah looked at her in mute astonishment. Grover said —
You shouldnt be here at all. Cant Mrs. Latch find nothing for you to do in the scullery?
Then, said Sarah, awaking to a sense of the situation, I suppose that where you come from you were not so much as allowed to read a tale; ... dirty little chapel-going folk!
The incident might have closed with this reproval had not Margaret volunteered the information that Esthers box was full of books.
I should like to see them books, said Sarah. Ill be bound that they are only prayer-books.
I dont mind what you say to me, but you shall not insult my religion.
Insult your religion! I said you never had read a book in your life unless it was a prayer-book.
We dont use prayer-books.
Then what books have you read?
Esther hesitated, her manner betrayed her, and, suspecting the truth, Sarah said:
I dont believe that you can read at all. Come, Ill bet you twopence that you cant read the first five lines of my story.
Esther pushed the paper from her and walked out of the room in a tumult of grief and humiliation. Woodview and all belonging to it had grown unbearable, and heedless to what complaint the cook might make against her she ran upstairs and shut herself into her room. She asked why they should take pleasure in torturing her. It was not her fault if she did not know how to read. There were the books she loved for her mothers sake, the books that had brought such disgrace upon her. Even the names she could not read, and the shame of her ignorance lay upon her heavier than a weight of lead. Peter Parleys Annual, Sunny Memories of Foreign Lands, Children of the Abbey, Uncle Toms Cabin, Lambs Tales of Shakespeares Plays, a Cooking Book, Rodas Mission of Love, the Holy Bible and the Common Prayer Book.
She turned them over, wondering what were the mysteries that this print held from her. It was to her mysterious as the stars.
Esther Waters came from Barnstaple. She had been brought up in the strictness of the Plymouth Brethren, and her earliest memories were of prayers, of narrow, peaceful family life. This early life had lasted till she was ten years old. Then her father died. He had been a house-painter, but in early youth he had been led into intemperance by some wild companions. He was often not in a fit state to go to work, and one day the fumes of the beer he had drunk overpowered him as he sat in the strong sunlight on his scaffolding. In the hospital he called upon God to relieve him of his suffering; then the Brethren said, You never thought of God before. Be patient, your health is coming back; it is a present from God; you would like to know Him and thank Him from the bottom of your heart?
John Waters heart was touched. He became one of the Brethren, renouncing those companions who refused to follow into the glory of God. His conversion and subsequent grace won for him the sympathies of Mary Thornby. But Marys father would not consent to the marriage unless John abandoned his dangerous trade of house-painter. John Waters consented to do this, and old James Thornby, who had made a competence in the curiosity line, offered to make over his shop to the young couple on certain conditions; these conditions were accepted, and under his father-in-laws direction John drove a successful trade in old glass, old jewellery, and old furniture.
The Brethren liked not this trade, and they often came to John to speak with him on the subject, and their words were —
Of course this is between you and the Lord, but these things (pointing to the old glass and jewellery) often are but snares for the feet, and lead weaker brethren into temptation. Of course, it is between you and the Lord.
So John Waters was tormented with scruples concerning the righteousness of his trade, but his wifes gentle voice and eyes, and the limitations that his accident, from which he had never wholly recovered, had set upon his life, overruled his scruples, and he remained until he died a dealer in artistic ware, eliminating, however, from his dealings those things to which the Brethren most strongly objected.
When he died his widow strove to carry on the business, but her father, who was now a confirmed invalid, could not help her. In the following year she lost both her parents. Many changes were taking place in Barnstaple, new houses were being built, a much larger and finer shop had been opened in the more prosperous end of the town, and Mrs. Waters found herself obliged to sell her business for almost nothing, and marry again. Children were born of this second marriage in rapid succession, the cradle was never empty, and Esther was spoken of as the little nurse.
Her great solicitude was for her poor mother, who had lost her health, whose blood was impoverished by constant child-bearing. Mother and daughter were seen in the evenings, one with a baby at her breast, the other with an eighteen months old child in her arms. Esther did not dare leave her mother, and to protect her she gave up school, and this was why she had never learnt how to read.
One of the many causes of quarrel between Mrs. Saunders and her husband was her attendance at prayer-meetings when he said she should be at home minding her children. He used to accuse her of carrying on with the Scripture-readers, and to punish her he would say, This week Ill spend five bob more in the public — thatll teach you, if beating wont, that I dont want none of your hypocritical folk hanging round my place. So it befell the Saunders family to have little to eat; and Esther often wondered how she should get a bit of dinner for her sick mother and her hungry little brothers and sisters. Once they passed nearly thirty hours without food. She called them round her, and knelt down amid them: they prayed that God might help them; and their prayers were answered, for at half-past twelve a Scripture lady came in with flowers in her hands. She asked Mrs. Saunders how her appetite was. Mrs. Saunders answered that it was more than she could afford, for there was nothing to eat in the house. Then the Scripture lady gave them eighteen pence, and they all knelt down and thanked God together.
But although Saunders spent a great deal of his money in the public-house, he rarely got drunk and always kept his employment. He was a painter of engines, a first-rate hand, earning good money, from twenty-five to thirty shillings a week. He was a proud man, but so avaricious that he stopped at nothing to get money. He was an ardent politician, yet he would sell his vote to the highest bidder, and when Esther was seventeen he compelled her to take service regardless of the character of the people or of what the place was like. They had left Barnstaple many months, and were now living in a little street off the Vauxhall Bridge Road, near the factory where Saunders worked; and since they had been in London Esther had been constantly in service. Why should he keep her? She wasnt one of his children, he had quite enough of his own. Sometimes of an evening, when Esther could escape from her drudgery for a few minutes, her mother would step round, and mother and daughter, wrapped in the same shawl, would walk to and fro telling each other their troubles, just as in old times. But these moments were few. In grimy lodging-houses she worked from early morning till late at night, scrubbing grates, preparing bacon and eggs, cooking chops, and making beds. She had become one of those London girls to whom rest, not to say pleasure, is unknown, who if they should sit down for a few moments hear the mistresss voice, Now, Eliza, have you nothing to do, that you are sitting there idle? Two of her mistresses, one after the other, had been sold up, and now all the rooms in the neighbourhood were unlet, no one wanted a slavey, and Esther was obliged to return home. It was on the last of these occasions that her father had taken her by the shoulders, saying —
No lodging-houses that want a slavey? Ill see about that. Tell me, first, have you been to 78?
Yes, but another girl was before me, and the place was taken when I arrived.
I wonder what you were doing that you didnt get there sooner; dangling about after your mother, I suppose! Well, what about 27 in the Crescent?
I couldnt go there — that Mrs. Dunbar is a bad woman.
Bad woman! Who are you, I should like to know, that you can take a ladys character away? Who told you she was a bad woman? One of the Scripture-readers, I suppose! I knew it was. Well, then, just get out of my house.
Where shall I go?
Go to hell for all I care. Do you hear me? Get out!
Esther did not move — words, and then blows. Esthers escape from her stepfather seemed a miracle, and his anger was only appeased by Mrs. Saunders promising that Esther should accept the situation.
Only for a little while. Perhaps Mrs. Dunbar is a better woman than you think for. For my sake, dearie. If you dont he may kill you and me too.
Esther looked at her one moment, then she said, Very well, mother, to-morrow Ill take the place.
No longer was the girl starved, no longer was she made to drudge till the thought of another day was a despair and a terror. And seeing that she was a good girl, Mrs. Dunbar respected her scruples. Indeed, she was very kind, and Esther soon learnt to like her, and, through her affection for her, to think less of the life she led. A dangerous point is this in a young girls life. Esther was young, and pretty, and weary, and out of health; and it was at this critical moment that Lady Elwin, who, while visiting, had heard her story, promised Mrs. Saunders to find Esther another place. And to obviate all difficulties about references and character, Lady Elwin proposed to take Esther as her own servant for a sufficient while to justify her in recommending her.
And now, as she turned over her books — the books she could not read — her pure and passionate mind was filled with the story of her life. She remembered her poor little brothers and sisters and her dear mother, and that tyrant revenging himself upon them because of the little she might eat and drink. No, she must bear with all insults and scorn, and forget that they thought her as dirt under their feet. But what were such sufferings compared to those she would endure were she to return home? In truth they were as nothing. And yet the girl longed to leave Woodview. She had never been out of sight of home before. Amid the violences of her stepfather there had always been her mother and the meeting-house. In Woodview there was nothing, only Margaret, who had come to console and persuade her to come downstairs. The resolution she had to call out of her soul to do this exhausted her, and she went downstairs heedless of what anyone might say.
Two and three days passed without anything occurring that might suggest that the Fates were for or against her remaining. Mrs. Barfield continued to be indisposed, but at the end of the week Esther, while she was at work in the scullery, heard a new voice speaking with Mrs. Latch. This must be Mrs. Barfield. She heard Mrs. Latch tell the story of her refusal to go to work the evening she arrived. But Mrs. Barfield told her that she would listen to no further complaints; this was the third kitchen-maid in four months, and Mrs. Latch must make up her mind to bear with the faults and failings of this last one, whatever they were. Then Mrs. Barfield called Esther; and when she entered the kitchen she found herself face to face with a little red-haired woman, with a pretty, pointed face.
I hear, Waters — that is your name, I think — that you refused to obey cook, and walked out of the kitchen the night you arrived.
I said, maam, that I would wait till my box came up from the station, so that I might change my dress. Mrs. Latch said my dress didnt matter, but when one is poor and hasnt many dresses —
Are you short of clothes, then?
I have not many, maam, and the dress I had on the day I came —
Never mind about that. Tell me, are you short of clothes? — for if you are I daresay my daughter might find you something — you are about the same height — with a little alteration —
Oh, maam, you are too good. I shall be most grateful. But I think I shall be able to manage till my first quarters wages come to me.
And the scowl upon Mrs. Latchs long face did not kill the pleasure which the little interview with that kind, sweet woman, Mrs. Barfield, had created in her. She moved about her work, happy at heart, singing to herself as she washed the vegetables. Even Mrs. Latchs harshness didnt trouble her much. She felt it to be a manner under which there might be a kind heart, and she hoped by her willingness to work to gain at least the cooks toleration. Margaret suggested that Esther should give up her beer. A solid pint extra a day could not fail, she said, to win the old womans gratitude, and perhaps induce her to teach Esther how to make pastry and jellies.
True that Margaret joined in the common laugh and jeer that the knowledge that Esther said her prayers morning and evening inspired. She sometimes united with Grover and Sarah in perplexing Esther with questions regarding her previous situations, but her hostilities were, on the whole, gentle, and Esther felt that this almost neutral position was the best that Margaret could have adopted. She defended her without seeming to do so, and seemed genuinely fond of her, helping her sometimes even with her work, which Mrs. Latch made as heavy as possible. But Esther was now determined to put up with every task they might impose upon her; she would give them no excuse for sending her away; she would remain at Woodview until she had learned sufficient cooking to enable her to get another place. But Mrs. Latch had the power to thwart her in this. Before beginning on her jellies and gravies Mrs. Latch was sure to find some saucepans that had not been sufficiently cleaned with white sand, and, if her search proved abortive, she would send Esther upstairs to scrub out her bedroom.
I cannot think why she is so down upon me, Esther often said to Margaret.
She isnt more down upon you than she was on the others. You neednt expect to learn any cooking from her; her plan has always been to take care that she shall not be supplanted by any of her kitchen-maids. But I dont see why she should be always sending you upstairs to clean out her bedroom. If Grover wasnt so stand-offish, we might tell her about it, and she could tell the Saint — thats what we call the missis; the Saint would soon put a stop to all that nonsense. I will say that for the Saint, she do like everyone to have fair play.
Mrs. Barfield, or the Saint, as she was called, belonged, like Esther, to the sect known as the Plymouth Brethren. She was the daughter of one of the farmers on the estate — a very old man called Elliot. He had spent his life on his barren down farm, becoming intimate with no one, driving hard bargains with all, especially the squire and the poor flint-pickers. He could be seen still on the hill-sides, his long black coat buttoned strictly about him, his soft felt hat crushed over the thin, grey face. Pretty Fanny Elliot had won the squires heart as he rode across the down. Do you not see the shy figure of the Puritan maiden tripping through the gorse, hastening the hoofs of the squires cob? And, furnished with some pretext of estate business, he often rode to the farm that lay under the shaws at the end of the coombe. The squire had to promise to become one of the Brethren and he had to promise never to bet again, before Fanny Elliot agreed to become Mrs. Barfield. The ambitious members of the Barfield family declared that the marriage was social ruin, but more dispassionate critics called it a very suitable match; for it was not forgotten that three generations ago the Barfields were livery-stable keepers; they had risen in the late squires time to the level of county families, and the envious were now saying that the Barfield family was sinking back whence it came.
He was faithful to his promises for a time. Race-horses disappeared from the Woodview stables. It was not until after the birth of both his children that he entered one of his hunters in the hunt steeplechase. Soon after the racing stable was again in full swing at Woodview. Tears there were, and some family disunion, but time extorts concessions from all of us. Mrs. Barfield had ceased to quarrel with her husband on the subject of his racehorses, and he in his turn did not attempt to restrict her in the exercise of her religion. She attended prayer-meetings when her soul moved her, and read the Scriptures when and where she pleased.
It was one of her practices to have the women-servants for half-an-hour every Sunday afternoon in the library, and instruct them in the life of Christ. Mrs. Barfields goodness was even as a light upon her little oval face — reddish hair growing thin at the parting and smoothed back above the ears, as in an old engraving. Although nearly fifty, her figure was slight as a young girls. Esther was attracted by the magnetism of racial and religious affinities; and when their eyes met at prayers there was acknowledgment of religious kinship. A glow of happiness filled Esthers soul, for she knew she was no longer wholly among strangers; she knew they were united — she and her mistress — under the sweet dominion of Christ. To look at Mrs. Barfield filled her, somehow, with recollections of her pious childhood; she saw herself in the old shop, moving again in an atmosphere of prayer, listening to the beautiful story, in the annunciation of which her life had grown up. She answered her mistresss questions in sweet light-heartedness of spirit, pleasing her with her knowledge of the Holy Book. But in turn the servants had begun to read verses aloud from the New Testament, and Esther saw that her secret would be torn from her. Sarah had read a verse, and Mrs. Barfield had explained it, and now Margaret was reading. Esther listened, thinking if she might plead illness and escape from the room; but she could not summon sufficient presence of mind, and while she was still agitated and debating with herself, Mrs. Barfield called to her to continue. She hung down her head, suffocated with the shame of the exposure, and when Mrs. Barfield told her again to continue the reading Esther shook her head.
Can you not read, Esther? she heard a kind voice saying; and the sound of this voice loosed the feelings long pent up, and the girl, giving way utterly, burst into passionate weeping. She was alone with her suffering, conscious of nothing else, until a kind hand led her from the room, and this hand soothed away the bitterness of the tittering which reached her ears as the door closed. It was hard to persuade her to speak, but even the first words showed that there was more on the girls heart than could be told in a few minutes. Mrs. Barfield determined to take the matter at once in hand; she dismissed the other servants and returned to the library with Esther, and in that dim room of little green sofas, bookless shelves, and bird-cages, the women — mistress and maid — sealed the bond of a friendship which was to last for life.
Esther told her mistress everything — the work that Mrs. Latch required of her, the persecution she received from the other servants, principally because of her religion. In the course of the narrative allusion was made to the race-horses, and Esther saw on Mrs. Barfields face a look of grief, and it was clear to what cause Mrs. Barfield attributed the demoralisation of her household.
I will teach you how to read, Esther. Every Sunday after our Bible instruction you shall remain when the others have left for half-an-hour. It is not difficult; you will soon learn.
Henceforth, every Sunday afternoon, Mrs. Barfield devoted half-an-hour to the instruction of her kitchen-maid. These half-hours were bright spots of happiness in the serving-girls weeks of work — happiness that had been and would be again. But although possessing a clear intelligence, Esther did not make much progress, nor did her diligence seem to help her. Mrs. Barfield was puzzled by her pupils slowness; she ascribed it to her own inaptitude to teach and the little time for lessons. Esthers powerlessness to put syllables together, to grasp the meaning of words, was very marked. Strange it was, no doubt, but all that concerned the printed page seemed to embarrass and elude her.
ESTHERs position in Woodview was now assured, and her fellow-servants recognised the fact, though they liked her none the better for it. Mrs. Latch still did what she could to prevent her from learning her trade, but she no longer attempted to overburden her with work. Of Mr. Leopold she saw almost as little as she did of the people upstairs. He passed along the passages or remained shut up in his pantry. Ginger used to go there to smoke; and when the door stood ajar Esther saw his narrow person seated on the edge of the table, his leg swinging. Among the pantry people Mr. Leopolds erudition was a constant subject of admiration. His reminiscences of the races of thirty years ago were full of interest; he had seen the great horses whose names live in the stud-book, the horses the Gaffer had owned, had trained, had ridden, and he was full of anecdote concerning them and the Gaffer. Praise of his fathers horsemanship always caused a cloud to gather on Gingers face, and when he left the pantry Swindles chuckled. Whenever I wants to get a rise out of Ginger I says, ah, we shall never see another gentleman jock who can use the whip at a finish like the Governor in his best days.
Everyone delighted in the pantry, and to make Mr. Leopold comfortable Mr. Swindles used to bring in the wolf-skin rug that went out with the carriage, and wrap it round Mr. Leopolds wooden armchair, and the sallow little man would curl himself up, and, smoking his long clay, discuss the weights of the next big handicap. If Ginger contradicted him he would go to the press and extract from its obscurity a package of Bells Life or a file of the Sportsman.
Mr. Leopolds press! For forty years no one had looked into that press. Mr. Leopold guarded it from every gaze, but it seemed to be a much-varied repository from which, if he chose, he could produce almost any trifle that might be required. It seemed to combine the usefulness of a hardware shop and a drug store.
The pantry had its etiquette and its discipline. Jockey boys were rarely admitted, unless with the intention of securing their services for the cleaning of boots or knives. William was very proud of his right of entry. For that half-hour in the pantry he would willingly surrender the pleasure of walking in the drove-way with Sarah. But when Mrs. Latch learnt that he was there her face darkened, and the noise she then made about the range with her saucepans was alarming. Mrs. Barfield shared her cooks horror of the pantry, and often spoke of Mr. Leopold as that little man. Although outwardly the family butler, he had never ceased to be the Gaffers private servant; he represented the old days of bachelorhood. Mrs. Barfield and Mrs. Latch both disliked him. Had it not been for his influence Mrs. Barfield felt sure her husband would never have returned to his vice. Had it not been for Mr. Leopold Mrs. Latch felt that her husband would never have taken to betting. Legends and mystery had formed around Mr. Leopold and his pantry, and in Esthers unsophisticated mind this little room, with its tobacco smoke and glasses on the table, became a symbol of all that was wicked and dangerous; and when she passed the door she closed her ears to the loud talk and instinctively lowered her eyes.
The simplest human sentiments were abiding principles in Esther — love of God, and love of God in the home. But above this Protestantism was human nature; and at this time Esther was, above all else, a young girl. Her twentieth year thrilled within her; she was no longer weary with work, and new, rich blood filled her veins. She sang at her work, gladdened by the sights and sounds of the yard; the young rooks cawing lustily in the evergreens, the gardener passing to and fro with plants in his hands, the white cats licking themselves in the sun or running to meet the young ladies who brought them plates of milk. Then the race-horses were always going to or coming from the downs. Sometimes they came in so covered with white mud that part of their toilette was accomplished in the yard; and from her kitchen window she could see the beautiful creature haltered to the hook fixed in the high wall, and the little boy in his shirtsleeves and hitched-up trousers, not a bit afraid, but shouting and quieting him into submission with the stick when he kicked and bit, tickled by the washing brush passing under the belly. Then the wrestling, sparring, ball-playing of the lads when their work was done, the pale, pathetic figure of the Demon watching them. He was about to start for Portslade and back, wrapped, as he would put it, in a red-hot scorcher of an overcoat.
Esther often longed for a romp with these boys; she was now prime favourite with them. Once they caught her in the hay yard, and fine sport it was in the warm hay throwing each other over. Sometimes her wayward temper would get the better of her, but her momentary rage vanished at the sound of laughter. And after their tussling they would walk a little while pensively, until perhaps one, with an adroit trip, would send the other rolling over on the grass, and then, with wild cries, they would run down the drove-way. Then there was the day when the Wool-gatherer told her he was in love, and what fun they had had, and how well she had led him into belief that she was jealous! She had taken a rope as if she were going to hang herself, and having fastened it to a branch, she had knelt down as if she were saying her prayers. The poor Wool-gatherer could stand it no longer; he had rushed to her side, swearing that if she would promise not to hang herself he would never look at another girl again. The other boys, who had been crouching in the drove-way, rose up. How they did chaff the Wool-gatherer! He had burst into tears and Esther had felt sorry for him, and almost inclined to marry him out of pity for his forlorn condition.
Her life grew happier and happier. She forgot that Mrs. Latch would not teach her how to make jellies, and had grown somewhat used to Sarahs allusions to her ignorance. She was still very poor, had not sufficient clothes, and her life was full of little troubles; but there were compensations. It was to her that Mrs. Barfield always came when she wanted anything in a hurry, and Miss Mary, too, seemed to prefer to apply to Esther when she wanted milk for her cats or bran and oats for her rabbits.
The Gaffer and his race-horses, the Saint and her greenhouse — so went the stream of life at Woodview. What few visitors came were entertained by Miss Mary in the drawing-room or on the tennis lawn. Mrs. Barfield saw no one. She desired to remain in her old gown — an old thing that her daughter had discarded long ago — pinned up around her, and on her head an old bonnet with a faded poppy hanging from the crown. In such attire she wished to be allowed to trot about to and fro from her greenhouse to her potting-shed, watering, pruning, and syringing her plants. These plants were dearer than all things to her except her children; she seemed, indeed, to treat them as if they were children, and with the sun pouring through the glass down on her back she would sit freeing them from devouring insects all the day long. She would carry can after can of water up the long path and never complain of fatigue. She broke into complaint only when Miss Mary forgot to feed her pets, of which she had a great number — rabbits, and cats, and rooks, and all the work devolved upon her. She could not see these poor dumb creatures hungry, and would trudge to the stables, coming back laden with trusses of hay. But it was sometimes more than a pair of hands could do, and she would send Esther with scraps of meat and bread and milk to the unfortunate rooks that Mary had so unmercifully forgotten. Ill have no more pets, shed say, Miss Mary wont look after them, and all the trouble falls upon me. See these poor cats, how they come mewing round my skirts. She loved to expatiate on her inexhaustible affection for dumb animals, and she continued an anecdotal discourse till, suddenly wearying of it, she would break off and speak to Esther about Barnstaple and the Brethren.
The Saint loved to hear Esther tell of her father and the little shop in Barnstaple, of the prayer-meetings and the simple earnestness and narrowness of the faith of those good Brethren. Circumstances had effaced, though they had not obliterated, the once sharply-marked confines of her religious habits. Her religion was like a garden — a little less sedulously tended than of yore, but no whit less fondly loved; and while listening to Esthers story she dreamed her own early life over again, and paused, laying down her watering-can, penetrated with the happiness of gentle memories. So Esthers life grew and was fashioned; so amid the ceaseless round of simple daily occupations mistress and maid learned to know and to love one another, and became united and strengthful in the tender and ineffable sympathies of race and religion.
THE SUMMER drowsed, baking the turf on the hills, and after every gallop the Gaffer passed his fingers along the fine legs of the crack, in fear and apprehension lest he should detect any swelling. William came every day for news. He had five shillings on; he stood to win five pounds ten — quite a little fortune — and he often stopped to ask Esther if there was any news as he made his way to the pantry. She told him that so far as she knew Silver Braid was all right, and continued shaking the rug.
Youll never get the dust out of that rug, he said at last, here, give it to me. She hesitated, then gave it him, and he beat it against the brick wall. There, he said, handing it back to her, thats how I beats a mat; you wont find much dust in it now.
Thank you .... Sarah went by an hour and a half ago.
Ah, she must have gone to the Gardens. You have never been to those gardens, have you? Dancing-hall, theatre, sorcerers — every blessed thing. But youre that religious, I suppose you wouldnt come?
It is only the way you are brought up.
Well, will you come?
I dont think I should like those Gardens .... But I daresay they are no worse than any other place. Ive heard so much since I was here, that really —
That really what?
That sometimes it seems useless like to be particular.
Of course — all rot. Well, will you come next Sunday?
Certainly not on Sunday.
The Gaffer had engaged him as footman: his livery would be ready by Saturday, and he would enter service on Monday week. This reminded them that henceforth they would see each other every day, and, speaking of the pain it would give his mother when he came running downstairs to go out with the carriage, he said —
It was always her idea that I shouldnt be a servant, but I believe in doing what you gets most coin for doing. I should like to have been a jockey, and I could have ridden well enough — the Gaffer thought better at one time of my riding than he did of Gingers. But I never had any luck; when I was about fifteen I began to grow .... If I could have remained like the Demon —
Esther looked at him, wondering if he were speaking seriously, and really wished away his splendid height and shoulders.
A few days later he tried to persuade her to take a ticket in a shilling sweepstakes which he was getting up among the out and the indoor servants. She pleaded poverty — her wages would not be due till the end of August. But William offered to lend her the money, and he pressed the hat containing the bits of paper on which were written the horses names so insinuatingly upon her that a sudden impulse to oblige him came over her, and before she had time to think she had put her hand in the hat and taken a number.
Come, none of your betting and gambling in my kitchen, said Mrs. Latch, turning from her work. Why cant you leave that innocent girl alone?
Dont be that disagreeable, mother; it aint betting, its a sweepstakes.
It is all the same, muttered Mrs. Latch; it always begins that way, and it goes on from bad to worse. I never saw any good come from it, and Heaven knows Ive seen enough misfortune.
Margaret and Sarah paused, looking at her open-mouthed, a little perplexed, holding the numbers they had drawn in both hands. Esther had not unfolded hers. She looked at Mrs. Latch and regretted having taken the ticket in the lottery. She feared jeers from Sarah, or from Grover, who had just come in, for her inability to read the name of the horse she had drawn. Seeing her dilemma, William took her paper from her.
Silver Braid ... by Jingo! She has got the right one.
At that moment the sound of hoofs was heard in the yard, and the servants flew to the window.
Hell win, cried William, leaning over the womens backs, waving his bony hand to the Demon, who rode past on Silver Braid. The Gaffer will bring him to the post as fit as a fiddle.
I think he will, said Mr. Leopold. The rain has done us a lot of good; he was beginning to go a bit short a week ago. We shall want some more rain. I should like to see it come down for the next week or more.
Mr. Leopolds desires looked as if they were going to be fulfilled. The heavens seemed to have taken the fortunes of the stable in hand. Rain fell generally in the afternoon and night, leaving the mornings fine, and Silver Braid went the mile gaily, becoming harder and stronger. And in the intermittent swish of showers blown up from the sea Woodview grew joyous, and a conviction of ultimate triumph gathered and settled on every face except Mrs. Barfields and Mrs. Latchs. And askance they looked at the triumphant little butler. He became more and more the topic of conversation. He seemed to hold the thread of their destiny in his press. Peggy was especially afraid of him.
And, continuing her confidences to the under-housemaid, the young lady said, I like to know things for the pleasure of talking about them, but he for the pleasure of holding his tongue. Peggy was Miss Margaret Barfield, a cousin, the daughter of a rich brewer. If he brings in your letters in the morning he hands them to you just as if he knew whom they are from. Ugly little beast; it irritates me when he comes into the room.
He hates women, Miss; he never lets us near his pantry, and he keeps William there talking racing.
Ah, William is very different. He ought never to have been a servant. His family was once quite as good as the Barfields.
So I have heard, Miss. But the world is that full of ups and downs you never can tell who is who. But we all likes William and ates that little man and his pantry. Mrs. Latch calls him the evil genius.
A furtive and clandestine little man, ashamed of his women-folk and keeping them out of sight as much as possible. His wife a pale, dim woman, tall as he was short, preserving still some of the graces of the ladys-maid, shy either by nature or by the severe rule of her lord, always anxious to obliterate herself against the hedges when you met her in the lane or against the pantry door when any of the family knocked to ask for hot water, or came with a letter for the post. By nature a bachelor, he was instinctively ashamed of his family, and when the weary-looking wife, the thin, shy girl, or the corpulent, stupid-faced son were with him and he heard steps outside, he would come out like a little wasp, and, unmistakably resenting the intrusion, would ask what was wanted.
If it were Ginger, Mr. Leopold would say, Can I do anything for you, Mr. Arthur?
Oh, nothing, thank you; I only thought that — and Ginger would invent some paltry excuse and slink away to smoke elsewhere.
Every day, a little before twelve, Mr. Leopold went out for his morning walk; every day if it were fine you would meet him at that hour in the lane either coming from or going to Shoreham. For thirty years he had done his little constitutional, always taking the same road, always starting within a few minutes of twelve, always returning in time to lay the cloth for lunch at half-past one. The hour between twelve and one he spent in the little cottage which he rented from the squire for his wife and children, or in the Red Lion, where he had a glass of beer and talked with Watkins, the bookmaker.
There he goes, off to the Red Lion, said Mrs. Latch. They try to get some information out of him, but hes too sharp for them, and he knows it; thats what he goes there for — just for the pleasure of seeing them swallow the lies he tells them .... He has been telling them lies about the horses for the last twenty years, and still he get them to believe what he says. It is a cruel shame! It was the lies he told poor Jackson about Blue Beard that made the poor man back the horse for all he was worth.
And the horse didnt win?
Win! The master didnt even intend to run him, and Jackson lost all he had, and more. He went down to the river and drowned himself. John Randal has that mans death on his conscience. But his conscience dont trouble him much; if it did hed be in his grave long ago. Lies, lies, nothing but lies! But I daresay Im too ard on him; isnt lies our natural lot? What is servants for but to lie when it is in their masters interest, and to be a confidential servant is to be the Prince of liars!
Perhaps he didnt know the orse was scratched.
I see you are falling in nicely with the lingo of the trade.
Oh, replied Esther, laughing; one never hears anything else; one picks it up without knowing. Mr. Leopold is very rich, so they say. The boys tell me that he won a pile over the City and Suburban, and has thousands in the bank.
So some says; but who knows what he has? One hears of the winnings, but they say very little about the losings.
THE BOYS were playing ball in the stables, but she did not feel as if she wanted to romp with them. There was a stillness and a sweetness abroad which penetrated and absorbed her. She moved towards the paddock gate; the pony and the donkey came towards her, and she rubbed their muzzles in turn. It was a pleasure to touch anything, especially anything alive. She even noticed that the elm trees were strangely tall and still against the calm sky, and the rich odour of some carnations which came through the bushes from the pleasure-ground excited her; the scent of earth and leaves tingled in her, and the cawing of the rooks coming home took her soul away skyward in an exquisite longing; she was, at the same time, full of romantic love for the earth, and of a desire to mix herself with the innermost essence of things. The beauty of the evening and the sea breeze instilled a sensation of immortal health, and she wondered if a young man came to her as young men came to the great ladies in Sarahs books, how it would be to talk in the dusk, seeing the bats flitting and the moon rising through the branches.
The family was absent from Woodview, and she was free to enjoy the beauty of every twilight and every rising moon for still another week. But she wearied for a companion. Sarah and Grover were far too grand to walk out with her; and Margaret had a young man who came to fetch her, and in their room at night she related all he had said. But for Esther there was nothing to do all the long summer evenings but to sit at the kitchen window sewing. Her hands fell on her lap, and her heart heaved a sigh of weariness. In all this world there was nothing for her to do but to continue her sewing or to go for a walk on the hill. She was tired of that weary hill! But she could not sit in the kitchen till bedtime. She might meet the old shepherd coming home with his sheep, and she put a piece of bread in her pocket for his dogs and strolled up the hill-side. Margaret had gone down to the Gardens. One of these days a young man would come to take her out. What would he be like? She laughed the thought away. She did not think that any young man would bother much about her. Happening at that moment to look round, she saw a man coming through the hunting gate. His height and shoulders told her that he was William. Trying to find Sarah, she thought. I must not let him think I am waiting for him. She continued her walk, wondering if he were following, afraid to look round. At last she fancied she could hear footsteps; her heart beat faster. He called to her.
I think Sarah has gone to the Gardens, she said, turning round.
You always keep reminding me of Sarah. Theres nothing between us; anything there ever was is all off long ago .... Are you going for a walk?
She was glad of the chance to get a mouthful of fresh air, and they went towards the hunting gate. William held it open and she passed through.
The plantations were enclosed by a wooden fence, and beyond them the bare downs rose hill after hill. On the left the land sloped into a shallow valley sown with various crops; and the shaws about Elliots farm were the last trees. Beyond the farmhouse the downs ascended higher and higher, treeless, irreclaimable, scooped into long patriarchal solitudes, thrown into wild crests.
There was a smell of sheep in the air, and the flock trotted past them in good order, followed by the shepherd, a huge hat and a crook in his hand, and two shaggy dogs at his heels. A brace of partridges rose out of the sainfoin, and flew down the hills; and watching their curving flight Esther and William saw the sea under the sun-setting, and the string of coast towns.
A lovely evening, isnt it?
Esther acquiesced; and tempted by the warmth of the grass they sat down, and the mystery of the twilight found way into their consciousness.
We shant have any rain yet awhile.
How do you know?
Ill tell you, William answered, eager to show his superior knowledge. Look due south-west, straight through that last dip in that line of hills. Do you see anything?
No, I can see nothing, said Esther, after straining her eyes for a few moments.
I thought not .... Well, if it was going to rain you would see the Isle of Wight.
For something to say, and hoping to please, Esther asked him where the race-course was.
There, over yonder. I cant show you the start, a long way behind that hill, Portslade way; then they come right along by that gorse and finish up by Truly barn — you cant see Truly barn from here, thats Thunders barrow barn; they go quite half a mile farther.
And does all that land belong to the Gaffer?
Yes, and a great deal more, too; but this down land isnt worth much — not more than about ten shillings an acre.
And how many acres are there?
Do you mean all that we can see?
The Gaffers property reaches to Southwick Hill, and it goes north a long way. I suppose you dont know that all this piece, all that lies between us and that barn yonder, once belonged to my family.
To your family?
Yes, the Latches were once big swells; in the time of my great-grandfather the Barfields could not hold their heads as high as the Latches. My great-grandfather had a pot of money, but it all went.
A good bit, Ive no doubt. A rare ard liver, cock-fighting, unting, orse-racing from one years end to the other. Then after im came my grandfather; he went to the law, and a sad mess he made of it — went stony-broke and left my father without a sixpence; that is why mother didnt want me to go into livery. The family ad been coming down for generations, and mother thought that I was born to restore it; and so I was, but not as she thought, by carrying parcels up and down the Kings Road.
Esther looked at William in silent admiration, and, feeling that he had secured an appreciative listener, he continued his monologue regarding the wealth and rank his family had formerly held, till a heavy dew forced them to their feet. In front of them was the moon, and out of the forlorn sky looked down the misted valleys; the crests of the hills were still touched with light, and lights flew from coast town to coast town, weaving a luminous garland.
The sheep had been folded, and seeing them lying in the greyness of this hill-side, and beyond them the massive moonlit landscape and the vague sea, Esther suddenly became aware, as she had never done before, of the exceeding beauty of the world. Looking up in Williams face, she said —
Oh, how beautiful!
As they descended the drove-way their feet raised the chalk, and William said —
This is bad for Silver Braid; we shall want some more rain in a day or two .... Lets come for a walk round the farm, he said suddenly. The farm belongs to the Gaffer, but hes let the Lodge to a young fellow called Johnson. Hes the chap that Peggy used to go after — there was awful rows about that, and worse when he forestalled the Gaffer about Egmont.
The conversation wandered agreeably, and they became more conscious of each other. He told her all he knew about the chap who had jilted Miss Mary, and the various burlesque actresses at the Shoreham Gardens who had captivated Gingers susceptible heart. While listening she suddenly became aware that she had never been so happy before. Now all she had endured seemed accidental; she felt that she had entered into the permanent; and in the midst of vague but intense sensations William showed her the pigeon-house with all the blue birds dozing on the tiles, a white one here and there. They visited the workshop, the forge, and the old cottages where the bailiff and the shepherd lived; and all this inanimate nature — the most insignificant objects — seemed inspired, seemed like symbols of her emotion.
They left the farm and wandered on the high road until a stile leading to a cornfield beguiled and then delayed their steps.
The silence of the moonlight was clear and immense; and they listened to the trilling of the nightingale in the copse hard by. First they sought to discover the brown bird in the branches of the poor hedge, and then the reason of the extraordinary emotion in their hearts. It seemed that all life was beating in that moment, and they were as it were inflamed to reach out their hands to life and to grasp it together. Even William noticed that. And the moon shone on the mist that had gathered on the long marsh lands of the foreshore. Beyond the trees the land wavered out into down land, the river gleamed and intensely.
This moment was all the poetry of their lives. The striking of a match to light his pipe, which had gone out, put the music to flight, and all along the white road he continued his monologue, interrupted only by the necessity of puffing at his pipe.
Mother says that if I had twopence worth of pride in me I wouldnt have consented to put on the livery; but what I says to mother is, Whats the use of having pride if you havent money? I tells her that I am rotten with pride, but my pride is to make money. I cant see that the man what is willing to remain poor all his life has any pride at all .... But, Lord! I have argued with mother till Im sick; she can see nothing further than the livery; thats what women are — they are that short-sighted .... A lot of good it would have done me to have carried parcels all my life, and when I could do four mile an hour no more, to be turned out to die in the ditch and be buried by the parish. Not good enough, says I. if thats your pride, mother, you may put it in your pipe and smoke it, and as you avent got a pipe, perhaps behind the oven will do as well, — thats what I said to her. I saw well enough there was nothing for me but service, and I means to stop here until I can get on three or four good things and then retire into a nice comfortable public-house and do my own betting.
You would give up betting then?
Id give up backing orses, if you mean that .... What I should like would be to get on to a dozen good things at long prices — half-a-dozen like Silver Braid would do it. For a thousand or fifteen hundred pounds I could have the Red Lion, and just inside my own bar I could do a hundred-pound book on all the big races.
Esther listened, hearing interminable references to jockeys, publicans, weights, odds, and the certainty, if he had the Red Lion, of being able to get all Joe Walkers betting business away from him. Allusions to the police, and the care that must be taken not to bet with anyone who had not been properly introduced, frightened her; but her fears died in the sensation of his arm about her waist, and the music that the striking of a match had put to flight had begun again in the next plantation, and it began again in their hearts. But if he were going to marry Sarah! The idea amused him; he laughed loudly, and they walked up the avenue, his face bent over hers.