George Moore, Esther Waters (1899)

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VII
THE BARFIELD calculation was that they had a stone in hand. Bayleaf, Mr. Leopold argued, would be backed to win a million of money if he were handicapped in the race at seven stone; and Silver Braid, who had been tried again with Bayleaf, and with the same result as before, had been let off with only six stone.
 More rain had fallen, the hay-crop had been irretrievably ruined, the prospects of the wheat harvest were jeopardized, but what did a few bushels of wheat matter? Another pound of muscle in those superb hind-quarters was worth all the corn that could be grown between here and Henfield. Let the rain come down, let every ear of wheat be destroyed, so long as those delicate fore-legs remained sound. These were the ethics that obtained at Woodview, and within the last few days showed signs of adoption by the little town and not a few of the farmers, grown tired of seeing their crops rotting on the hill-sides. The fever of the gamble was in eruption, breaking out in unexpected places — the station-master, the porters, the flymen, all had their bit on, and notwithstanding the enormous favouritism of two other horses in the race — Prisoner and Stoke Newington — Silver Braid had advanced considerably in the betting. Reports of trials won had reached Brighton, and not more than five-and-twenty to one could now be obtained.
 The discovery that the Demon had gone up several pounds in weight had introduced the necessary alloy into the mintage of their happiness; the most real consternation prevailed, and the strictest investigation was made as to when and how he had obtained the quantities of food required to produce such a mass of adipose tissue. Then the Gaffer had the boy upstairs and administered to him a huge dose of salts, seeing him swallow every drop; and when the effects of the medicine had worn off he was sent for a walk to Portslade in two large overcoats, and was accompanied by William, whose long legs led the way so effectively. On his return a couple of nice feather beds were ready, and Mr. Leopold and Mr. Swindles themselves laid him between them, and when they noticed that he was beginning to cease to perspire Mr. Leopold made him a nice cup of hot tea.
 “That’s the way the Gaffer used to get the flesh off in the old days when he rode the winner at Liverpool.”
 “It’s the Demon’s own fault,” said Mr. Swindles; “if he hadn’t been so greedy he wouldn’t have had to sweat, and we should ’ave been spared a deal of bother and anxiety.”
 “Greedy!” murmured the little boy, in whom the warm tea had induced a new perspiration; “I haven’t had what you might call a dinner for the last three months. I think I’ll chuck the whole thing.”
 “Not until this race is over,” said Mr. Swindles. “Supposing I was to pass the warming-pan down these ’ere sheets. What do you say, Mr. Leopold? They are beginning to feel a bit cold.”
 “Cold! I ’ope you’ll never go to a ’otter place. For God’s sake, Mr. Leopold, don’t let him come near me with the warming-pan, or else he’ll melt the little flesh that’s left off me.”
 “You ’ad better not make such a fuss,” said Mr. Leopold; “if you don’t do what you are told, you’ll have to take salts again and go for another walk with William.”
 “If we don’t warm up them sheets ’e’ll dry up,” said Mr. Swindles.
 “No, I won’t; I’m teeming.”
 “Be a good boy, and you shall have a nice cut of mutton when you get up,” said Mr. Leopold.
 “How much? Two slices?”
 “Well, you see, we can’t promise; it all depends on how much has come off, and ’aving once got it hoff, we don’t want to put it on again.”
 “I never did ’ear such rot,” said Swindles. “In my time a boy’s feelings weren’t considered — one did what one considered good for them.”
 Mr. Leopold strove to engage the Demon’s attention with compliments regarding his horsemanship in the City and Sub. while Mr. Swindles raised the bedclothes.
 “Oh, Mr. Swindles, you are burning me.”
 “For ’eaven’s sake don’t let him start out from under the bed like that! Can’t yer ’old him? Burning you! I never even touched you with it; it was the sheet that you felt.”
 “Then the sheet is at ’ot as the bloody fire. Will yer leave off?”
 “What! a Demon like you afraid of a little touch of ’eat; wouldn’t ’ave believed it unless I ’ad ’eard it with my own ears,” said Mr. Leopold. “Come, now, do yer want to ride the crack at Goodwood or do yer not? If you do, remain quiet, and let us finish taking off the last couple of pounds.”
 “It is the last couple of pounds that takes it out of one; the first lot comes off jest like butter,” said the boy, rolling out of the way of the pan. “I know what it will be; I shall be so weak that I shall just ride a stinking bad race.”
 Mr. Leopold and Mr. Swindles exchanged glances. It was clear they thought that there was something in the last words of the fainting Demon, and the pan was withdrawn. But when the boy was got into the scale again it was found that he was not yet nearly the right weight, and the Gaffer ordered another effort to be made. The Demon pleaded that his feet were sore, but he was sent off to Portslade in charge of the redoubtable William.
 And as the last pounds came off the Demon’s little carcass Mr. Leopold’s face resumed a more tranquil expression. It began to be whispered that instead of hedging any part of his money he would stand it all out, and one day a market gardener brought up word that he had seen Mr. Leopold going into Brighton.
 “Old Watkins isn’t good enough for him, that’s about it. If Silver Braid wins, Woodview will see very little more of Mr. Leopold. He’ll be for buying one of them big houses on the sea road and keeping his own trap.”

VIII
THE GREAT DAY was now fast approaching, and the Gaffer had promised to drive his folk in a drag to Goodwood. No more rain was required, the colt’s legs remained sound, and three days of sunshine would make all the difference in their sum of happiness. In the kitchen Mrs. Latch and Esther had been busy for some time with chickens and pies and jellies, and in the passage there were cases packed with fruit and wine. The dressmaker had come from Worthing, and for several days the young ladies had not left her. And one fine morning, very early — about eight o’clock — the wheelers were backed into the drag that had come from Brighton, and the yard resounded with the blaring of the horn. Ginger was practising under his sister’s window.
 “You’ll be late! You’ll be late!”
 With the exception of two young gentlemen, who had come at the invitation of the young ladies, it was quite a family party. Miss Mary sat beside her father on the box, and looked very charming in white and blue. Peggy’s black hair seemed blacker than ever under a white silk parasol, which she waved negligently above her as she stood up calling and talking to everyone until the Gaffer told her angrily to sit down, as he was going to start. Then William and the coachman let go the leaders’ heads, and running side by side swung themselves into their seats. At the same moment a glimpse was caught of Mr. Leopold’s sallow profile amid the boxes and the mackintoshes that filled the inside of the coach.
 “Oh, William did look that handsome in those beautiful new clothes! ... Everyone said so — Sarah and Margaret and Miss Grover. I’m sorry you did not come out to see him.”
 Mrs. Latch made no answer, and Esther remembered how she hated her son to wear livery, and thought that she had perhaps made a mistake in saying that Mrs. Latch should have come out to see him. “Perhaps this will make her dislike me again,” thought the girl. Mrs. Latch moved about rapidly, and she opened and closed the oven; then, raising her eyes to the window and seeing that the other women were still standing in the yard and safely out of hearing, she said —
 “Do you think that he has bet much on this race?”
 “Oh, how should I know, Mrs. Latch? ... But the horse is certain to win.”
 “Certain to win! I have heard that tale before; they are always certain to win. So they have won you round to their way of thinking, have they?” said Mrs. Latch, straightening her back.
 “I know very well indeed that it is not right to bet; but what can I do, a poor girl like me? If it hadn’t been for William I never would have taken a number in that sweepstakes.”
 “Do you like him very much, then?”
 “He has been very kind to me — he was kind when —”
 “Yes, I know, when I was unkind. I was unkind to you when you first came. You don’t know all. I was much troubled at that time, and somehow I did not — . But there is no ill-feeling? ... I’ll make it up to you — I’ll teach you how to be a cook.”
 “Oh, Mrs. Latch, I am sure —”
 “Never mind that. When you went out to walk with him the other night, did he tell you that he had many bets on the race?”
 “He talked about the race, like everyone else, but he did not tell me what bets he had on.”
 “No, they never do do that .... But you’ll not tell him that I asked you?”
 “No, Mrs. Latch, I promise.”
 “It would do no good, he’d only be angry; it would only set him against me. I am afraid that nothing will stop him now. Once they get a taste for it it is like drink. I wish he was married, that might get him out of it. Some woman who would have an influence over him, some strong-minded woman. I thought once that you were strong-minded —”
 At that moment Sarah and Grover entered the kitchen talking loudly. They asked Mrs. Latch how soon they could have dinner — the sooner the better, for the Saint had told them that they were free to go out for the day. They were to try to be back before eight, that was all. Ah! the Saint was a first-rate sort. She had said that she did not want anyone to attend on her. She would, get herself a bit of lunch in the dining-room. Mrs. Latch allowed Esther to hurry on the dinner, and by one o’clock they had all finished. Sarah and Margaret were going into Brighton to do some shopping, Grover was going to Worthing to spend the afternoon with the wife of one of the guards of the Brighton and South Coast Railway. Mrs. Latch went upstairs to lie down. So it grew lonelier and lonelier in the kitchen. Esther’s sewing fell out of her hands, and she wondered what she should do. She thought that she might go down to the beach, and soon after she put on her hat and stood thinking, remembering that she had not been by the sea, that she had not seen the sea since she was a little girl. But she remembered the tall ships that came into the harbour, sail falling over sail, and the tall ships that floated out of the harbour, sail rising over sail, catching the breeze as they went aloft — she remembered them.
 A suspension bridge, ornamented with straight-tailed lions, took her over the weedy river, and having crossed some pieces of rough grass, she climbed the shingle bank. The heat rippled the blue air, and the sea, like an exhausted caged beast, licked the shingle. Sea-poppies bloomed under the wheels of a decaying bathing-machine, and Esther wondered. But the sea here was lonely as a prison, and, seeing the treeless coast with its chain of towns, her thoughts suddenly reverted to William. She wished he were with her, and for pleasant contemplation she thought of that happy evening when she saw him coming through the hunting gate, when, his arm about her, William had explained that if the horse won she would take seven shillings out of the sweepstakes. She knew now that William did not care about Sarah; and that he cared for her had given a sudden and unexpected meaning to her existence. She lay on the shingle, her day-dream becoming softer and more delicate as it rounded into summer sleep.
 And when the light awoke her she saw flights of white clouds — white up above, rose-coloured as they approached the west; and when she turned, a tall, melancholy woman.
 “Good evening, Mrs. Randal,” said Esther, glad to find someone to speak to. “I’ve been asleep.”
 “Good evening, Miss. You’re from Woodview, I think?”
 “Yes, I’m the kitchen-maid. They’ve gone to the races; there was nothing to do, so I came down here.”
 Mrs. Randal’s lips moved as if she were going to say something. But she did not speak. Soon after she rose to her feet. “I think that it must be getting near tea-time; I must be going. You might come in and have a cup of tea with me, if you’re not in a hurry back to Woodview.”
 Esther was surprised at so much condescension, and in silence the two women crossed the meadows that lay between the shingle bank and the river. Trains were passing all the while, scattering, it seemed, in their noisy passage over the spider-legged bridge, the news from Goodwood. The news seemed to be borne along shore in the dust, and, as if troubled by prescience of the news, Mrs. Randal said, as she unlocked the cottage door —
 “It is all over now. The people in those trains know well enough which has won.”
 “Yes, I suppose they know, and somehow I feel as if I knew too. I feel as if Silver Braid had won.”
 Mrs. Randal’s home was gaunt as herself. Everything looked as if it had been scraped, and the spare furniture expressed a meagre, lonely life. She dropped a plate as she laid the table, and stood pathetically looking at the pieces. When Esther asked for a teaspoon she gave way utterly.
 “I haven’t one to give you; I had forgotten that they were gone. I should have remembered and not asked you to tea.”
 “It don’t matter, Mrs. Randal; I can stir up my tea with anything — a knitting-needle will do very well —”
 “I should have remembered and not asked you back to tea; but I was so miserable, and it is so lonely sitting in this house, that I could stand it no longer .... Talking to you saved me from thinking, and I did not want to think until this race was over. If Silver Braid is beaten we are ruined. Indeed, I don’t know what will become of us. For fifteen years I have borne up; I have lived on little at the best of times, and very often have gone without; but that is nothing compared to the anxiety — to see him come in with a white face, to see him drop into a chair and hear him say, ‘Beaten a head on the post,’ or ‘Broke down, otherwise he would have won in a canter.’ I have always tried to be a good wife and tried to console him, and to do the best when he said, ’i have lost half a year’s wages, I don’t know how we shall pull through.’ I have borne with ten thousand times more than I can tell you. The sufferings of a gambler’s wife cannot be told. Tell me, what do you think my feelings must have been when one night I heard him calling me out of my sleep, when I heard him say, ’i can’t die, Annie, without bidding you good-bye. I can only hope that you will be able to pull through, and I know that the Gaffer will do all he can for you, but he has been hit awful hard too. You mustn’t think too badly of me, Annie, but I have had such a bad time that I couldn’t put up with it any longer, and I thought the best thing I could do would be to go.’ That’s just how he talked — nice words to hear your husband speak in your ear through the darkness! There was no time to send for the doctor, so I jumped out of bed, put the kettle on, and made him drink glass after glass of salt and water. At last he brought up the laudanum.”
 Esther listened to the melancholy woman, and remembered the little man whom she saw every day so orderly, so precise, so sedate, so methodical, so unemotional, into whose life she thought no faintest emotion had ever entered — and this was the truth.
 “So long as I only had myself to think of I didn’t mind; but now there are the children growing up. He should think of them. Heaven only knows what will become of them ... John is as kind a husband as ever was if it weren’t for that one fault; but he cannot resist having something on any more than a drunkard can resist the bar-room.”
 “Winner, winner, winner of the Stewards’ Cup!”
 The women started to their feet. When they got into the street the boy was far away; besides, neither had a penny to pay for the paper, and they wandered about the town hearing and seeing nothing, so nervous were they. At last Esther proposed to ask at the “Red Lion” who had won. Mrs. Randal begged her to refrain, urging that she was unable to bear the tidings should it be evil.
 “Silver Braid,” the barman answered. The girl rushed through the doors.
“It is all right, it is all right; he has won!”
Soon after the little children in the lane were calling forth “Silver Braid won!” And overcome by the excitement Esther walked along the sea-road to meet the drag. She walked on and on until the sound of the horn came through the crimson evening and she saw the leaders trotting in a cloud of dust. Ginger was driving, and he shouted to her, “He won!” The Gaffer waved the horn and shouted, “He won!” Peggy waved her broken parasol and shouted, “He won!” Esther looked at William. He leaned over the back seat and shouted, “He won!” She had forgotten all about late dinner. What would Mrs. Latch say? On such a day as this she would say nothing.

IX
 NEARLY EVERYTHING came down untouched. Eating and drinking had been in progress almost all day on the course, and Esther had finished washing up before nine, and had laid the cloth in the servants’ hall for supper. But if little was eaten upstairs, plenty was eaten downstairs; the mutton was finished in a trice, and Mrs. Latch had to fetch from the larder what remained of a beefsteak pudding. Even then they were not satisfied, and fine inroads were made into a new piece of cheese. Beer, according to orders, was served without limit, and four bottles of port were sent down so that the health of the horse might be adequately drunk.
 While assuaging their hunger the men had exchanged many allusive remarks regarding the Demon’s bad ending, how nearly he had thrown the race away; and the meal being now over, and there being nothing to do but to sit and talk, Mr. Leopold, encouraged by William, entered on an elaborate and technical account of the race. The women listened, playing with a rind of cheese, glancing at the cheese itself, wondering if they could manage another slice, and the men sipping their port wine, puffing at their pipes, William listening most avidly of all, enjoying each sporting term, and ingeniously reminding Mr. Leopold of some detail whenever he seemed disposed to shorten his narrative. The criticism of the Demon’s horsemanship took a long while, for by a variety of suggestive remarks William led Mr. Leopold into reminiscences of the skill of certain famous jockeys in the first half of the century. These digressions wearied Sarah and Grover, and their thoughts wandered to the dresses that had been worn that day, and the lady’s-maid remembered she would hear all that interested her that night in the young ladies’ rooms. At last, losing all patience, Sarah declared that she didn’t care what Chifney had said when he just managed to squeeze his horse’s head in front in the last dozen yards, she wanted to know what the Demon had done to so nearly lose the race — had he mistaken the winning-post and pulled up? William looked at her contemptuously, and would have answered rudely, but at that moment Mr. Leopold began to tell the last instructions that the Gaffer had given the Demon. The orders were that the Demon should go right up to the leaders before they reached the half-mile, and remain there. Of course, if he found that he was a stone or more in hand, as the Gaffer expected, he might come away pretty well as he liked, for the greatest danger was that the horse might get shut out or might show temper and turn it up.
 “Well,” said Mr. Leopold, “there were two false starts, and Silver Braid must have galloped a couple of ’undred yards afore the Demon could stop him. There wasn’t twopence-halfpenny worth of strength in him — pulling off those three or four pounds pretty well finished him. He’ll never be able to ride that weight again .... He said afore starting that he felt weak; you took him along too smartly from Portslade the last time you went there.”
 “When he went by himself he’d stop playing marbles with the boys round the
Southwick public-house.”
“If there had been another false start I think it would have been all up with us. The Gaffer was quite pale, and he stood there not taking his glasses from his eyes. There were over thirty of them, so you can imagine how hard it was to get them into line. However, at the third attempt they were got straight and away they came, a black line stretching right across the course. Presently the black cap and jacket came to the front, and not very long after a murmur went round, ‘Silver Braid wins.’ Never saw anything like it in all my life. He was three lengths a’ead, and the others were pulling off. ‘Damn the boy; he’ll win by twenty lengths,’ said the Gaffer, without removing his glasses. But when within a few yards of the stand —”
 At that moment the bell rang. Mr. Leopold said, “There, they are wanting their tea; I must go and get it.”
 “Drat their tea,” said Margaret; “they can wait. Finish up; tell us how he won.”
 Mr. Leopold looked round, and seeing every eye fixed on him he considered how much remained of the story, and with quickened speech continued, “Well, approaching the stand, I noticed that Silver Braid was not going quite so fast, and at the very instant the Demon looked over his shoulder, and seeing he was losing ground he took up the whip. But the moment he struck him the horse swerved right across the course, right under the stand, running like a rat from underneath the whip. The Demon caught him one across the nose with his left hand, but seeing what was ’appening, the Tinman, who was on Bullfinch, sat down and began riding. I felt as if there was a lump of ice down my back,” and Mr. Leopold lowered his voice, and his face became grave as he recalled that perilous moment. “I thought it was all over,” he said, “and the Gaffer thought the same; I never saw a man go so deadly pale. It was all the work of a moment, but that moment was more than a year — at least, so it seemed to me. Well, about half-way up the rails the Tinman got level with the Demon. It was ten to one that Silver Braid would turn it up, or that the boy wouldn’t ’ave the strength to ride out so close a finish as it was bound to be. I thought then of the way you used to take him along from Portslade, and I’d have given something to’ve put a pound or two of flesh into his thighs and arms. The Tinman was riding splendid, getting every ounce and something more out of Bullfinch. The Demon, too weak to do much, was sitting nearly quite still. It looked as if it was all up with us, but somehow Silver Braid took to galloping of his own accord, and ’aving such a mighty lot in ’and he won on the post by a ’ead — a short ’ead .... I never felt that queer in my life and the Gaffer was no better; but I said to him, just afore the numbers went up, ’it is all right, sir, he’s just done it,’ and when the right number went up I thought everything was on the dance, going for swim like. By golly, it was a near thing!” At the end of a long silence Mr. Leopold said, shaking himself out of his thoughts, “Now I must go and get their tea.”
 Esther sat at the end of the table; her cheek leaned on her hand. By turning her eyes she could see William. Sarah noticed one of these stealthy backward glances and a look of anger crossed her face, and calling to William she asked him when the sweepstakes money would be divided. The question startled William from a reverie of small bets, and he answered that there was no reason why the sweepstakes money should not be divided at once.
 “There was twelve. That’s right, isn’t it? — Sarah, Margaret, Esther, Miss Grover, Mr. Leopold, myself, the four boys, and Swindles and Wall .... Well, it was agreed that seven should go to the first, three to the second, and two to the third. No one got the third ’orse, so I suppose the two shillings that would have gone to him ’ad better be given to the first.”
 “Given to the first! Why, that’s Esther! Why should she get it? ... What do you mean? No third! Wasn’t Soap-bubble third?”
 “Yes, Soap-bubble was third right enough, but he wasn’t in the sweep.”
 “And why wasn’t he?”
 “Because he wasn’t among the eleven first favourites. We took them as they were quoted in the betting list published in the Sportsman.”
 “How was it, then, that you put in Silver Braid?”
 “Yer needn’t get so angry, Sarah, no one’s cheating; it is all above board. If you don’t believe us, you’d better accuse us straight out.”
 “What I want to know is, why Silver Braid was included? — he wasn’t among the eleven first favourites.”
 “Oh, don’t be so stupid, Sarah; you know that we agreed to make an exception in favour of our own ’orse — a nice sweep it would ’ave been if we ’adn’t included Silver Braid.”
 “And suppose,” she exclaimed, tightening her brows, “that Soap-bubble had won, what would have become of our money?”
 “It would have been returned — everyone would have got his shilling back.”
 “And now I am to get three shillings, and that little Methodist or Plymouth Brethren there, whatever you like to call her, is to get nine!” said Sarah, with a light of inspiration flashing through her beer-clouded mind. “Why should the two shillings that would have gone to Soap-bubble, if anyone ’ad drawn ’im, go to the first ’orse rather than to the second?”
 William hesitated, unable for the moment to give a good reason why the extra two shillings should be given to Silver Braid; and Sarah, perceiving her advantage, deliberately accused him of wishing to favour Esther.
 “Don’t we know that you went out to walk with her, and that you remained out till nearly eleven at night. That’s why you want all the money to go to her. You don’t take us for a lot of fools, do you? Never in any place I ever was in before would such a thing be allowed — the footman going out with the kitchen-maid, and one of the Dissenting lot.”
 “I am not going to have my religion insulted! How dare you?” And Esther started up from her place; but William was too quick for her. He grasped her arm.
 “Never mind what Sarah says.”
 “Never mind what I says! ... A thing like that, who never was in a situation before; no doubt taken out of some ’ouse. Rescue work, I think they call it —”
 “She shan’t insult me — no, she shan’t!” said Esther, tremulous with passion.
 “A nice sort of person to insult!” said Sarah, her arms akimbo.
 “Now look you here, Sarah Tucker,” said Mrs. Latch, starting from her seat, “I’m not going to see that girl aggravated, so that she may do what she shouldn’t do, and give you an opportunity of going to the missis with tales about her. Come away, Esther, come with me. Let them go on betting if they will; I never saw no good come of it.”
 “That’s all very fine, mother; but it must be settled, and we have to divide the money.”
 “I don’t want your money,” said Esther, sullenly; “I wouldn’t take it.”
 “What blooming nonsense! You must take your money. Ah, here’s Mr. Leopold! he’ll decide it.”
 Mr. Leopold said at once that the money that under other circumstances would have gone to the third horse must be divided between the first and second; but Sarah refused to accept this decision. Finally, it was proposed that the matter should be referred to the editor of the Sportsman; and as Sarah still remained deaf to argument, William offered her choice between the Sportsman and the Sporting Life.
 “Look here,” said William, getting between the women; “this evening isn’t one for fighting; we have all won our little bit, and ought to be thankful. The only difference between you is two shillings, that were to have gone to the third horse if anyone had drawn him. Mr. Leopold says it ought to be divided; you, Sarah, won’t accept his decision. We have offered to write to the Sportsman, and Esther has offered to give up her claim. Now, in the name of God, tell us what do you want?”
 She raised some wholly irrelevant issue, and after a protracted argument with William, largely composed of insulting remarks, she declared that she wasn’t going to take the two shillings, nor yet one of them; let them give her the three she had won — that was all she wanted. William looked at her, shrugged his shoulders, and, after declaring that it was his conviction that women wasn’t intended to have nothing to do with horse-racing, he took up his pipe and tobacco-pouch.
 “Good-night, ladies, I have had enough of you for to-night; I am going to finish my smoke in the pantry. Don’t scratch all your ’air out; leave enough for me to put into a locket.”
 When the pantry door was shut, and the men had smoked some moments in silence, William said —
 “Do you think he has any chance of winning the Chesterfield Cup?”
 “He’ll win in a canter if he’ll only run straight. If I was the Gaffer I think I’d put up a bigger boy. He’ll ’ave to carry a seven-pound penalty, and Johnnie Scott could ride that weight.”
 The likelihood that a horse will bolt with one jockey and run straight with another was argued passionately, and illustrated with interesting reminiscences drawn from that remote past when Mr. Leopold was the Gaffer’s private servant — before either of them had married — when life was composed entirely of horse-racing and prize-fighting. But cutting short his tale of how he had met one day the Birmingham Chicken in a booth, and, not knowing who he was, had offered to fight him, Mr. Leopold confessed he did not know how to act — he had a bet of fifty pounds to ten shillings for the double event; should he stand it out or lay some of it off? William thrilled with admiration. What a ’ead, and who’d think it? that little ’ead, hardly bigger than a cocoanut! What a brain there was inside! Fifty pounds to ten shillings; should he stand it out or hedge some of it? Who could tell better than Mr. Leopold? It would, of course, be a pity to break into the fifty. What did ten shillings matter? Mr. Leopold was a big enough man to stand the racket of it even if it didn’t come back. William felt very proud of being consulted, for Mr. Leopold had never before been known to let anyone know what he had on a race.
 Next day they walked into Shoreham together. The bar of the “Red Lion” was full of people. Above the thronging crowd the voice of the barman and the customers were heard calling, “Two glasses of Burton, glass of bitter, three of whiskey cold.” There were railway porters, sailors, boatmen, shop-boys, and market gardeners. They had all won something, and had come for their winnings.
 Old Watkins, an elderly man with white whiskers and a curving stomach, had just run in to wet his whistle. He walked back to his office with Mr. Leopold and William, a little corner shelved out of some out-houses, into which you could walk from the street.
 “Talk of favourites!” he said; “I’d sooner pay over the three first favourites than this one — thirty, twenty to one starting price, and the whole town onto him; it’s enough to break any man .... Now, my men, what is it?” he said, turning to the railway porters.
 “Just the trifle me and my mates ’av won over that ’ere ’orse.”
 “What was it?”
 “A shilling at five and twenty to one.”
 “Look it out, Joey. Is it all right?”
 “Yes, sir; yes, sir,” said the clerk.
 And old Watkins slid his hand into his breeches pocket, and it came forth filled with gold and silver.
 “Come, come, mates, we are bound to ’ave a bet on him for the
Chesterfield — we can afford it now; what say yer, a shilling each?”
“Done for a shilling each,” said the under-porter; “finest ’orse in training .... What price, Musser Watkins?”
 “Ten to one.”
 “Right, ’ere’s my bob.”
 The other porters gave their shillings; Watkins slid them back into his pocket, and called to Joey to book the bet.
 “And, now, what is yours, Mr. Latch?”
 William stated the various items. He had had a bet of ten shillings to one on one race and had lost; he had had half-a-crown on another and had lost; in a word, three-and-sixpence had to be subtracted from his winnings on Silver Braid. These amounted to more than five pounds. William’s face flushed with pleasure, and the world seemed to be his when he slipped four sovereigns and a handful of silver into his waistcoat pocket. Should he put a sovereign of his winnings on Silver Braid for the Chesterfield? Half-a-sovereign was enough! ... The danger of risking a sovereign — a whole sovereign — frightened him.
 “Now, Mr. Latch,” said old Watkins, “if you want to back anything, make up your mind; there are a good many besides yourself who have business with me.”
 William hesitated, and then said he’d take ten half-sovereigns to one against Silver Braid.
 “Ten half-sovereigns to one?” said old Watkins.
 William murmured “Yes,” and Joey booked the bet.
 Mr. Leopold’s business demanded more consideration. The fat betting man and the scarecrow little butler walked aside and talked, both apparently indifferent to the impatience of a number of small customers; sometimes Joey called in his shrill cracked voice if he might lay ten half-crowns to one, or five shillings to one, as the case might be. Watkins would then raise his eyes from Mr. Leopold’s face and nod or shake his head, or perhaps would sign with his fingers what odds he was prepared to lay. With no one else would Watkins talk so lengthily, showing so much deference. Mr. Leopold had the knack of investing all he did with an air of mystery, and the deepest interest was evinced in this conversation. At last, as if dismissing matters of first importance, the two men approached William, and he heard Watkins pressing Mr. Leopold to lay off some of that fifty pounds.
 “I’ll take twelve to one — twenty-four pounds to two. Shall I book it?”
 Mr. Leopold shook his head, and, smiling enigmatically, said he must be getting back. William was much impressed, and congratulated himself on his courage in taking the ten half-sovereigns to one. Mr. Leopold knew a thing or two; he had been talking to the Gaffer that morning, and if it hadn’t been all right he would have laid off some of the money.
 Next day one of the Gaffer’s two-year-olds won a race, and the day after
Silver Braid won the Chesterfield Cup.
The second victory of Silver Braid nearly ruined old Watkins. He declared that he had never been so hard hit; but as he did not ask for time and continued to draw notes and gold and silver in handfuls from his capacious pockets, his lamentations only served to stimulate the happiness of the fortunate backers, and, listening to the sweet note of self ringing in their hearts, they returned to the public-house to drink the health of the horse.
 So the flood of gold continued to roll into the little town, decrepit and colourless by its high shingle beach and long reaches of muddy river. The dear gold jingled merrily in the pockets, quickening the steps, lightening the heart, curling lips with smiles, opening lips with laughter. The dear gold came falling softly, sweetly as rain, soothing the hard lives of working folk. Lives pressed with toil lifted up and began to dream again. The dear gold was like an opiate; it wiped away memories of hardship and sorrow, it showed life in a lighter and merrier guise, and the folk laughed at their fears for the morrow and wondered how they could have thought life so hard and relentless. The dear gold was pleasing as a bird on the branch, as a flower on the stem; the tune it sang was sweet, the colour it flaunted was bright.
 The trade of former days had never brought the excitement and the fortune that this horse’s hoofs had done. The dust they had thrown up had fallen a happy, golden shower upon Shoreham. In every corner and crevice of life the glitter appeared. That fine red dress on the builder’s wife, and the feathers that the girls flaunt at their sweethearts, the loud trousers on the young man’s legs, the cigar in his mouth — all is Goodwood gold. It glitters in that girl’s ears and on this girl’s finger.
 It was said that the town of Shoreham had won two thousand pounds on the race; it was said that Mr. Leopold had won two hundred; it was said that William Latch had won fifty; it was said that Wall, the coachman, had won five-and-twenty; it was said that the Gaffer had won forty thousand pounds. For ten miles around nothing was talked of but the wealth of the Barfields, and, drawn like moths to a candle, the county came to call; even the most distant and reserved left cards, others walked up and down the lawn with the Gaffer, listening to his slightest word. A golden prosperity shone upon the yellow Italian house. Carriages passed under its elm-trees at every hour and swept round the evergreen oaks. Rumour said that large alterations were going to be made, so that larger and grander entertainments might be given; an Italian garden was spoken of, balustrades and terraces, stables were in course of construction, many more race-horses were bought; they arrived daily, and the slender creatures, their dark eyes glancing out of the sight holes in their cloth hoods, walked up from the station followed by an admiring and commenting crowd. Drink and expensive living, dancing and singing upstairs and downstairs, and the jollifications culminated in a servants’ ball given at the Shoreham Gardens. All the Woodview servants, excepting Mrs. Latch, were there; likewise all the servants from Mr. Northcote’s, and those from Sir George Preston’s — two leading county families. A great number of servants had come from West Brighton, and Lancing, and Worthing — altogether between two and three hundred. “Evening dress is indispensable” was printed on the cards. The butlers, footmen, cooks, ladies’ maids, housemaids, and housekeepers hoped by this notification to keep the ball select. But the restriction seemed to condemn Esther to play again the part of Cinderella.

X
A GROUP of men turned from the circular buffet when Esther entered. Miss Mary had given her a white muslin dress, a square-cut bodice with sleeves reaching to the elbows, and a blue sash tied round the waist. The remarks as she passed were, “A nice, pretty girl.” William was waiting, and she went away with him on the hop of a vigorous polka.
 Many of the dancers had gone to get cool in the gardens, but a few couples had begun to whirl, the women borne along by force, the men poising their legs into curious geometrical positions.
 Mr. Leopold was very busy dragging men away from the circular buffet — they must dance whether they knew how or not.
 “The Gaffer has told me partic’lar to see that the ‘gals’ all had partners, and just look down that ’ere room; ’alf of that lot ’aven’t been on their legs yet. ’ere’s a partner for you,” and the butler pulled a young gamekeeper towards a young girl who had just arrived. She entered slowly, her hands clasped across her bosom, her eyes fixed on the ground, and the strangeness of the spectacle caused Mr. Leopold to pause. It was whispered that she had never worn a low dress before, and Grover came to the rescue of her modesty with a pocket-handkerchief.
 But it had been found impossible to restrict the ball to those who possessed or could obtain an evening suit, and plenty of check trousers and red neckties were hopping about. Among the villagers many a touch suggested costume. A young girl had borrowed her grandmother’s wedding dress, and a young man wore a canary-coloured waistcoat and a blue coastguardsman’s coat of old time. These touches of fancy and personal taste divided the villagers from the household servants. The butlers seemed on the watch for side dishes, and the valets suggested hair brushes and hot water. Cooks trailed black silk dresses adorned with wide collars, and fastened with gold brooches containing portraits of their late husbands; and the fine shirt fronts set off with rich pearls, the lavender-gloved hands, the delicate faces, expressive of ease and leisure, made Ginger’s two friends — young Mr. Preston and young Mr. Northcote — noticeable among this menial, work-a-day crowd. Ginger loved the upper circles, and now he romped the polka in the most approved London fashion, his elbows advanced like a yacht’s bowsprit, and, his coat-tails flying, he dashed through a group of tradespeople who were bobbing up and down, hardly advancing at all.
 Esther was now being spoken of as the belle of the ball, she had danced with young Mr. Preston, and seeing her sitting alone Grover called her and asked her why she was not dancing. Esther answered sullenly that she was tired.
 “Come, the next polka, just to show there is no ill-feeling.” Half a dozen times William repeated his demand. At last she said —
 “You’ve spoilt all my pleasure in the dancing.”
 “I’m sorry if I’ve done that, Esther. I was jealous, that’s all.”
 “Jealous! What was you jealous for? What do it matter what people think, so long as I know I haven’t done no wrong?”
 And in silence they walked into the garden. The night was warm, even oppressive, and the moon hung like a balloon above the trees, and often the straying revellers stopped to consider the markings now so plain upon its disc. There were arbours, artificial ruins, darkling pathways, and the breathless garden was noisy in the illusive light. William showed Esther the theatre and explained its purpose. She listened, though she did not understand, nor could she believe that she was not dreaming when they suddenly stood on the borders of a beautiful lake full of the shadows of tall trees, and crossed by a wooden bridge at the narrowest end.
 “How still the water is; and the stars, they are lovely!”
 “You should see the gardens about three o’clock on Saturday afternoons, when the excursion comes in from Brighton.”
 They walked on a little further, and Esther said, “What’s these places?
Ain’t they dark?”
“These are arbours, where we ’as shrimps and tea. I’ll take you next
Saturday, if you’ll come.”
A noisy band of young men, followed by three or four girls, ran across the bridge. Suddenly they stopped to argue on which side the boat was to be found. Some chose the left, some the right; those who went to the right sent up a yell of triumph, and paddled into the middle of the water. They first addressed remarks to their companions, and then they admired the moon and stars. A song was demanded, and at the end of the second verse William threw his arm round Esther.
 “Oh, Esther, I do love you.”
 She looked at him, her grey eyes fixed in a long interrogation.
 “I wonder if that is true. What is there to love in me?”
 He squeezed her tightly, and continued his protestations. “I do, I do, I do love you, Esther.”
 She did not answer, and they walked slowly on. A holly bush threw a black shadow on the gravel path and a moment after the ornamental tin roof of the dancing room appeared between the trees.
 Even in their short absence a change had come upon the ball. About the circular buffet numbers of men called for drink, and talked loudly of horse-racing. Many were away at supper, and those that remained were amusing themselves in a desultory fashion. A tall, lean woman, dressed like Sarah in white muslin, wearing amber beads round her neck, was dancing the lancers with the Demon, and everyone shook with laughter when she whirled the little fellow round or took him in her arms and carried him across. William wanted to dance, but Esther was hungry, and led him away to an adjoining building where cold beef, chicken, and beer might be had by the strong and adventurous. As they struggled through the crowd Esther spied three young gentlemen at the other end of the room.
 “Now tell me, if they ask me, the young gents yonder, to dance, am I to look them straight in the face and say no?”
 William considered a moment, and then he said, “I think you had better dance with them if they asks you; if you refuse, Sarah will say it was I who put you up to it.”
 “Let’s have another bottle,” cried Ginger. “Come, what do you say, Mr. Thomas?”
Mr. Thomas coughed, smiled, and said that Mr. Arthur wished to see him in the hands of the police. However, he promised to drink his share. Two more bottles were sent for, and, stimulated by the wine, the weights that would probably be assigned to certain horses in the autumn handicap were discussed. William was very proud of being admitted into such company, and he listened, a cigar which he did not like between his teeth, and a glass of champagne in his hand .... Suddenly the conversation was interrupted by the cornet sounding the first phrase of a favourite waltz, and the tipsy and the sober hastened away.
 Neither Esther nor William knew how to waltz, but they tumbled round the room, enjoying themselves immensely. In the polka and mazurka they got on better; and there were quadrilles and lancers in which the gentlemen joined, and all were gay and pleasant; even Sarah’s usually sour face glowed with cordiality when they joined hands and raced round the men standing in the middle. In the chain they lost themselves as in a labyrinth and found their partners unexpectedly. But the dance of the evening was Sir Roger de Coverley, and Esther’s usually sober little brain evaporated in the folly of running up the room, then turning and running backwards, getting into her place as best she could, and then starting again. It always appeared to be her turn, and it was so sweet to see her dear William, and such a strange excitement to run forward to meet young Mr. Preston, to curtsey to him, and then run away; and this over and over again.
 “There’s the dawn.”
 Esther looked, and in the whitening doorways she saw the little jockey staggering about helplessly drunk. The smile died out of her eyes; she returned to her true self, to Mrs. Barfield and the Brethren. She felt that all this dancing, drinking, and kissing in the arbours was wicked. But Miss Mary had sent for her, and had told her that she would give her one of her dresses, and she had not known how to refuse Miss Mary. Then, if she had not gone, William — Sounds of loud voices were heard in the garden, and the lean woman in the white muslin repeated some charge. Esther ran out to see what was happening, and there she witnessed a disgraceful scene. The lean woman in the muslin dress and the amber beads accused young Mr. Preston of something which he denied, and she heard William tell someone that he was mistaken, that he and his pals didn’t want no rowing at this ’ere ball, and what was more they didn’t mean to have none.
 And her heart filled with love for her big William. What a fine fellow he was! how handsome were his shoulders beside that round-shouldered little man whom he so easily pulled aside! and having crushed out the quarrel, he helped her on with her jacket, and, hanging on his arm, they returned home through the little town. Margaret followed with the railway porter; Sarah was with her faithful admirer, a man with a red beard, whom she had picked up at the ball; Grover waddled in the rear, embarrassed with the green silk, which she held high out of the dust of the road.
 When they reached the station the sky was stained with rose, and the barren downs — more tin-like than ever in the shadow-less light of dawn — stretched across the sunrise from Lancing to Brighton. The little birds sat ruffling their feathers, and, awaking to the responsibilities of the day, flew away into the corn. The night had been close and sultry, and even at this hour there was hardly any freshness in the air. Esther looked at the hills, examining the landscape intently. She was thinking of the first time she saw it. Some vague association of ideas — the likeness that the morning landscape bore to the evening landscape, or the wish to prolong the sweetness of these, the last moments of her happiness, impelled her to linger and to ask William if the woods and fields were not beautiful. The too familiar landscape awoke in William neither idea nor sensation; Esther interested him more, and while she gazed dreamily on the hills he admired the white curve of her neck which showed beneath the unbuttoned jacket. She never looked prettier than she did that morning, standing on the dusty road, her white dress crumpled, the ends of the blue sash hanging beneath the black cloth jacket.

XI
FOR DAYS nothing was talked of but the ball — how this man had danced, the bad taste of this woman’s dress, and the possibility of a marriage. The ball had brought amusement to all, to Esther it had brought happiness. Her happiness was now visible in her face and audible in her voice, and Sarah’s ironical allusions to her inability to learn to read no longer annoyed her, no longer stirred her temper — her love seemed to induce forgiveness for all and love for everything.
 In the evenings when their work was done Esther and her lover lingered about the farm buildings, listening to the rooks, seeing the lights die in the west; and in the summer darkness about nine she tripped by his side when he took the letters to post. The wheat stacks were thatching, and in the rickyard, in the carpenter’s shop, and in the whist of the woods they talked of love and marriage. They lay together in the warm valleys, listening to the tinkling of the sheep-bell, and one evening, putting his pipe aside, William threw his arm round her, whispering that she was his wife. The words were delicious in her fainting ears, and her will died in what seemed like irresistible destiny. She could not struggle with him, though she knew that her fate depended upon her resistance, and swooning away she awakened in pain, powerless to free herself .... Soon after thoughts betook themselves on their painful way, and the stars were shining when he followed her across the down, beseeching her to listen. But she fled along the grey road and up the stairs to her room. Margaret was in bed, and awakening a little asked her what had kept her out so late. She did not answer ... and hearing Margaret fall asleep she remembered the supper-table. Sarah, who had come in late, had sat down by her; William sat on the opposite side; Mrs. Latch was in her place, the jockeys were all together; Mr. Swindles, his snuff-box on the table; Margaret and Grover. Everyone had drunk a great deal; and Mr. Leopold had gone to the beer cellar many times. She thought that she remembered feeling a little dizzy when William asked her to come for a stroll up the hill. They had passed through the hunting gate; they had wandered into the loneliness of the hills. Over the folded sheep the rooks came home noisily through a deepening sky. So far she remembered, and she could not remember further; and all night lay staring into the darkness, and when Margaret called her in the morning she was pale and deathlike.
 “Whatever is the matter? You do look ill.”
 “I did not sleep all last night. My head aches as if it would drop off. I don’t feel as if I could go to work to-day.”
 “That’s the worst of being a servant. Well or ill, it makes no matter.” She turned from the glass, and holding her hair in her left hand, leaned her head so that she might pin it. “You do look bad,” she remarked dryly.
 Never had they been so late! Half-past seven, and the shutters still up! So said Margaret as they hurried downstairs. But Esther thought only of the meeting with William. She had seen him cleaning boots in the pantry as they passed. He waited till Margaret left her, till he heard the baize door which separated the back premises from the front of the house close, then he ran to the kitchen, where he expected to find Esther alone. But meeting his mother he mumbled some excuse and retreated. There were visitors in the house, he had a good deal to do that morning, and Esther kept close to Mrs. Latch; but at breakfast it suddenly became necessary that she should answer him, and Sarah saw that Esther and William were no longer friends.
 “Well I never! Look at her! She sits there over her tea-cup as melancholy as a prayer-meeting.”
 “What is it to you?” said William.
 “What’s it to me? I don’t like an ugly face at the breakfast-table, that’s all.”
 “I wouldn’t be your looking-glass, then. Luckily there isn’t one here.”
 In the midst of an angry altercation, Esther walked out of the room.
During dinner she hardly spoke at all. After dinner she went to her room,
and did not come down until she thought he had gone out with the carriage.
But she was too soon, William came running down the passage to meet her.
He laid his hand supplicatingly on her arm.
“Don’t touch me!” she said, and her eyes filled with dangerous light.
 “Now, Esther! ... Come, don’t lay it on too thick!”
 “Go away. Don’t speak to me!”
 “Just listen one moment, that’s all.”
 “Go away. If you don’t, I’ll go straight to Mrs. Barfield.”
 She passed into the kitchen and shut the door in his face. He had gone a trifle pale, and after lingering a few moments he hurried away to the stables, and Esther saw him spring on the box.
 As it was frequent with Esther not to speak to anyone with whom she had had a dispute for a week or fifteen days, her continued sulk excited little suspicion, and the cause of the quarrel was attributed to some trifle. Sarah said —
 “Men are such fools. He is always begging of her to forgive him. Just look at him — he is still after her, following her into the wood-shed.”
 She rarely answered him a yes or no, but would push past him, and if he forcibly barred the way she would say, “Let me go by, will you? You are interfering with my work.” And if he still insisted, she spoke of appealing to Mrs. Barfield. And if her heart sometimes softened, and an insidious thought whispered that it did not matter since they were going to be married, instinct forced her to repel him; her instinct was that she could only win his respect by refusing forgiveness for a long while. The religion in which her soul moved and lived — the sternest Protestantism — strengthened and enforced the original convictions and the prejudices of her race; and the natural shame which she had first felt almost disappeared in the violence of her virtue. She even ceased to fear discovery. What did it matter who knew, since she knew? She opened her heart to God. Christ looked down, but he seemed stern and unforgiving. Her Christ was the Christ of her forefathers; and He had not forgiven, because she could not forgive herself. Hers was the unpardonable sin, the sin which her race had elected to fight against, and she lay down weary and sullen at heart.
 The days seemed to bring no change, and wearied by her stubbornness, William said, “Let her sulk,” and he went out with Sarah; and when Esther saw them go down the yard her heart said, “Let him take her out, I don’t want him.” For she knew it to be a trick to make her jealous, and that he should dare such a trick angered her still further against him, and when they met in the garden, where she had gone with some food for the cats, and he said, “Forgive me, Esther, I only went out with Sarah because you drove me wild,” she closed her teeth and refused to answer. But he stood in her path, determined not to leave her. “I am very fond of you, Esther, and I will marry you as soon as I have earned enough or won enough money to give you a comfortable ’ome.”
 “You are a wicked man; I will never marry you.”
 “I am very sorry, Esther. But I am not as bad as you think for. You let your temper get the better of you. So soon as I have got a bit of money together —”
 “If you were a good man you would ask me to marry you now.”
 “I will if you like, but the truth is that I have only three pounds in the world. I have been unlucky lately —”
 “You think of nothing but that wicked betting. Come, let me pass; I’m not going to listen to a lot of lies.”
 “After the Leger —”
 “Let me pass. I will not speak to you.”
 “But look here, Esther: marriage or no marriage, we can’t go on in this way: they’ll be suspecting something shortly.”
 “I shall leave Woodview.” She had hardly spoken the words when it seemed clear to her that she must leave, and the sooner the better. “Come, let me pass .... If Mrs. Barfield —”
 An angry look passed over William’s face, and he said —
 “I want to act honest with you, and you won’t let me. If ever there was a sulky pig! ... Sarah’s quite right; you are just the sort that would make hell of a man’s life.”
 She was bound to make him respect her. She had vaguely felt from the beginning that this was her only hope, and now the sensation developed and defined itself into a thought and she decided that she would not yield, but would continue to affirm her belief that he must acknowledge his sin, and then come and ask her to marry him. Above all things, Esther desired to see William repentant. Her natural piety, filling as it did her entire life, unconsciously made her deem repentance an essential condition of their happiness. How could they be happy if he were not a God-fearing man? This question presented itself constantly, and she was suddenly convinced that she could not marry him until he had asked forgiveness of the Lord. Then they would be joined together, and would love each other faithfully unto death.
 But in conflict with her prejudices, her natural love of the man was as the sun shining above a fog-laden valley; rays of passion pierced her stubborn nature, dissolving it, and unconsciously her eyes sought William’s, and unconsciously her steps strayed from the kitchen when her ears told her he was in the passage. But when her love went out freely to William, when she longed to throw herself in his arms, saying, “Yes, I love you; make me your wife,” she noticed, or thought she noticed, that he avoided her eyes, and she felt that thoughts of which she knew nothing had obtained a footing in his mind, and she was full of foreboding.
 Her heart being intent on him, she was aware of much that escaped the ordinary eye, and she was the first to notice when the drawing-room bell rang, and Mr. Leopold rose, that William would say, “My legs are the youngest, don’t you stir.”
 No one else, not even Sarah, thought William intended more than to keep in Mr. Leopold’s good graces, but Esther, although unable to guess the truth, heard the still tinkling bell ringing the knell of her hopes. She noted, too, the time he remained upstairs, and asked herself anxiously what it was that detained him so long. The weather had turned colder lately .... Was it a fire that was wanted? In the course of the afternoon, she heard from Margaret that Miss Mary and Mrs. Barfield had gone to Southwick to make a call, and she heard from one of the boys that the Gaffer and Ginger had ridden over in the morning to Fendon Fair, and had not yet returned. It must have been Peggy who had rung the bell. Peggy? Suddenly she remembered something — something that had been forgotten. The first Sunday, the first time she went to the library for family prayers, Peggy was sitting on the little green sofa, and as Esther passed across the room to her place she saw her cast a glance of admiration on William’s tall figure, and the memory of that glance had flamed up in her brain, and all that night Esther saw the girl with the pale face and the coal-black hair looking at her William.
 Next day Esther waited for the bell that was to call her lover from her. The afternoon wore slowly away, and she had begun to hope she was mistaken when the metal tongue commenced calling. She heard the baize door close behind him; but the bell still continued to utter little pathetic notes. A moment after all was still in the corridor, and like one sunk to the knees in quicksands she felt that the time had come for a decided effort. But what could she do? She could not follow him to the drawing-room. She had begun to notice that he seemed to avoid her, and by his conduct seemed to wish that their quarrel might endure. But pride and temper had fallen from her, and she lived conscious of him, noting every sign, and intensely, all that related to him, divining all his intentions, and meeting him in the passage when he least expected her.
 “I’m always getting in your way,” she said, with a low, nervous laugh.
 “No harm in that; ... fellow servants; there must be give and take.”
 Tremblingly they looked at each other, feeling that the time had come, that an explanation was inevitable, but at that moment the drawing-room bell rang above their heads, and William said, “I must answer that bell.” He turned from her, and passed through the baize door before she had said another word.
 Sarah remarked that William seemed to spend a great deal of his time in the drawing-room, and Esther started out of her moody contemplation, and, speaking instinctively, she said, “I don’t think much of ladies who go after their servants.”
 Everyone looked up. Mrs. Latch laid her carving-knife on the meat and fixed her eyes on her son.
 “Lady?” said Sarah; “she’s no lady! Her mother used to mop out the yard before she was ‘churched.’”
 “I can tell you what,” said William, “you had better mind what you are a-saying of, for if any of your talk got wind upstairs you’d lose yer situation, and it might be some time before yer got another!”
 “Lose my situation! and a good job, too. I shall always be able to suit mesel’; don’t you fear about me. But if it comes to talking about situations, I can tell you that you are more likely to lose yours than I am to lose mine.”
 William hesitated, and while he sought a judicious reply Mrs. Latch and Mr. Leopold, putting forth their joint authority, brought the discussion to a close. The jockey-boys exchanged grins, Sarah sulked, Mr. Swindles pursed up his mouth in consideration, and the elder servants felt that the matter would not rest in the servant’s hall; that evening it would be the theme of conversation in the “Red Lion,” and the next day it would be the talk of the town.
 About four o’clock Esther saw Mrs. Barfield, Miss Mary, and Peggy walk across the yard towards the garden, and as Esther had to go soon after to the wood-shed she saw Peggy slip out of the garden by a bottom gate and make her way through the evergreens. Esther hastened back to the kitchen and stood waiting for the bell to ring. She had not to wait long; the bell tinkled, but so faintly that Esther said, “She only just touched it; it is a signal; he was on the look-out for it; she did not want anyone else to hear.”
 Esther remembered the thousands of pounds she had heard that the young lady possessed, and the beautiful dresses she wore. There was no hope for her. How could there be? Her poor little wages and her print dress! He would never look at her again! But oh! how cruel and wicked it was! How could one who had so much come to steal from one who had so little? Oh, it was very cruel and very wicked, and no good would come of it either to her or to him; of that she felt quite sure. God always punished the wicked. She knew he did not love Peggy. It was sin and shame; and after his promises — after what had happened. Never would she have believed him to be so false. Then her thought turned to passionate hatred of the girl who had so cruelly robbed her. He had gone through that baize door, and no doubt he was sitting by Peggy in the new drawing-room. He had gone where she could not follow. He had gone where the grand folk lived in idleness, in the sinfulness of the world and the flesh, eating and gambling, thinking of nothing else, and with servants to wait on them, obeying their orders and saving them from every trouble. She knew that these fine folk thought servants inferior beings. But was she not of the same flesh and blood as they? Peggy wore a fine dress, but she was no better; take off her dress and they were the same, woman to woman.
 She pushed through the door and walked down the passage. A few steps brought her to the foot of a polished oak staircase, lit by a large window in coloured glass, on either side of which there were statues. The staircase sloped slowly to an imposing landing set out with columns and blue vases and embroidered curtains. The girl saw these things vaguely, and she was conscious of a profusion of rugs, matting, and bright doors, and of her inability to decide which door was the drawing-room door — the drawing-room of which she had heard so much, and where even now, amid gold furniture and sweet-scented air, William listened to the wicked woman who had tempted him away from her. Suddenly William appeared, and seeing Esther he seemed uncertain whether to draw back or come forward. Then his face took an expression of mixed fear and anger; and coming rapidly towards her, he said —
 “What are you doing here?” ... then changing his voice, “This is against the rules of the ’ouse.”
 “I want to see her.”
 “Anything else? What do you want to say to her? I won’t have it, I tell you .... What do you mean by spying after me? That’s your game, is it?”
 “I want to speak to her.”
 With averted face the young lady fled up the oak staircase, her handkerchief to her lips. Esther made a movement as if to follow, but William prevented her. She turned and walked down the passage and entered the kitchen. Her face was one white tint, her short, strong arms hung tremblingly, and William saw that it would be better to temporise.
 “Now look here, Esther,” he said, “you ought to be damned thankful to me for having prevented you from making a fool of yourself.”
 Esther’s eyelids quivered, and then her eyes dilated.
 “Now, if Miss Margaret,” continued William, “had —”
 “Go away! go away! I am —” At that moment the steel of a large, sharp-pointed knife lying on the table caught her eye. She snatched it up, and seeing blood she rushed at him.
 William retreated from her, and Mrs. Latch, coming suddenly in, caught her arm. Esther threw the knife; it struck the wall, falling with a rattle on the meat screen. Escaping from Mrs. Latch, she rushed to secure it, but her strength gave way, and she fell back in a dead faint.
 “What have you been doing to the girl?” said Mrs. Latch.
 “Nothing, mother .... We had a few words, that was all. She said I should not go out with Sarah.”
 “That is not true .... I can read the lie in your face; a girl doesn’t take up a knife unless a man well-nigh drives her mad.”
 “That’s right; always side against your son! ... If you don’t believe me, get what you can out of her yourself.” And, turning on his heel, he walked out of the house.
 Mrs. Latch saw him pass down the yard towards the stables, and when Esther opened her eyes she looked at Mrs. Latch questioningly, unable to understand why the old woman was standing by her.
 “Are you better now, dear?”
 “Yes, but — but what —” Then remembrance struggled back. “Is he gone? Did I strike him? I remember that I —”
 “You did not hurt him.”
 “I don’t want to see him again. Far better not. I was mad. I did not know what I was doing.”
 “You will tell me about it another time, dear.”
 “Where is he? tell me that; I must know.”
 “Gone to the stables, I think; but you must not go after him — you’ll see him to-morrow.”
 “I do not want to go after him; but he isn’t hurt? That’s what I want to know.”
 “No, he isn’t hurt .... You’re getting stronger .... Lean on me. You’ll begin to feel better when you are in bed. I’ll bring you up your tea.”
 “Yes, I shall be all right presently. But how’ll you manage to get the dinner?”
 “Don’t you worry about that; you go upstairs and lie down.”
 A desolate hope floated over the surface of her brain that William might be brought back to her.
 In the evening the kitchen was full of people: Margaret, Sarah, and Grover were there, and she heard that immediately after lunch Mr. Leopold had been sent for, and the Gaffer had instructed him to pay William a month’s wages, and see that he left the house that very instant. Sarah, Margaret, and Grover watched Esther’s face and were surprised at her indifference. She even seemed pleased. She was pleased; nothing better could have happened. William was now separated from her rival, and released from her bad influence he would return to his real love. At the first sign she would go to him, she would forgive him. But a little later, when the dishes came down from the dining-room, it was whispered that Peggy was not there.
 Later in the evening, when the servants were going to bed, it became known
that she had left the house, that she had taken the six o’clock to
Brighton. Esther turned from the foot of the stair with a wild look.
Margaret caught her.
“It’s no use, dear; you can do nothing to-night.”
 “I can walk to Brighton.”
 “No, you can’t; you don’t know the way, and even if you did you don’t know where they are.”
 Neither Sarah nor Grover made any remark, and in silence the servants went to their rooms. Margaret closed the door and turned to look at Esther, who had fallen on the chair, her eyes fixed in vacancy.
 “I know what it is; I was the same when Jim Story got the sack. It seems as if one couldn’t live through it, and yet one does somehow.”
 “I wonder if they’ll marry.”
 “Most probable. She has a lot of money.”
 Two days after a cab stood in the yard in front of the kitchen window. Peggy’s luggage was being piled upon it — two large, handsome basket boxes with the initials painted on them. Kneeling on the box-seat, the coachman leaned over the roof making room for another — a small box covered with red cowhide and tied with a rough rope. The little box in its poor simplicity brought William back to Esther, whelming her for a moment in so acute a sense of her loss that she had to leave the kitchen. She went into the scullery, drew the door after her, sat down, and hid her face in her apron. A stifled sob or two, and then she recovered her habitual gravity of expression, and continued her work as if nothing had happened.

XII
 “THEY ARE just crazy about it upstairs. Ginger and the Gaffer are the worst. They say they had better sell the place and build another house somewhere else. None of the county people will call on them now — and just as they were beginning to get on so well! Miss Mary, too, is terrible cut up about it; she says it will interfere with her prospects, and that Ginger has nothing to do now but to marry the kitchen-maid to complete the ruin of the Barfields.”
 “Miss Mary is far too kind to say anything to wound another’s feelings. It is only a nasty old deceitful thing like yourself who could think of such a thing.”
 “Eh, you got it there, my lady,” said Sarah, who had had a difference with Grover, and was anxious to avenge it.
Grover looked at Sarah in astonishment, and her look clearly said, “Is everyone going to side with that little kitchen-maid?”
 Then, to flatter Mrs. Latch, Sarah spoke of the position the Latches had held three generations ago; the Barfields were then nobodies; they had nothing even now but their money, and that had come out of a livery stable. “And it shows, too; just compare Ginger with young Preston or young Northcote. Anyone could tell the difference.”
 Esther listened with an unmoved face and a heavy ache in her heart. She had now not an enemy nor yet an opponent; the cause of rivalry and jealousy being removed, all were sorry for her. They recognised that she had suffered and was suffering, and seeing none but friends about her, she was led to think how happy she might have been in this beautiful house if it had not been for William. She loved her work, for she was working for those she loved. She could imagine no life happier than hers might have been. But she had sinned, and the Lord had punished her for sin, and she must bear her punishment uncomplainingly, giving Him thanks that He had imposed no heavier one upon her.
 Such reflection was the substance of Esther’s mind for three months after William’s departure; and in the afternoons, about three o’clock, when her work paused, Esther’s thoughts would congregate and settle on the great misfortune of her life — William’s desertion.
 It was one afternoon at the beginning of December; Mrs. Latch had gone upstairs to lie down. Esther had drawn her chair towards the fire. A broken-down race-horse, his legs bandaged from his knees to his fetlocks, had passed up the yard; he was going for walking exercise on the downs, and when the sound of his hoofs had died away Esther was quite alone. She sat on her wooden chair facing the wide kitchen window. She had advanced one foot on the iron fender; her head leaned back, rested on her hand. She did not think — her mind was lost in vague sensation of William, and it was in this death of active memory that something awoke within her, something that seemed to her like a flutter of wings; her heart seemed to drop from its socket, and she nearly fainted away, but recovering herself she stood by the kitchen table, her arms drawn back and pressed to her sides, a death-like pallor over her face, and drops of sweat on her forehead. The truth was borne in upon her; she realised in a moment part of the awful drama that awaited her, and from which nothing could free her, and which she would have to live through hour by hour. So dreadful did it seem, that she thought her brain must give way. She would have to leave Woodview. Oh, the shame of confession! Mrs. Barfield, who had been so good to her, and who thought so highly of her. Her father would not have her at home; she would be homeless in London. No hope of obtaining a situation .... they would send her away without a character, homeless in London, and every month her position growing more desperate ....
 A sickly faintness crept up through her. The flesh had come to the relief of the spirit; and she sank upon her chair, almost unconscious, sick, it seemed, to death, and she rose from the chair wiping her forehead slowly with her apron .... She might be mistaken. And she hid her face in her hands, and then, falling on her knees, her arms thrown forward upon the table, she prayed for strength to walk without flinching under any cross that He had thought fit to lay upon her.
 There was still the hope that she might be mistaken; and this hope lasted for one week, for two, but at the end of the third week it perished, and she abandoned herself in prayer. She prayed for strength to endure with courage what she now knew she must endure, and she prayed for light to guide her in her present decision. Mrs. Barfield, however much she might pity her, could not keep her once she knew the truth, whereas none might know the truth if she did not tell it. She might remain at Woodview earning another quarter’s wages; the first she had spent on boots and clothes, the second she had just been paid. If she stayed on for another quarter she would have eight pounds, and with that money, and much less time to keep herself, she might be able to pull through. But would she be able to go undetected for nearly three whole months, until her next wages came due? She must risk it.
 Three months of constant fear and agonising suspense wore away, and no one, not even Margaret, suspected Esther’s condition. Encouraged by her success, and seeing still very little sign of change in her person, and as every penny she could earn was of vital consequence in the coming time, Esther determined to risk another month; then she would give notice and leave. Another month passed, and Esther was preparing for departure when a whisper went round, and before she could take steps to leave she was told that Mrs. Barfield wished to see her in the library. Esther turned a little pale, and the expression of her face altered; it seemed to her impossible to go before Mrs. Barfield and admit her shame. Margaret, who was standing near and saw what was passing in her mind, said —
 “Pull yourself together, Esther. You know the Saint — she’s not a bad sort. Like all the real good ones, she is kind enough to the faults of others.”
“What’s this? What’s the matter with Esther?” said Mrs. Latch, who had not yet heard of Esther’s misfortune.
 “I’ll tell you presently, Mrs. Latch. Go, dear, get it over.”
 Esther hurried down the passage and passed through the baize door without further thought. She had then but to turn to the left and a few steps would bring her to the library door. The room was already present in her mind. She could see it. The dim light, the little green sofa, the round table covered with books, the piano at the back, the parrot in the corner, and the canaries in the window. She knocked at the door. The well-known voice said, “Come in.” She turned the handle, and found herself alone with her mistress. Mrs. Barfield laid down the book she was reading, and looked up. She did not look as angry as Esther had imagined, but her voice was harder than usual.
 “Is this true, Esther?”
 Esther hung down her head. She could not speak at first; then she said,
“Yes.”
“I thought you were a good girl, Esther.”
 “So did I, ma’am.”
 Mrs. Barfield looked at the girl quickly, hesitated a moment, and then said —
 “And all this time — how long is it?”
 “Nearly seven months, ma’am.”
 “And all this time you were deceiving us.”
 “I was three months gone before I knew it myself, ma’am.”
 “Three months! Then for three months you have knelt every Sunday in prayer in this room, for twelve Sundays you sat by me learning to read, and you never said a word?”
 A certain harshness in Mrs. Barfield’s voice awakened a rebellious spirit in Esther, and a lowering expression gathered above her eyes. She said —
 “Had I told you, you would have sent me away then and there. I had only a quarter’s wages, and should have starved or gone and drowned myself.”
 “I’m sorry to hear you speak like that, Esther.”
 “It is trouble that makes me, ma’am, and I have had a great deal.”
 “Why did you not confide in me? I have not shown myself cruel to you, have I?”
“No, indeed, ma’am. You are the best mistress a servant ever had, but —”
 “But what?”
 “Why, ma’am, it is this way .... I hated being deceitful — indeed I did. But I can no longer think of myself. There is another to think for now.”
There was in Mrs. Barfield’s look something akin to admiration, and she felt she had not been wholly wrong in her estimate of the girl’s character; she said, and in a different intonation —
 “Perhaps you were right, Esther. I couldn’t have kept you on, on account of the bad example to the younger servants. I might have helped you with money. But six months alone in London and in your condition! ... I am glad you did not tell me, Esther; and as you say there is another to think of now, I hope you will never neglect your child, if God give it to you alive.”
 “I hope not, ma’am; I shall try and do my best.”
 “My poor girl! my poor girl! you do not know what trial is in store for you. A girl like you, and only twenty! ... Oh, it is a shame! May God give you courage to bear up in your adversity!”
 “I know there is many a hard time before me, but I have prayed for strength, and God will give me strength, and I must not complain. My case is not so bad as many another. I have nearly eight pounds. I shall get on, ma’am, that is to say if you will stand by me and not refuse me a character.”
 “Can I give you a character? You were tempted, you were led into temptation. I ought to have watched over you better — mine is the responsibility. Tell me, it was not your fault.”
 “It is always a woman’s fault, ma’am. But he should not have deserted me as he did, that’s the only thing I reproach him with, the rest was my fault — I shouldn’t have touched the second glass of ale. Besides, I was in love with him, and you know what that is. I thought no harm, and I let him kiss me. He used to take me out for walks on the hill and round the farm. He told me he loved me, and would make me his wife — that’s how it was. Afterwards he asked me to wait till after the Leger, and that riled me, and I knew then how wicked I had been. I would not go out with him or speak to him any more; and while our quarrel was going on Miss Peggy went after him, and that’s how I got left.”
 At the mention of Peggy’s name a cloud passed over Mrs. Barfield’s face. “You have been shamefully treated, my poor child. I knew nothing of all this. So he said he would marry you if he won his bet on the Leger? Oh, that betting! I know that nothing else is thought of here; upstairs and downstairs, the whole place is poisoned with it, and it is the fault of —” Mrs. Barfield walked hurriedly across the room, but when she turned the sight of Esther provoked her into speech. “I have seen it all my life, nothing else, and I have seen nothing come of it but sin and sorrow; you are not the first victim. Ah, what ruin, what misery, what death!”
 Mrs. Barfield covered her face with her hands, as if to shut out the memories that crowded upon her.
 “I think, ma’am, if you will excuse my saying so, that a great deal of harm do come from this betting on race-horses. The day when you was all away at Goodwood when the horse won, I went down to see what the sea was like here. I was brought up by the seaside at Barnstaple. On the beach I met Mrs. Leopold, that is to say Mrs. Randal, John’s wife; she seemed to be in great trouble, she looked that melancholy, and for company’s sake she asked me to come home to tea with her. She was in that state of mind, ma’am, that she forgot the teaspoons were in pawn, and when she could not give me one she broke down completely, and told me what her troubles had been.”
 “What did she tell you, Esther?”
 “I hardly remember, ma’am, but it was all the same thing — ruin if the horse didn’t win, and more betting if he did. But she said they never had been in such a fix as the day Silver Braid won. If he had been beaten they would have been thrown out on the street, and from what I have heard the best half of the town too.”
 “So that little man has suffered. I thought he was wiser than the rest .... This house has been the ruin of the neighbourhood; we have dispensed vice instead of righteousness.” Walking towards the window, Mrs. Barfield continued to talk to herself. “I have struggled against the evil all my life, and without result. How much more misery shall I see come of it?” Turning then to Esther she said, “Yes, the betting is an evil — one from which many have suffered — but the question is now about yourself, Esther. How much money have you?”
 “I have about eight pounds, ma’am.”
 “And how much do you reckon will see you through it?”
 “I don’t know, ma’am, I have no experience. I think father will let me stay at home if I can pay my way. I could manage easily on seven shillings a week. When my time comes I shall go to the hospital.”
 While Esther spoke Mrs. Barfield calculated roughly that about ten pounds would meet most of her wants. Her train fare, two month’s board at seven shillings a week, the room she would have to take near the hospital before her confinement, and to which she would return with her baby — all these would run to about four or five pounds. There would be baby’s clothes to buy .... If she gave four pounds Esther would have then twelve pounds, and with that she would be able to manage. Mrs. Barfield went over to an old-fashioned escritoire, and, pulling out some small drawers, took from one some paper packages which she unfolded. “Now, my girl, look here. I’m going to give you four pounds; then you will have twelve, and that ought to see you through your trouble. You have been a good servant, Esther; I like you very much, and am truly sorry to part with you. You will write and tell me how you are getting on, and if one of these days you want a place, and I have one to give you, I shall be glad to take you back.”
 Harshness deadened and hardened her feelings, yet she was easily moved by kindness, and she longed to throw herself at her mistress’s feet; but her nature did not admit of such effusion, and she said, in her blunt English way —
 “You are far too good, ma’am; I do not deserve such treatment — I know I don’t.”
 “Say no more, Esther. I hope that the Lord may give you strength to bear your cross .... Now go and pack up your box. But, Esther, do you feel your sin, can you truly say honestly before God that you repent?”
 “Yes, ma’am, I think I can say all that.”
 “Then, Esther, come and kneel down and pray to God to give you strength in the future to stand against temptation.”
 Mrs. Barfield took Esther’s hand and they knelt down by the round table, leaning their hands on its edge. And, in a high, clear voice, Mrs. Barfield prayed aloud, Esther repeating the words after her —
 “Dear Lord, Thou knowest all things, knowest how Thy servant has strayed and has fallen into sin. But Thou hast said there is more joy in heaven over one sinner that repenteth than over ninety and nine just men. Therefore, Lord, kneeling here before Thee, we pray that this poor girl, who repents of the evil she has done, may be strengthened in Thy mercy to stand firm against temptation. Forgive her sin, even as Thou forgavest the woman of Samaria. Give her strength to walk uprightly before Thee, and give her strength to bear the pain and the suffering that lie before her.”
 The women rose from their knees and stood looking at each other. Esther’s eyes were full of tears. Without speaking she turned to go.
 “One word more, Esther. You asked me just now for a character; I hesitated, but it seems to me now that it would be wrong to refuse. If I did you might never get a place, and then it would be impossible to say what might happen. I am not certain that I am doing right, but I know what it means to refuse to give a servant a character, and I cannot take upon myself the responsibility.”
 Mrs. Barfield wrote out a character for Esther, in which she described her as an honest, hard-working girl. She paused at the word “reliable,” and wrote instead, “I believe her to be at heart a thoroughly religious girl.”
 She went upstairs to pack her box, and when she came down she found all the women in the kitchen; evidently they were waiting for her. Coming forward, Sarah said —
 “I hope we shall part friends, Esther; any quarrels we may have had — There’s no ill-feeling now, is there?”
 “I bear no one any ill-feeling. We have been friends these last months; indeed, everyone has been very kind to me.” And Esther kissed Sarah on both cheeks.
 “I’m sure we’re all sorry to lose you,” said Margaret, pressing forward, “and we hope you’ll write and let us know how you are getting on.”
 Margaret, who was a tender-hearted girl, began to cry, and, kissing Esther, she declared that she had never got on with a girl who slept in her room so well before. Esther shook hands with Grover, and then her eyes met Mrs. Latch’s. The old woman took her in her arms.
 “It breaks my heart to think that one belonging to me should have done you such a wrong — But if you want for anything let me know, and you shall have it. You will want money; I have some here for you.”
 “Thank you, thank you, but I have all I want. Mrs. Barfield has been very good to me.”
 The babbling of so many voices drew Mr. Leopold from the pantry; he came with a glass of beer in his hand, and this suggested a toast to Sarah. “Let’s drink baby’s health,” she said. “Mr. Leopold won’t refuse us the beer.”
 The idea provoked some good-natured laughter, and Esther hid her face in her hands and tried to get away. But Margaret would not allow her. “What nonsense!” she said. “We don’t think any the worse of you; why that’s an accident that might happen to any of us.”
 “I hope not,” said Esther.
 The jug of beer was finished; she was kissed and hugged again, some tears were shed, and Esther walked down the yard through the stables.
 The avenue was full of wind and rain; the branches creaked dolefully overhead; the lane was drenched, and the bare fields were fringed with white mist, and the houses seemed very desolate by the bleak sea; and the girl’s soul was desolate as the landscape. She had come to Woodview to escape the suffering of a home which had become unendurable, and she was going back in circumstances a hundred times worse than those in which she had left it, and she was going back with the memory of the happiness she had lost. All the grief and trouble that girls of her class have so frequently to bear gathered in Esther’s heart when she looked out of the railway carriage window and saw for the last time the stiff plantations on the downs and the angles of the Italian house between the trees. She drew her handkerchief from her jacket, and hid her distress as well as she could from the other occupants of the carriage.

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